The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast
Amanda Lynette Arnier, MLS
When host Amanda meets Dick, the charming Mormon man from Las Vegas relentlessly pursuing her via social media for months, she never could have imagined the whirlwind that would follow. What starts as a passionate romance quickly spirals into something far more sinister. The Dichotomy Diaries isn’t just about your “run-of-the-mill” divorce—it’s about seven women, all unknowingly connected by the same predator, sharing their raw, unfiltered stories of betrayal, manipulation, and abusive games disguised as love. Season One pulls back the curtain on The Dichotomy that is Dick; as Amanda and his other victims untangle the dark layers of...
The Prequel: The Eye of the Storm
Dear Diary & Listeners,
There’s something unsettling about the way stories are told. Victims speak about their experiences. Predators speak about their victims.
When someone endures pain, betrayal, and manipulation, they share their story in an effort to heal, to be understood, to reclaim their truth. But the ones who inflicted that pain? They spend their time making sure you only hear their version of events. They rewrite history. They call their victims crazy, difficult, unstable—anything to
A Storm's A'Comin' - Official Trailer #1
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this riveting Premiere Trailer for Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries Podcast, I will introduce you to Ashley Klemm—a woman whose story of love and betrayal is as intense as the storm rollin' in this season.
Ashley bares it all as she guides us through the highs of romance, the heartbreak of loss, and the devastation of manipulation, culminating in the harsh realities of a lengthy family court battle.
Brace yourselves for a raw and eye-opening journey that sets the tone
S1:E33 -From The Ashes: The Final Episode
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PATREON IS LIVE!!! and MERCH IS LIVE!!!
Dear Diary & Listeners,
I’d be lying if I said getting to this last episode of The Dichotomy Diaries was anything close to a walk in the park. In truth, it’s been a grueling journey—one that has required me to face the ashes of my past and find a way to rise above them. Starting and maintaining this po
Let's Chat with Kyree Oliver: The #1 Masculinity Coach in the World
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I welcome Kyree Oliver, the world’s leading masculinity coach featured on: FOX, CNBC, Inc., ABC, ESPN, MSN, NBC News, & CBS; for a thought-provoking discussion on personal transformation, relationships, and redefining masculinity. With a background in psychology and marketing, Kyree shares insights into what sets his coaching approach apart and why his clients seek him out after working with others.
The conversation dives
Boystown Bathtub
TRIGGER WARNING: This episode of The Dichotomy Diaries discusses sexual assault in detail. If this topic is triggering for you, please take care of yourself and consider skipping this episode.
Dear Diary & Listeners,
The past few months have been a serious struggle for me. I’ve been dragging my feet on wrapping up Season 1 of the podcast, stuck in this frustrating writers' block. No matter what I did, I just couldn’t get the creative juices flowing like I used to, keeping me up late into t
S1:B5 - [EXCLUSIVE INTERVIEW] by Behk & LAH from Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters, Oh My!
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PATREON IS LIVE!!!
and
MERCH IS LIVE!!!
Dear Listeners,
I did an interview a while back with two LOVELY ladies by the name of Behk & LAH. If you haven't heard it yet, you're about to.
Enjoy!
Amanda
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In this special collaboration episode, Behk & LAH of "Narcissists, Gaslighters, and Cheaters
Let's Chat with The Duchess of Bay Ridge AKA Dr. Nadine Macaluso, LMFT, PhD
Dear Diary & Listener's,
I cannot tell you how excited I was to book this interview, with Dr. Nadine Macaluso. While most of you may not know her immediately by just mentioning her name- most of you probably know her story.
Dr. Nadine Macaluso was married to Jordan Belfort, The Wolf of Wall Street. Her character, name changed, was played by the beautiful Margo Robbie in the Scorsese director box office hit!
Join Dr. Nae and I as we discuss so many topics dear to both of our hearts.
In th
S1:B2 - [EXPERT BONUS] Let's Chat with Vanessa Reiser, LCSW
Dear Listeners,
In this exciting Bonus Episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, I interview the beautiful, bad ass, Vanessa Reiser, a Licensed Clinical Social Worker from The Big Apple who's got a BOOK coming out soon! (Pre-Order Link Below!)
We talk about SO many juicy topics including the connection between narcissistic abuse and cults, the behavior and mindset of narcissists and psychopaths, and dissect the experience of victims down piece by piece.
We touch on the confusing role most family members
S1:EP32 - [SAVANA'S STORY] Straight to Zelle: Part 2
Dear Listeners,
I think we may have uncovered something important during this episode...
As Savana and I discuss how her and Dick's engagement came to an abrupt end, I realize that I share with her that she had NO idea about.
Imagine her surprise when I fill her in on what HER FIANCE was doing way back when. Better yet, imagine the AUDACITY this man has to tell me the truth about his whereabouts and doings, while completely leaving out the fact that he was actively engaged to this beautiful huma
S1:EP31 - [SAVANA'S STORY] Straight to Zelle: Part 1
Dear Listeners,
In today’s episode, I am joined by a very special guest—Savana, who was once engaged to Dick. From the moment I reached out to her, Savana has been a pillar of support in uncovering the shocking truths about our shared ex.
Savana’s story is one of beauty, resilience, and positive energy. She brings her sassy and captivating personality to this conversation, making for an episode you won't want to miss. Together, we dive into the complexities of their experiences with Dick, revea
S1:E30 - [AMBRE'S STORY] Summer Solstice: Part 3
Dear Listeners,
HAPPY SUMMER SOLSTICE!
I know right? Quite coincidental for the LAST part of Ambre's story to be released wouldn't you say?
I love it when things like that happen.
I also love it when you can tell by the look in someone's face that a weight has been lifted from sharing something they kept to themselves for so long.
I applaud Ambre for making herself vulnerable and putting herself out there by telling this story.
In this episode you will hear some pretty shocking
S1:E29 - [AMBRE'S STORY] Summer Solstice: Part 2
Dear Listeners,
In this powerful and raw episode of The Dichotomy Diaries, Amanda sits down with Ambre to uncover the many layers of their toxic relationships. The conversation delves into several deeply personal themes, including:
Strained Family Dynamics: Amanda shares insights into the troubled relationship between her husband and his father, exposing the negative family dynamics and emotional abuse she endured.
Financial Control and Manipulation: Both Amanda and Ambre discuss the financial
S1:E28 - [AMBRE'S STORY] Summer Solstice: Part 1
Dear Listeners,
In today's episode, I had the pleasure of sitting down with Ambre to delve into the whirlwind of emotions and experiences that come with falling in love with a Wolf in Sheep's clothing.
Ambre takes us through her journey of meeting our shared ex, where the sparks flew and the relationship progressed rapidly. She opens up about the initial attraction, the deepening of their feelings, and the shared belief that they had each found their soulmate.
Our conversation also takes a pe
S1:E27 - [KYLIE'S STORY] All Bark. No Bite.
Dear Listeners,
In this episode, Kylie opens up about what drove her to be part of The Dichotomy Diaries podcast as we reflect on our shared experiences with relationships.
Join me as Kylie Brocato bravely shares her story about dating Dick, a man with a violent criminal history. What started with attraction and compliments soon turned into a nightmare of verbal abuse, manipulation, and attempts to disrupt her co-parenting relationship.
Despite the chaos, Kylie’s strength shone through, and she
S1:E26 - [ROHANNA'S STORY] Never Been Pro
Dear Listeners,
In this deep and insightful conversation, Rohanna and I explore Rohanna’s multifaceted life experiences, touching on her early life on Whidbey Island, her journey through homeschooling, and her early marriage. Rohanna also shares about her collaborative natural body care business with her mom in the Pacific Northwest, and the beauty of living near the orcas.
The conversation shifts to more personal themes, delving into Rohanna’s past narcissistic relationship with you guessed it.
S1:E25 - [JOANNA'S STORY] Houston, We Have a Squatter: Part 2
Dear Listeners,
In this segment of the conversation, Joanna and Amanda delve into the intricate dynamics of Joanna's relationship with her ex-partner, Dick.
They explore Dick's isolated lifestyle, his fixation on fitness and steroid use, as well as his troubling control over Joanna's diet and body image. Furthermore, they shed light on his neglectful behavior as a father to his daughter.
The discussion also touches upon Dick's manipulative tactics, including his skillful redirection during argu
JOANNA - Houston, We Have a Squatter: Part 1
Dear Diary & Listeners,
In this compelling episode, Amanda sits down with Joanna to delve into her personal journey with a former partner who, coincidentally, they both know.
Joanna candidly shares the story of their meeting, the subtle early signs of manipulation she noticed, and the profound impact it had on her life.
Both Amanda and Joanna hope that by sharing this story, it will provide solace to others and illuminate the realities of narcissistic abuse. They explore the characteristics
S1:B2 - [BONUS] Total Eclipse of the Heart
Dear Diary (& Loyal Listeners),
Today's solar eclipse reminds us of the beauty that can be found in life's uncertainties, prompting a brief ONE WEEK hiatus for The Dichotomy Diaries.
(I KNOWWWWWWW)
I'm grappling with personal challenges, including family matters and financial stress to the MAX.
I feel guilty for deviating from our schedule, trust me.
However, quality remains paramount as we anticipate new global listeners via a very exciting opportunity.
During this brief break, I'll address
S1:E23 - A Lil' Update
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
Per your request, I have chosen to break up the interviews with solo update episodes.
Here is a fun update. Well- fun in terms of entertainment I guess.
What you'll hear today had me shook.
Thanks for letting me share and be vulnerable with you. I am forever grateful...
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Lynette Arnier, MLS
If you have experienced anything similar and would like to be a guest on The Dichotomy Diaries, please email:
TheDichotomyDiaries@yah
KYLE - For The Plot: Part 2
Dear Diary & Listeners,
We're back with Kyle for Part Two!
I want to extend my greatest gratitude out to Kyle for sharing his story with us.
It was so wonderful to hear from another person with similar experiences. This validates me in my truth and I hope so many more of you in your own.
I know you've waited alllll day.
So here you go. Let's get to it!
VIDEO RECORDINGS OF EPISODES ARE HERE!
Forever Speaking My Truth,
Amanda Arnier, MLS
WE ARE ACTIVELY LOOKING FOR SEAS
S1:E21 - [KYLE] For The Plot: Part 1
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
You are now entering the part of The Dichotomy Diaries I like to refer to as...
THE INTERVIEWS
Everyone you will hear from, from this point forward is someone who had a first hand relationship with the monster that I married.
What my guests will be sharing will be FACTUAL, raw, and chronological.
You will also get an opportunity to ask guests of The Dichotomy Diaries questions in between the different parts of their episodes...
Please submit your questions in a DM on
S1:E20 - Beyond The Rainbow
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
We made it! We survived.
Even though at times it may have seemed impossible, we are both stronger than we thought.
This episode is the last episode in MY part of this story.
And while I am going to miss sharing my experiences with you weekly, I feel this indescribable weight lifted off my shoulders that it is all FINALLY OVER..
The next part of The Dichotomy Diaries Season One has one main focus…
To help others share their truth, finally experience closure
S1:E19 - This Fuggin' Guy
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
Welcome to the second to LAST episode in MY part of this tragic story.
We've been on a wild ride together.
But you know what...?
There's no one else I would have rather taken this trip with.
Episode 19 really needs no introduction, but I might as well give you a taste...
This is the episode where you find out how my marriage really ended.
Yep. This is the one.
I won't keep you waiting.
Just please, don't forget.
One day, you wake up...and it just
S1:E18 - With Liberty & Justice for All
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
While I had hoped the justice system would come through, it fell short, leaving me disappointed.
Did I get the justice I deserved?
Not at all.
My experiences were dismissed, making them seem like lies.
But does it matter in the grand scheme of things?
Also -Nope.
Why?
Because even if the court didn't see it, I know the truth, and now - so do you.
That feels like a win to me.
In Episode 18, I'll give you a quick rundown of my messy divorce court saga and share how I ce
S1:E17 - Creampie Confessions
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
Stress has taught me a lot this year.
I have learned that stress can be both debilitating AND motivating.
I have learned that no one cares what is going on in your life; they expect you to keep it moving as usual- no matter the price.
I have learned that while devastatingly debilitating at times; stress can sometimes be invisible to anyone other than yourself.
So what do we do with this information?
Well- we learn of course.
We learn how to manage our stress le
S1:E16 - Bang, Bang
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
You ever just want to pack a bag, grab your dogs, and drive to the furthest possible corner of the map and DEEP exhale into the vast nothingness?
Yeah...Me too.
This is where I am this week.
After returning home from an exhausting work trip; the inevitable happened.
I got sick.
And when I say sick, I mean SICK. Influenza A got cha girl in a choke hold.
Bang, Bang. I hit the ground.
Today is the first day in almost a week that I am able to get out of bed and do lif
S1:E15 - Behoove This
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
The flood gates are open and the reflective thoughts are pouring in.
Values. I've been talking a lot about family lately, but what about unique values I desire in a man? I know you'll be shocked to know...(sarcasm) that every single one of these unique values are dead opposite of Dick.
It feels good to think for myself again. I finally have my present and future back.
Le Sigh...
Now I just need to sleep more.
Here's a few Unique Qualities I pulled from a lis
S1:E14 - Divina Commedia
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
This episode is a total standout for me. I hardly ever get to geek out about Italian Literature and why it means so much to me. This week, I had this awesome "aha" moment while chatting about my absolute favorite piece of literature.
But hold on tight, 'cause things take a wild turn. We're talking a whopping $14k in medical bills, I manage to rip a door clean off its hinges (yeah, that happened), and guess what? Homelessness decided to make a guest appearance in my
S1:E13 - Make a Wish
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
I want to start off by saying Thank You. The Dichotomy Diaries has jumped insane numbers this past week and I have you all to thank for that.
Episode 13 starts off with an overview...and maybe a little sneak peek.
The point that we are at in this story is went mentally things all go down hill for me.
Naturally, this is taxing, but when I tell you it is C O M P L E T E L Y necessary- I mean it.
I am constantly questioned on why I would choose to sit with th
S1:E12 - Butterfly Language
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
As I sit here today writing this, it is January 1st, 2024.
A New Year always brings reflection.
I can't help but think about where I was on this exact day last year.
I remember waking up in an empty bed.
I always enjoyed waking up and having the first view of my day be my husbands face. This day was different. The night prior I had felt like we were a team. He was leading with WE. He had outwardly demonstrated what I had been asking for, for so long.
And
S1:E11 - Method Acting
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
We all strive to be the best at something.
For me, it was being a wife, a partner, a team member.
For others it might be more career oriented or status driven.
Not for me.
I've known as long as I can remember that I wanted to be a wife, a mother, and right hand to a fearless teammate who strives for greatness in life.
I've thought about this a lot this past week because as I try to be the best version of myself; I find that I fall short in a lot of areas I
S1:E10 - The House Always Wins
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
There is so much I want to say.
Today I reflect on the fact that this is the TENTH episode of The Dichotomy Diaries...
TEN?!
I was so scared to release the TRAILER you guys...
I remember recording it over and over again. On my IPHONE of all devices.
Something inside of me knew that this was exactly what I needed to heal, find purpose, and remember the feeling of self-love.
With Christmas right around the corner, I feel more emotional than usual.
I am so PROUD
S1:E9 - Wined, Dined, and Sixty-Nined
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
S U R P R I S E!
You've waited patiently. So without further adeiu...
I'd like to introduce you to Kyle.
Kyle is a past client, friend, and confidante of Dick. He is going to take us to school today on ALL THINGS FINDOM & Taboo.
He will answer some of your most asked questions...and give you a look inside what it meant to know Dick, as an openly gay male client.
AND. It's GOOOOOOD. Juicy. Spicy.
The Tea Kettle is Whistling BayBEE.
One thought I'd like to
S1:E8 - Mama Tried
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
I am stressed this week.
I have so many things going at once.
The holidays crept up and I feel like I am burning the candle at both ends.
I've found myself in a strange lull because of the holidays. Everywhere I look someone is experiencing joy and new beginnings.
I held space for myself for a moment, but didn't let it get the best of me. Between family, friends, and Italian Batman- there is so much potential, positivity, and love in my life right now.
Thats why th
S1:E7 - Rocky-Road Trip
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
You know the saying "If you don't use it, you lose it"...
First off, I want to go on the record and call BULLSHIT.
Why? I'm glad you asked!
When I first met Dick, he was entranced with my brain. He loved the way I thought, spoke, and saw the world. He would tell me, even as recent as June of 2023- that I was the smartest woman he had ever met.
I ate that shit up.
As our relationship progressed, it seemed that the very thing he loved so much about me, threatened
S1:E6 - Vanished in Happy Jack
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Dear Diary (& Listeners),
There's a theme this week.
We Teach People How To Treat Us.
And while yes, what I taught Dick our entire relationship was that he could walk all over me...
My lesson plan is a little different now.
Boundaries are difficult fo
Sergeant Steroids
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Dear Diary & Listeners,
When I tell you I have had the busiest three weeks of my life. I am nowhere close to joking.
You know, sitting back right now with my feet up on my desk and my hair up in a bun- I feel pretty damn accomplished.
I did som
Promises, Panic & Poppers
Dear Diary & Listeners,
I cried recording part of this episode.
And it got me thinking...
Why did THIS episode make me cry?
What is it about my wedding that sparks the tears?
You’d think that reliving the abandonments, the emotional abuse, and all the other subpar efforts confused as love would make me sad...
I know the answer.
This episode didn’t make me cry because I was reflecting on that moment of my wedding ceremony. Tears started flowing in the studio because right then; I felt
S1:E3 - Electric Daisy Abandonment
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
You know how some people say, "God will never give you more than you can handle"?
After recording this episode, I found myself thinking about that phrase a lot.
The process of outlining my relationship with Dick for this podcast has been filled with sorrow, but it has also brought understanding.
There were so many painful moments I experienced during this time that had been subconsciously tucked away in a file cabinet in my mind. Unpacking those file cabinets feels like
S1:B1 - [BONUS] Q&A Surprise!
Surprise!
I had fun answering all your questions.
Can’t wait for Tuesday!
See you there,
Amanda
S1:E2 - Shroom Things & Wedding Rings
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
I had a profound realization this week.
It's easy to view all that has happened as a loss. A devastating, painful loss.
Recounting my relentless effort and hope left me with this overwhelming feeling of emptiness.
How could I have given and given with absolutely nothing in return?
Why did he never feel or notice how hard I was trying to love him?
Was I actually loving him?
And then it clicked. Sometimes, the way we learn the true meaning of Unconditional Love- is by
S1:E1 - The Sin City Serpent
Dear Diary (& Listeners),
There is nothing more difficult than losing a loved one.
The pain one experiences when they can no longer hug, kiss, smell, confide in, and share life with a loved one is unlike any other.
Imagine experiencing this pain abruptly. There's just one difference, your loved one isn't dead. They ran away, entirely aware of the pain they knew this would cause you.
How does one manage the stages of grief and the confusion intertwined in such a malicious act- at the hands of
Official Trailer
The Official Trailer for The Dichotomy Diaries premiering October 10th, 2023. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church.
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Sneak Peek #2
Here is your first taste of what is to come in The Dichotomy Diaries. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church.
Instagram: @TheDichotomyDiaries & @manda.miura
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Sneak Peek #1
A Sneak Peek at what is to come. Here is your first taste of what is to come in The Dichotomy Diaries. Prepare to pick your jaw up off the floor every episode as you join your host, Amanda Arnier on a tale of lies, manipulation, narcissistic abuse, compulsive gambling, male escorting, and the pressures of The Mormon Church.
Instagram: @TheDichotomyDiaries & @manda.miura
TikTok: @TheDichotomyDiaries
Facebook: @TheDichotomyDiaries