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Introducing Ariise, the exciting new venture from Zoe Marshall, host of the internationally award winning podcast, The Deep. Zoe will speak to celebrities, entrepreneurs, neuroscientists, psychologists and doctors who have radical insights into the way their minds work and hacks on how to succeed in all areas of life. Ariise invites listeners to learn from the most successful minds and uncover the mysterious forces that can lead to profound personal growth and success. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy...

Can You Transcend?

A few months ago I learned how to do Vedic meditation, some call it transcendental meditation. It's best practiced twice a day for 20 minutes which is a real stretch for me but I had some really profound insights so I wanted to talk to someone who teaches Vedic. She's my teacher Carly. I want to share with you something you can take into your daily practice right now.The Deep and The Deeper has moved to a new feed. You can find it by searching "The Deep by Zoe Marshall" in your favourite podcast

Feb 24, • 34:45

Be A Good Girl

Today I speak to Dr Michelle and it is one of my favourite chats ever as a podcaster. To be able to go deeply into what it means to be a good girl, a good person, how we constantly betray and abandon ourselves for society, for others, for family, for friends, for jobs, for partners. I know that it has impacted how I treat myself and how I raise my daughter.The Deep and The Deeper has moved to a new feed. You can find it by searching "The Deep by Zoe Marshall" in your favourite podcasting app or

Feb 17, • 57:04

Heal To Serve

Today's guest has been through an amazing healing journey. Zoe is a survivor of domestic violence who has since found a way to live in her truth and is now bringing her learnings to others.The Deep and The Deeper has moved to a new feed. You can find it by searching "The Deep by Zoe Marshall" in your favourite podcasting app or at the links below. Remember to hit "follow" on the new feed so you are notified of new episodes.Apple PodcastsSpotifyAcastOther placesCredits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCal

Feb 10, • 50:51

The Body Whisperer

Today's guest speaks another language. The language of the body! Sarah Lal is an osteopath who taps into the mind-body connection to help release trauma, set boundaries, and improve mental health.The Deep and The Deeper has moved to a new feed. You can find it by searching "The Deep by Zoe Marshall" in your favourite podcasting app or at the links below. Remember to hit "follow" on the new feed so you are notified of new episodes.Apple PodcastsSpotifyAcastOther placesCredits:Joanne Helder - Prod

Feb 3, • 54:39

An Important Update on The Deep and Ariise

This feed is now Ariise. The Deep and The Deeper has moved to a new feed. You can find it by searching "The Deep by Zoe Marshall" in your favourite podcasting app or at the links below. Remember to hit "follow" on the new feed so you are notified of new episodes. Apple PodcastsSpotifyAcastOther placesPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @ariise___ or head to ariise.com.auAriise acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their contin

Feb 2, • 2:41

Favs From The Archives: Vagus Nerve Love with Tracy Whitton

Tracy Whitton is not what you would expect. After having a truly profound experience - a breakdown and then a breakthrough with Tracy, I had to have everyone share in Tracy's wisdom, especially when it comes to the nervous system.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash To

Jan 27, • 43:36

Favs From The Archives: My Relationship With A Paedophile

As a 12 year old, Ruth loved to chat with her friends online but it wasn't long before a predator found and groomed her. This very quickly became a real life, sexually abusive relationship between a child and a full grown adult paedophile. We have spoken to a few chid abuse victims on this podcast but Ruth's memory of this time is so clear that we get a real insight into what 12 year old her was thinking and experiencing. I think it's so important for parents to hear this story to understand how

Jan 20, • 44:14

Favs From The Archives: Aligning Action with Manifestation

I found John after watching The Secret and it's been a lifelong dream to be speaking to him in this way. Today we get into the nitty gritty of what manifestation really is. The actions you must take alongside manifesting to make it work, otherwise, John says you're living in a fantasy.Content warning: this episode contains mention of sexual assault. 1800RESPECT is the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling service.Follow John on Instagram @drjohndemartiniJoin the commu

Jan 13, • 53:50

Favs From The Archives: Emma Wiggle to Emma Memma - The Conscious Creator

You know her as Emma Wiggle (now Emma Memma) but you probably don't know the fascinating journey she's taken, from becoming a Wiggle to leaving what many would call the dream job. But she's found a higher purpose and today we discuss how she came to discover that and how she's using it to serve people and children everywhere.Follow Emma on Instagram @emmawatkinsofficialJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early

Jan 6, • 55:22

Favs From The Archives: When Science Meets The Spiritual

Today I really want to get into neuroplasticity and how it relates to manifestation. Rick is a psychologist who focuses on positive neuroplasticity and we get right into where science ends and the divine begins. As well as who can benefit most and what to do if your family is not supportive of this journey.Follow Rick on Instagram @rickhansonphdJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free liste

Dec 30, 2024 • 1:15:51

Favs From The Archives: The Child Of Kings Cross

Glen grew up on the streets of Sydney. What he has survived is absolutely incredible, homelessness, drug addiction, crime and the absurdity of our judicial system. He's lived through the worst aspects of humanity and has wise words for the rest of us.Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse and addiction. Resources are linked below.For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015.Samsn for male adult s

Dec 23, 2024 • 51:25

Favs From The Archives: From Housewife To Millionaire

Let's talk about empowerment. Finding the audacity to be the best version of yourself, the sacrifices you might make and if it's worth it. Lisa Bilyeu is the perfect example of this. She has turned so much of her life on its head - her business, her marriage, her family. I hope you find this one really inspirational.Follow Lisa on Instagram @lisabilyeuJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad fre

Dec 16, 2024 • 53:35

Favs From The Archives: The Port Arthur Massacre - The Daughter

The Port Arthur massacre. It's common knowledge in the minds of Australians but it's not often we hear the story of a family who lived through this first hand. Sue's mother was shot and killed during the massacre and her whole family feels the effects of it, even today.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Join the community

Dec 9, 2024 • 56:06

Two Witches Talking

Today I'm speaking to witch, psychic, author, astrologer, spiritual being Hollie Azzopardi. I intended this episode to be about gateways to explore your spirituality, it became something else. It is hilarious, it is shocking, it is wild. You are going to enjoy this thoroughly.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joan

Dec 2, 2024 • 57:28

Self Help With Gabby Bernstein

If you are a new mum, a mum to be, or if you suffer with anxiety, this episode is going to be really important. We discuss how to tie the work in with SSRIs, hormones and your inner self. It's such a beautiful place to start. I'm joined by Gabby Bernstein who is a spiritual self help author. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from

Nov 25, 2024 • 24:05

Your Soul Contract

You may have heard of your soul contract. If you haven't, it essentially means- what you are here to do. But I had no idea there was somebody you could see that could explain what your actual soul contract was. This is done by reading your birth name. Don't worry, I was skeptical too but tried it and was kind of blown away so today we're speaking to Charlotte Milda who reads soul contracts.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive

Nov 18, 2024 • 46:55

The Spiritual Dude

Today I speak to Henry. He is a big, buff, handsome dude from Queensland who is so in touch with his spirituality. He has developed something called the pneuma process. Today we're talking about blocks, tests and the things that create disharmony in our world. It's a fascinating conversation and a great one for the guys.Follow Henry on Instagram @henrynorton_Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and

Nov 11, 2024 • 44:46

The Baby Alcoholic

Today's interview is with one of my dearest friends and ex colleague Julia. She went sober a year ago and not in the way you would normally think. It's an interesting conversation because as Australians we've condoned excessive drinking. It's an exploration on self worth and how we have to mask that to belong.This episode discusses addiction. For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015.Join the community and go 'de

Nov 4, 2024 • 51:33

Ego, Love, And The Inner Child

Today on the show, I'm speaking to Rena Harvey. Rena is a healer, author, psychic and a reiki expert. Today our chat is about how to get the most out of yourself when trying to create the life of your dreams. This is such a big, robust chat and I hope you enjoy it.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder -

Oct 28, 2024 • 43:38

Coming Back Home To Yourself

Today I speak to Mitch Wallis and this conversation is going to blow your mind. Mitch is such an extraordinary person and I have not been this impressed by someone in mental health in so long. Today we're talking about attachment styles, my own therapizing, how we run from pain and run into pain. There are so many great pieces for you to take away from this chat.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access

Oct 21, 2024 • 38:39

Women Rise Up

Megan Dalla-Camina has had an exceptional career in big corporate for IBM, PWC and GE. She is now Founder and CEO of Women Rising and has helped over 10,000 women understand their true self and what life they really want to be living. I'm so interested to speak to a big wig corporate executive who has moved into really heart-lead leadership.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening

Oct 14, 2024 • 44:44

Favs From The Archives: Pussy Power with Kellie

I have spent the past few months doing womb spiral. It's a journey to awaken the feminine, investigate trauma and listen to your body and yoni. There are 7 gates moving through the female organs which each cover a different element of your life. I went through this with Kellie from Soul Healing and she is one of my trusted guides when it comes to this work. This is not one of my typical interviews, it's more a debrief of my experience, which I felt was really valuable to share. If you enjoy

Oct 7, 2024 • 48:00

Favs From The Archives: The Cuckold - The Wife

If you haven't heard of cuckolds, they are people who enjoy seeing their partner get intimate with someone else. Today we speak to Ciren whose husband is one such person. He'll even jump on the security camera to catch a glimpse. And this is what gets him off. Content warning: this episode sexually explicit.Follow Ciren:IG is @cirenv_2Twitter/X @Cirenv_2Onlyfans @cirenvManyvids Ciren Verde Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclu

Sep 30, 2024 • 41:53

Favs From The Archives: I Married A Gay Man

You've never met a woman like Karly. We spoke to her husband Steven in this season. He came out as gay, leaving his young family and starting a new life. So many of you wanted to hear her perspective so we got her on the show. Honestly this woman is incredible.Follow Karly on Instagram @__KarlyanneJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content

Sep 23, 2024 • 46:06

Favs From The Archives: The Dad Who Came Out

Steve was happily married with his wife and two young kids. But he was also living a lie. You see, Steve is gay. And he tried to suppress it for a long time but eventually the truth came out. We explore how Steve was able to mask this for so long and perform with women, how he discovered his sexuality and how he broke the news to his wife and kids.Follow Steve on Instagram @______steve88Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bon

Sep 16, 2024 • 46:58

Tap To Freedom with Giulia Alafaci

Today I want to bring you one of the most accessible modalities that I've been using. It's called EFT, emotional freedom technique or tapping. Guilia is a spiritual healer and she explains how this can be used for pain, both physical and emotional as well as breaking through blockages. And we are going to run you through just how easy it is!Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening

Sep 9, 2024 • 40:31

Vagus Nerve Love with Tracy Whitton

Tracy Whitton is not what you would expect. After having a truly profound experience - a breakdown and then a breakthrough with Tracy, I had to have everyone share in Tracy's wisdom, especially when it comes to the nervous system.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash To

Sep 2, 2024 • 43:36

Healing The Brain

You all know by now that I love manifestation (co creation) but today I really wanted to get into the science of the brain. Sarah was a marketing manager turned mental health professional and has studied neuro science. She has so many insights on how we can use our brain to improve our lives. This is not woo woo. It's real and practical and you can do it at home.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access

Aug 26, 2024 • 53:08

Motherless Mums

Navigating motherhood without my mum is one of the hardest things I have done. There are so many moments you just want to turn to your mum and ask something, or have a laugh together. Alison is one person who understands this as she has also lost her mum. If you have as well, you need to hear this episode. It gets very raw at times but you are not alone in this.Follow Alison on Instagram @alisonlarsenriceJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain acces

Aug 19, 2024 • 46:52

The Spy's Secrets

Stew is an ex spy. He has a brilliant mind and today I wanted to explore his views on mental health, co creation, self sabotage and addiction. He has so much knowledge in this area I think we can all learn something today.Get Stew's book https://linktr.ee/stewdarling and follow him on Instagram @stewdarlingJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juic

Aug 12, 2024 • 39:26

Trauma And Neuroscience

Overcoming trauma is something I really want to get into on Ariise. Jessica is an expert in the brain and the nervous system. We chat about how the body stores trauma and how to create new neural pathways to change our experience of it. This is one of the most helpful podcasts I've done so far and I hope you love it.Follow Jessica on Instagram @repairing_the_nervous_systemJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, ea

Aug 5, 2024 • 56:50

Aligning Action with Manifestation

I found John after watching The Secret and it's been a lifelong dream to be speaking to him in this way. Today we get into the nitty gritty of what manifestation really is. The actions you must take alongside manifesting to make it work, otherwise, John says you're living in a fantasy.Content warning: this episode contains mention of sexual assault. 1800RESPECT is the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling service.Follow John on Instagram @drjohndemartiniJoin the commu

Jul 29, 2024 • 53:50

Emma Wiggle to Emma Memma - The Conscious Creator

You know her as Emma Wiggle (now Emma Memma) but you probably don't know the fascinating journey she's taken, from becoming a Wiggle to leaving what many would call the dream job. But she's found a higher purpose and today we discuss how she came to discover that and how she's using it to serve people and children everywhere.Follow Emma on Instagram @emmawatkinsofficialJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early

Jul 22, 2024 • 55:22

Favs From The Archives: Manifesting Money

Who wants more money? We all do right. This is epic. How to manifest more money, more wealth, more abundance... You deserve this! We've asked Kat Dawes to come back. If you heard her episode with her story you'll know she manifested a juicy abundant life for herself and she's going to reveal the secrets on how you can do it too.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular e

Jul 15, 2024 • 38:21

This Is Ariise

Introducing Ariise, the exciting new venture from Zoe Marshall, host of the internationally award winning podcast, The Deep. Zoe will speak to celebrities, entrepreneurs, neuroscientists, psychologists and doctors who have radical insights into the way their minds work and hacks on how to succeed in all areas of life. Ariise invites listeners to learn from the most successful minds and uncover the mysterious forces that can lead to profound personal growth and success.Follow Ariise on Insta

Jul 14, 2024 • 2:51

Favs From The Archives: The Woman Who Remembers Everything

Imagine being able to remember every moment of your life. Even when you were a baby. Today's guest Rebecca has a condition called HSAM, Highly Superior Autobiographical Memory. She can re-live the best moments of her life, like blowing out the candles on her childhood birthday cakes but also the bad memories, which can feel like they are raw and real. This is such a fascinating chat with someone who experiences memory and time differently to most of us. Enjoy. Join the community and go 'dee

Jul 8, 2024 • 42:49

Favs From The Archives: The Cheater

Today we delve into the mind of a cheater, an adulterer. Danielle betrayed her husband by having an affair for 12 months. This is a surprising tale about relationships, polyamory, and perceptions.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital

Jul 1, 2024 • 35:18

Favs From The Archives: Exploring BDSM

Today we discuss all things BDSM. Everything you wanted to know about the kinky stuff others get up to in their bedrooms and how beginners can dabble in BDSM to spice up your life.Content warning: This episode is very sexually explicit.Follow Cindra on Instagram @cindrabanksJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne

Jun 24, 2024 • 41:40

The Queer Family

Today's guest went through such a different journey to parenthood and it's such a beautiful one. Sean and his partner both loved the way they were raised and wanted to emulate that. They are queer parents and are doing so many great things. We really hope this is an enlightening chat and shows some of the more positive sides of raising a family in an unconventional way.Follow Sean on Instagram @seanszepsJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access

Jun 17, 2024 • 59:06

KIC Girls Manifested This

How do you build a massively successful business with a friend, while running a family? Two friends Steph and Laura, have created an amazing business together in the wellness space and today they're sharing their secrets on how they found the best team, how they manifested the best things in their personal lives and their daily rituals to keep on going.Follow KIC on Instagram @kic.appSteph @stephclairesmithLaura @laura.henshawJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co

Jun 10, 2024 • 53:55

The Anxious Entrepreneur

Ethan went from failing university to now touring some of the biggest names in self development like Gary Vee, and he's only 29. This is an incredible story about coming back from failure to create the life of your dreams. And if you have a child in this situation, how you can help them turn it around too.Follow Ethan on Instagram @ethan.donatiJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listen

Jun 3, 2024 • 36:32

When Science Meets The Spiritual

Today I really want to get into neuroplasticity and how it relates to manifestation. Rick is a psychologist who focuses on positive neuroplasticity and we get right into where science ends and the divine begins. As well as who can benefit most and what to do if your family is not supportive of this journey.Follow Rick on Instagram @rickhansonphdJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free liste

May 27, 2024 • 1:15:51

An Unconventional Mother

Today I'm joined by the most amazing human. Millie lives off grid with her little family, which she created using a family friend as a sperm donor. Her son has a disability but is in the best possible hands - you'll hear why. Millie is such a breath of fresh air on this topic and I hope you love her as much as I do.Follow Millie on Instagram @jessi_and_millieJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and

May 13, 2024 • 51:16

From Housewife To Millionaire

Let's talk about empowerment. Finding the audacity to be the best version of yourself, the sacrifices you might make and if it's worth it. Lisa Bilyeu is the perfect example of this. She has turned so much of her life on its head - her business, her marriage, her family. I hope you find this one really inspirational.Follow Lisa on Instagram @lisabilyeuJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad fre

May 6, 2024 • 53:35

A Conversation On Grief

Since we often discuss trauma and loss on this podcast, I really wanted to spend some time unpacking grief in a helpful way. Sal and Im from the Good Mourning podcast are joining me today to chat through some helpful ways to process grief, including loss of a parent, loss of a child, and how different cultures handle grief.Check out the Good Mourning Podcast podcasts.apple.com/au/podcast/good-mourning/id1529978129 and find them on Instagram @goodmourningpodcastJoin the community and go 'deeper'

Apr 29, 2024 • 59:18

Ariise - A New Chapter

It's time to Ariise. Some changes are coming to The Deep and we hope you love what we have planned.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or

Apr 22, 2024 • 17:25

Favs From The Archives: ICU For Kids

Danielle is a paediatric intensive care nurse. That means she cares for children and their families at their worst point. Children who are sick, children who are abused, children who are dying. I think anyone who's able to take on this role deserves a medal. Danielle has seen the worst things children go through and still gets up every day to do it again.Content warning: This episode discusses child abuse and child sexual abuse. Support resources are linked below.Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800.Ac

Apr 15, 2024 • 32:20

Favs From The Archives: The Lactating Porn Star

Ali Kali is famous as the lactating porn star. Yep, she's known for squirting dudes in the face with her milk. But that's only a tiny part of why I wanted to talk to her. Her story is a wild ride involving addiction, sex work, child loss, and... meditation masturbation?Content warning: this episode is very sexually explicit and contains discussions on infant loss, addiction and suicide. Support resources are linked below.For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the Na

Apr 8, 2024 • 56:39

Favs From The Archives: The Son Of A Murderer - Part 2

This is part 2 of my interview with Collier - who lost everything when his father murdered his mother. Today we discuss what it's like to grow up with everyone knowing your sad story and what happens when he confronts his father in prison.Content warning: This episode discusses domestic violence including murder. For assistance please contact 1800RESPECT the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling service.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at app

Apr 1, 2024 • 35:19

Favs From The Archives: The Son Of A Murderer - Part 1

Collier was just an 11 year old boy when his father killed his mother. And Collier was not going to let him get away with it. This is part 1 of the incredible story of a newly orphaned child's relentless pursuit of justice and growing up being famous for all the wrong reasons. Content warning: This episode discusses domestic violence including murder. For assistance please contact 1800RESPECT the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling service.Join the community an

Mar 25, 2024 • 38:18

The Child Of Kings Cross

Glen grew up on the streets of Sydney. What he has survived is absolutely incredible, homelessness, drug addiction, crime and the absurdity of our judicial system. He's lived through the worst aspects of humanity and has wise words for the rest of us.Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse and addiction. Resources are linked below.For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015.Samsn for male adult s

Mar 18, 2024 • 51:25

Gender Disappointment

Jordana longed for a baby girl, but instead she was blessed with three boys in a row. To some it may be trivial but to others gender disappointment is heart-breaking. The grief of the loss of the child you had imagined, and the guilt that follows is what we discuss openly today.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Jo

Mar 11, 2024 • 41:38

The Truth About Meshel Laurie

This is such a special episode. Comedian, media personality, and fellow podcaster Meshel Laurie joins me and we get real deep into her personal life. From her relationship with her father to how she deals with trauma to raising her kids. You probably haven't seen this side of Meshel and I'm so glad she shared it with me. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes

Mar 4, 2024 • 55:12

Grief And Intimacy

We deal with a lot of grief on the podcast and I think we have all been through it in some way. Today I really wanted to explore intimacy during, and after grief. It's not something that a lot of people talk about so I'm starting the conversation now. I'm navigating all of this with Rachel from LBDO. She is an expert in sexual wellness and has also had her own experience with grief.LBDO have given us a code for 15% off their Essensual Vibe using the code THEDEEP15 at checkout. Head to LBDO.com t

Feb 26, 2024 • 39:49

The Gambling Addict's Wife

Last week we spoke to Elliott. It was actually his wife who reached out to us about his story and I feel it's really important to share both sides of this one. Tamara shares what it has been like living with a gambling addict for so long, hoping things would change.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder -

Feb 19, 2024 • 44:46

The Gambling Addict

Today we speak to a gambling addict. Elliott was introduced to sports betting at an impressionable age and became a full blown addict for 10 years. As someone who doesn't fully understand the pull of gambling, I really wanted to know where the high comes from and what makes them keep going back. Elliott was really candid with me and shared things he's never spoken about before. Content warning: This episode discusses gambling addiction and suicide. Visit the National Gambling Helpline&nbsp

Feb 12, 2024 • 51:34

Honouring The Bleed

Today I want to start a conversation about periods. I want there to be no shame, no self consciousness, just freedom. I want to know how we can honour our bleed and what it does for us, and undo the decades of negativity that we have been fed. So today I speak to Zoe Butler, a body whisperer, and we do just that.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extr

Feb 5, 2024 • 45:16

My Relationship With A Paedophile

As a 12 year old, Ruth loved to chat with her friends online but it wasn't long before a predator found and groomed her. This very quickly became a real life, sexually abusive relationship between a child and a full grown adult paedophile. We have spoken to a few chid abuse victims on this podcast but Ruth's memory of this time is so clear that we get a real insight into what 12 year old her was thinking and experiencing. I think it's so important for parents to hear this story to understand how

Jan 29, 2024 • 44:14

Beyond the Surface: Zoe Marshall's Journey Through Life's Depths Straight Talk with Mark Bouris

From the podcast Straight Talk with Mark Bouris.Zoe Marshall: a wife, mother, media personality, and the host of the thought-provoking podcast, 'The Deep.'Mark and Zoe unravel the layers of her life – from her role as an unconventional wife to Benji Marshall, her insights into relationships and human interactions, to her courage in addressing taboo topics.Zoe fearlessly opens up about her traumas, including an abusive past, family betrayals, and the loss of her mother. Through candid conversatio

Jan 22, 2024 • 1:14:28

Favs From The Archives: The Pussy Whisperer

Rosie Rees is a pussy whisperer, crystal sex toy entrepreneur, and nude yoga founder. She's all about connection to the vulva. Pop in some headphones 'cause this one is going to get juicy and isn’t for little ears.Content warning: this episode is sexually explicit.Follow Rosie on Instagram @rosie.rees and visit www.yonipleasurepalace.comJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to

Jan 15, 2024 • 48:44

Do you ever feel like it's groundhog day too? w Zoe Marshall

From the podcast Parenthood.This week I chat to one of my fabulous mentors, Zoe Marshall (@zoebmarshall). We discuss her existential crisis in May and how that has changed her forever. We delve into:🎙 Feeling ‘meh’ about life and not knowing if we can go on🎙 Being obsessed with the ‘doing’ and ‘success’ until we reach burnout🎙 How a health crisis led to reframing what’s important in life🎙 Is rest really lazy?And so much more…To listen to the episode the link is in our bio 🎧For more on Zoe v

Jan 8, 2024 • 48:43

Favs From The Archives: The Open Relationship

Do you think you could watch your lover get dolled up for an evening, putting on perfume and their sexiest undies... knowing they were about to sleep with someone else? So many of us couldn't even imagine, but many people can - and do. Being in an open relationship or living in "the lifestyle" for some is liberating and is the most loving way they know to honour their partner.Content warning: This episode contains sexually explicit content.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribi

Jan 1, 2024 • 55:14

Surviving Domestic Violence with Zoe Marshall - Untidy

From the podcast Untidy.In this episode of Untidy we talk to Zoe Marshall, media personality, creator of ‘The Deep’ podcast, and self-described over-sharer. Our conversation with Zoe is about her experience of surviving domestic violence. We talk about what made her a target for getting drawn into that relationship, how she got trapped, and why it’s so hard for the victims of abuse to get out and stay safe.CONTENT WARNING: Some of this conversation may be triggering to some listeners. Please che

Dec 25, 2023 • 1:13:19

Favs From The Archives: The (middle of the) Human Centipede

Everyone has heard of the 2010 cult horror film "The Human Centipede" and if you haven't, I’m sure you are googling it now.I remember hearing how it had been banned in some countries and that people were passing out in the cinemas watching it!I was fascinated, over the years I had watched the trailer, too scared to watch the film. It’s plotline- three tourists are sewn together mouth to… end, by a mad surgeon to form one gastric system. And the tagline for the film is… "100% medically accurate!!

Dec 18, 2023 • 49:55

Zoe Marshall Uninterrupted

From the podcast The Girls Uninterrupted.We are so excited to have Zoe Marshall on the podcast this week, this is an episode you will NOT want to miss.Zoe has been a broadcaster for over 12 years, and is the host and creator of the hugely successful podcast The Deep. From diving into Gloriavale, interviewing terminally ill parents, a madam, a lactating porn star and a man who has sex with dolls - there is quite possibly no one Zoe wouldn’t interview.She’s also a mother of two, and a self-confess

Dec 11, 2023 • 1:00:36

The Satanic Cult - Part 2

We spoke to Serena last week about her life growing up in a Satanic cult. But after leaving, her life didn't get any simpler. The man she married turned out to be a narcissistic cheater, and the story of their relationship is just so bizarre. Content warning: this episode discusses self harm and suicide. For assistance, contact Lifeline 13 11 14.Follow Serena at her website serenamastin.com and get her book at www.amazon.com/dp/0645690236?ref_=cm_sw_r_cp_ud_dp_47P4HNPAQ4XBR352DP4Y_1Join the comm

Dec 4, 2023 • 52:30

The Satanic Cult - Part 1

Growing up in a satanic cult, Serena was being abused before she was even 5 years old. Her father, the leader of the cult, committed all sorts of abuses in the name of ritual and sacrifice. Serena is now able to tell her story with a level of self awareness and empathy that is just so impressive.Content warning: This episode discusses child abuse. Contact Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800.Follow Serena at her website serenamastin.com and get her book at www.amazon.com/dp/0645690236?ref_=cm_sw_r_cp_u

Nov 27, 2023 • 50:54

Pussy Power with Kellie

I have spent the past few months doing womb spiral. It's a journey to awaken the feminine, investigate trauma and listen to your body and yoni. There are 7 gates moving through the female organs which each cover a different element of your life. I went through this with Kellie from Soul Healing and she is one of my trusted guides when it comes to this work. This is not one of my typical interviews, it's more a debrief of my experience, which I felt was really valuable to share. If you enjoy

Nov 13, 2023 • 48:00

The Port Arthur Massacre - The Daughter

The Port Arthur massacre. It's common knowledge in the minds of Australians but it's not often we hear the story of a family who lived through this first hand. Sue's mother was shot and killed during the massacre and her whole family feels the effects of it, even today.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Held

Nov 13, 2023 • 56:06

Intersex

Intersex, lots of us have never heard of the term. We did do an episode with a mother of an intersex child. You can go back into the archives to hear that one. Today we're talking to someone who is intersex. Blume is an incredible human and this is their story.Follow Blume on Instagram @blumekind_Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content

Oct 30, 2023 • 51:23

The Cuckold - The Wife

If you haven't heard of cuckolds, they are people who enjoy seeing their partner get intimate with someone else. Today we speak to Ciren whose husband is one such person. He'll even jump on the security camera to catch a glimpse. And this is what gets him off. Content warning: this episode sexually explicit.Follow Ciren:IG is @cirenv_2Twitter/X @Cirenv_2Onlyfans @cirenvManyvids Ciren Verde Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclu

Oct 30, 2023 • 41:53

Childhood Dementia

Renee's story is one of pain that is yet to come. She's discovered that her children have a terminal genetic disorder, a type of childhood dementia. As young children they appear perfectly normal but the disease progresses fast, and there is no cure.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb J

Oct 23, 2023 • 47:54

The Journal

Today I want to share with you my greatest friend in life Nina and the power of journaling. This isn't a fluffy 'dear diary' either. This is raw. This is without expectation of outcome. Today I am sharing a lot about myself. I hope you enjoy and take something with you from this chat.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Cred

Oct 16, 2023 • 1:07:05

Mirror Syndrome

I had never heard of mirror syndrome before recording this interview. An unborn baby with a terrible diagnosis which is also passed on to the pregnant mother. It sounds like science fiction but this is what happened to Sophie. Content warning: this episode discusses child loss. For support contact: Miscarriage and stillbirth support Pink Elephants www.pinkelephants.org.auSANDS www.sands.org.au or 1300 072 637Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain a

Oct 9, 2023 • 42:45

The Yes Vote

This Saturday, if you are Australian you'll be asked to vote either yes or no for First Nations and Torres Strait Islander People to have a voice in parliament. This referendum can be confusing so we've called in Millie Telford to explain how it all works.Links: Here you can pledge to talk to 3 people: https://www.yes.org.au/tripletheyesvotePassing The Message Stick, which includes a conversation guide for talking about the referendum & First Nations justice: https://passingthemessages

Oct 9, 2023 • 47:15

Favs From The Archives: The 14 Year Old's Daughter

Isla is Frankie's daughter. I wanted to speak to someone who's parent survived deep trauma. I wanted to hear what it was like to witness your mother become an addict, what impact this has on a child and who they become because of it.Content warning: this episode discusses drug abuse. If you are suffering or are triggered by the content, please contact the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline on 1800 250 015.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain

Sep 25, 2023 • 36:42

Favs From The Archives: The 14 Year Old

As a 14 year old girl Frankie was kidnapped and gang raped for hours and hours. This is her incredible story of survival. It's a story of abuse, addiction, domestic violence, a mother's love and forgiveness.Content warning: this episode discusses rape, abuse, domestic violence, addiction and disordered eating. If you are suffering or are triggered by the content, help services are listed below.Domestic violence assistance 1800 RespectAct For Kids to prevent and treat child abuse and neglect www.

Sep 18, 2023 • 48:58

Zoe Goes Deep On The Deep - Interviewed by Jaclyn from The Betrayed

Today is a really special episode. I've been interviewed on the Jaclyn Shaw Show. The very same Jaclyn from the episode The Betrayed. I really wanted to share the episode with you as well. We talk about why I started The Deep, how I'm able to hold space as a reflector, which episodes have had the biggest impact on me and yes, we talk about THOSE episodes - the betrayed and betrayer and your reaction to it. I hope you enjoy it. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.

Sep 11, 2023 • 41:31

The Terminal Parent- The News We Didn't Want

It's been 3 years since I spoke to my first ever podcast guest, Kate. If you haven't heard her episode go back to the first ever episode of The Deep, The Terminal Parent and have a listen first. Now Kate is back, and so is her cancer. But she's more confident than ever that she can heal herself for a second time.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extr

Sep 4, 2023 • 47:34

About Time For Justice

As a child, Jacob's life was on the wrong track. Following in his fathers footsteps he joined a bikie gang and found himself in trouble with the law before even turning 18. After being sexually abused in custody, he made it his mission to find justice for survivors of institutional abuse.Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse. Support resources are linked below.Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800.Act For Kids to prevent and treat child abuse and neglect www.actforkids.com.auBlue Kn

Aug 28, 2023 • 50:05

Low Tox Living

Today we're deviating from the usual content we have on The Deep. But there's an important reason. I'm really concerned with how much toxins and microplastics are invading our everyday lives, and the impact this is having on our health. I want to know how we can minimise our exposure but I'm also a realist. We all have busy lives, kids, budgets, cravings. We're not perfect. So I spoke to Alixx Stuart from Low Tox Life about some of the small changes we can make that will have the biggest impact.

Aug 21, 2023 • 1:23:16

The Never Ending Trauma

This is perhaps one of the saddest episodes we've ever done on The Deep. Sophia has experienced far more than her share of grief and trauma. It's completely unjust. But Sophia still has poise and gratitude and she is such a ray of light. Content warning: This episode discusses the death of a young child. Follow Sophia on Instragram @sophiaperera Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free list

Aug 14, 2023 • 48:43

Hack Your Way To Wellbeing

We are addicted to being busy. We wear stress like a badge of honour. Let's want to turn the tables on that today. Let's slow down, look after our minds and bodies and change our way of thinking. Sharon is a mentor for stress and she is going to share her most valuable bio hacks to reduce stress and reconnect.Follow Sharon on Instagram @sharonkolkk and Facebook @SharonkolkkaJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes,

Aug 7, 2023 • 53:20

Life After Gloriavale - Part 3

This is the 3rd and final part of our series on Gloriavale. If you want to hear Faithful's story go back and listen to part 1 and 2. Today we're going to discuss all things integration. After being born into a religious cult, what is it like to go to the supermarket, a public pool, a new church? How do you make friends? This is eye opening. I hope you enjoy it.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access a

Jul 31, 2023 • 34:09

Inside The Gloriavale Cult - Part 2

Welcome to part 2 of my interview with Faithful. Where we left off, he was plotting his escape with his wife and 7 children. Today we learn how that all went down and how they began to integrate into the modern world.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams,

Jul 24, 2023 • 45:50

Inside The Gloriavale Cult - Part 1

This is all about the Gloriavale cult, which started in New Zealand in 1969 and is still in operation today. Faithful, yes that is his real name, was born into the cult. In this episode he shares all about what life was like growing up in that community, what school was like, and please note this episode does discuss some of the sexual abuse that occurred. Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse. Support resources are linked below.Lifeline 13 11 14Blue Knot Foundation for fema

Jul 17, 2023 • 38:36

Favs From The Archives: The Prison Birth

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.Chloe Quayle is a proud Malyangapa, Barkindji woman, a talented artist and rapper and a respected member in her community. But 3 years ago things were wildly different. Chloe had been in and out of the system since she was 14 but this time Chloe turned herself in. She was pregnant and she

Jul 3, 2023 • 1:00:32

Favs From The Archives: The Swingers

We’ve all heard of swingers right? What do they actually do? Who are they? My immediate thought is of the cliché - keys in the bowl middle-aged couples now empty nesters, looking for something to enhance the next stage of life. But is this cliché true? What are the rules, what are the boundaries and what’s the reality of being a swinger?Follow Jess and Lawrence on Instagram @oursecretspot and visit their website oursecretspot.com.au.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis -

Jun 26, 2023 • 51:11

Favs From The Archives: The Wrongfully Accused

Could you imagine being imprisoned for 12 years for a crime you didn't commit? How would you survive that, how would you survive solitary confinement, survive the other prisoners, survive the injustice? Today I get to speak to Raphael Rowe who did survive. In fact he has gone on to be a great journalist and the host of "Inside the worlds toughest prisons" on Netflix.Content warning: this episode references violence and suicide. If you feel triggered or need someone to talk to contact Lifeline on

Jun 19, 2023 • 1:02:57

ICU For Kids

Danielle is a paediatric intensive care nurse. That means she cares for children and their families at their worst point. Children who are sick, children who are abused, children who are dying. I think anyone who's able to take on this role deserves a medal. Danielle has seen the worst things children go through and still gets up every day to do it again.Content warning: This episode discusses child abuse and child sexual abuse. Support resources are linked below.Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800.Ac

Jun 12, 2023 • 32:20

The Autosexual

Ghia is an autosexual. They are romantically and sexually attracted to themselves. Today we're going to explore this sexual identity, which I admit I've never heard of, and discuss how it affects relationships, mental health and self love.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - Mus

Jun 5, 2023 • 26:28

I See Dead People

Mikki has this amazing blessing and curse that she can speak to dead people. Apparently they like to show up at the most inopportune times and if you have this gift, it's important to set boundaries. This podcast describes a world that you may not see and may not believe in but it's super interesting and somewhat comforting to learn about. In fact I became so fascinated by this that I've done a reading with Mikki that you'll find over on The Deeper later this week.Connect with Mikki at her links

May 29, 2023 • 39:51

The Terminally Ill Dad - Part 2

Last week we heard from Brendon, a dad who was diagnosed with stage 4 terminal cancer. If you missed it, go back and listen to part 1 first. This week we discuss some of the more unconventional treatments that Brendon has had done. It's absolutely wild and it's not a cure. This is just one person's experience and we're certainly not recommending this for you or your loved ones. However it is incredibly fascinating to see how other parts of the world and other people treat disease.Join the commun

May 22, 2023 • 37:01

The Terminally Ill Dad - Part 1

Brendon is a father of two boys who had a very treatable form of cancer. After treatment his doctors told him he was in the clear. Only a few months later it was discovered that his body was absolutely riddled with cancer and this time it was terminal. Brendon shares the brutal treatments he's endured as well as how his family have handled the situation, including his young sons.This is part 1 of my chat with Brendon. Next week I'll be releasing part 2 which discusses some of the more unconventi

May 15, 2023 • 49:32

The Woman Who Remembers Everything

Imagine being able to remember every moment of your life. Even when you were a baby. Today's guest Rebecca has a condition called HSAM, Highly Superior Autobiographical Memory. She can re-live the best moments of her life, like blowing out the candles on her childhood birthday cakes but also the bad memories, which can feel like they are raw and real. This is such a fascinating chat with someone who experiences memory and time differently to most of us. Enjoy. Join the community and go 'dee

May 8, 2023 • 42:49

Dismantling A Cult

Today I'm speaking with two survivors and recruiters of the nxivm cult. They escaped and shut the whole thing down. nxivm was positioned as a self help business with tiers to advance. But there was a cost and over time there were strategies designed to keep you in. Strategies that were controlling and horrific. This article explains the terms we discuss.Content warning: This episode discusses disordered eating, abuse, and pregnancy termination. Support resources are linked below.Lifeline 13 11 1

May 1, 2023 • 1:10:34

Manifesting Money

Who wants more money? We all do right. This is epic. How to manifest more money, more wealth, more abundance... You deserve this! We've asked Kat Dawes to come back. If you heard her episode with her story you'll know she manifested a juicy abundant life for herself and she's going to reveal the secrets on how you can do it too.Kat and I have produced a guided meditation all about money. How to accept abundance, being worthy of wealth, living the lifestyle you desire. It's the how-to of manifest

Apr 24, 2023 • 38:21

Favs From The Archives: The Madam

Stacey is a madam, she manages everything when it comes to brothels and sex workers, including clients. After 16 years she wants out, but not before she tells us everything she has experienced.Content warning: This episode contains sexually explicit & graphic content.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder

Apr 17, 2023 • 38:45

Favs From The Archives: The Betrayer

Last week we spoke to Jaclyn, today we get to speak to Craig. He is Jaclyn’s husband, the one who cheated. The one who left his family for another woman. Very rarely do we get to hear from the adulterer. Why did they do what they did? What were they thinking?It’s a conversation that is full of shame, regret, lessons learned and so much love. It's his first time speaking about this publicly.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive

Apr 10, 2023 • 1:14:11

Favs From The Archives: The Betrayed

What would you do if you were pregnant, had a 2 year old son and found out the love of your life was leaving you for someone they met at the gym?How would you deal with the betrayal? Would it make you crazy?Would you do things you regret? Would you take them back?This is a wild story of infidelity, forgiveness and redemption.Follow Jaclyn on Instagram @forthewildfemme.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early

Apr 3, 2023 • 1:06:52

I Married A Gay Man

You've never met a woman like Karly. We spoke to her husband Steven in this season. He came out as gay, leaving his young family and starting a new life. So many of you wanted to hear her perspective so we got her on the show. Honestly this woman is incredible.Follow Karly on Instagram @__KarlyanneJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content

Mar 27, 2023 • 46:06

The Family Rapist - Part 2

Last week we spoke to Krystal about the elder who had abused all the girls in the family including her mum. Today we speak to Krystal's mum. Dani was sexually abused from as early as she can remember. And her own mother put her in that situation. Delivering her to the family paedophile on a weekly basis. It is harrowing. But this is also a story of an incredibly strong woman who did better and is breaking the cycle of generational trauma.Content warning: this episode discusses child sexual abuse

Mar 20, 2023 • 1:03:26

The Family Rapist - Part 1

An elder of a family abused every single little girl for generations. The victims are many and their responses are just as varied. Krystal's mum was one of the last to be abused. But the trauma has been passed down and this family are now in the process of healing.Content warning: this episode discusses child sexual abuse. Support resources are listed below.Act For Kids to prevent and treat child abuse and neglect www.actforkids.com.auBlue Knot Foundation for female adult survivors of child sexu

Mar 13, 2023 • 53:34

Vaginismus - How It Stole 7 Years From Me

Jasmin was raised as a Christian and saved herself for marriage. But her wedding night was not the beautiful moment she had imagined. Jasmin suffers from Vaginismus - an involuntary tightening of her vaginal muscles that makes sex extremely painful, if not virtually impossible. This is such a brave and fascinating discussion on the way that religion and purity culture can have a huge effect on our sexual health.Check out Jasmin's podcast: Conscious Sexuality The Podcast. Her website is www.consc

Mar 6, 2023 • 46:10

The Unwanted

Imagine hearing your mum say she wished she had an abortion. Always feeling like a burden. Always hungry because she never fed you. That was Fiona's childhood. It's so bizarre and so sad and it's affected every aspect of her life. Content warning: this episode discusses disordered eating and pregnancy termination. Resources are linked below.Disordered eating assistance The Butterfly Foundation or 1800 33 4673Miscarriage and stillbirth support Pink Elephants www.pinkelephants.org.au and SANDS www

Feb 20, 2023 • 42:57

The Dad Who Came Out

Steve was happily married with his wife and two young kids. But he was also living a lie. You see, Steve is gay. And he tried to suppress it for a long time but eventually the truth came out. We explore how Steve was able to mask this for so long and perform with women, how he discovered his sexuality and how he broke the news to his wife and kids.Follow Steve on Instagram @______steve88Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bon

Feb 20, 2023 • 46:58

The Lactating Porn Star

Ali Kali is famous as the lactating porn star. Yep, she's known for squirting dudes in the face with her milk. But that's only a tiny part of why I wanted to talk to her. Her story is a wild ride involving addiction, sex work, child loss, and... meditation masturbation?Content warning: this episode is very sexually explicit and contains discussions on infant loss, addiction and suicide. Support resources are linked below.For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the Na

Feb 13, 2023 • 56:39

Hot Girls Don’t Celebrate Jan 26

As we approach January 26, this year we hand the microphone over to two amazing indigenous creators.Matty has been sunning himself on nude beaches while Brooke has just been getting nude in the backyard!Matty and Brooke also went on a trip last year that changed their lives forever!And we chat with one of Australia's top First Nations performers and advocates Isaiah Firebrace, ahead of what is a very polarising day for First Nations people to find out what he thinks about the day.Check out their

Jan 25, 2023 • 39:11

January 26 - Two Journeys, One Message Of Change

As we approach January 26, this year we hand the microphone over to two amazing indigenous creators.Gamilaroi and Dunghutti author and podcaster Marlee Silva teams up with one of her best mates, proud Wiradjuri man and Cronulla Sharks star Nicho Hynes to have a conversation about one of their toughest days on the calendar: January 26th. They reflect on who they were as kids and what the day meant to them back then, what it's like for them now and what they wish non-Indigenous people would know a

Jan 23, 2023 • 1:07:09

Favs From The Archives: The Toxic Love Triangle

Today we are going to hear a complex story of a really toxic love triangle that is fuelled by violence and fear. It's a story that belongs in a Hollywood film, a story of manipulation and at its core is brutal domestic violence.Content warning: This episode contains explicit depictions of domestic violence. For assistance please call 1800 Respect.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free lis

Jan 16, 2023 • 56:36

Favs From The Archives: The Foster Kid

Charlie has survived extreme neglect, abuse and cruelty at the hands of his mother. At the age of 12 she dropped him off at a care home and never returned.Charlie was thrown into the foster system like 1000's of other children. Moved 10 times in 8 years. This is his story.Content warning: This episode deals with child abuse and neglect. For help, children can contact Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800. Adults can contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.If you feel moved to donate to children in foster care, ple

Jan 9, 2023 • 1:01:59

Favs From The Archives: The Mistress

What do you know about BDSM? Is it what you have seen in Bollywood films, read about in 50 shades of grey or have you experienced it first hand? Mistress Eva takes us deep inside her dungeon and shares the intimate world of being a mistress. We talk about who these people are that seek her services, how much it costs to worship her and how far she is willing to go to take someone to the edge of their desires. The most shocking part - this isn't "just" Eva's work, she doesn't clock off after a sh

Jan 2, 2023 • 57:42

Favs From The Archives: The Doll Banger

If I told you there was a man, who said since having his "real dolls" aka sex robots- his life has never been more fulfilled would you believe me?Brick Dollbanger has been living with real dolls for 12 years. He in fact is so deeply immersed in the community that the creators of real doll have asked him to be the sex robot test driver. This episode is mind blowing but you may want to listen to it with earphones in.Content warning. This episode is extremely sexually explicit.Check out Brick's web

Dec 26, 2022 • 50:27

Favs From The Archives: The Trauma Cleaner Part 2

I hope you enjoyed season 10 of The Deep. Just a quick note to let you know that seasons will now be 8 episodes long. But not to worry, I'm reposting some of my absolute favourite episodes, like this one, so you'll never be short of something to listen to. We continue talking to Sandra Pankhurst but now we move into her current work as a trauma cleaner.What is that?Its the work no one wants to do, 3 week old decaying body- call the trauma cleaner, double suicide- call the trauma cleaner, me

Dec 19, 2022 • 20:10

Favs From The Archives: The Trauma Cleaner Part 1

I hope you enjoyed season 10 of The Deep. Just a quick note to let you know that seasons will now be 8 episodes long. But not to worry, I'm reposting some of my absolute favourite episodes, like this one, so you'll never be short of something to listen to. Sandra is like a cat that has nine lives. There are so many chapters of this story we had to share it over two episodes.Sandra grew up as Peter and through his life he was many things: He became a father, a husband, a woman, a drag artist

Dec 12, 2022 • 30:46

Zoe Reflects on Season 10

What a season! Zoe shares the behind the scenes on every episode from The Home Invasion to Turia Pitt. She also shares her views on the MAFS drama and your reaction to it.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic Part

Dec 5, 2022 • 12:50

The Near Death Experience - Turia Pitt

Turia Pitt is now a motivational speaker, podcaster, mother, she has done a TED talk, and in 2011 Turia was caught in a bushfire while running an ultra marathon. 65 % of her body was burnt. I wanted to talk to her about that moment, that day, and the moments after. I've always been completely fascinated by someone that has come that close to death and survived.Follow Turia on Tik Tok: @turia_pitt and Instagram @Turiapitt and check out her podcast: Turia Pitt is Hard Work.Donate to Interplast:&nb

Nov 28, 2022 • 1:00:29

From Civilian to Villain with Liv from MAFS

Today we hear from Olivia from MAFS. We spoke to Dom and it's only reasonable to hear from Liv too, not because of "she said, she said" but because it's fascinating that people go on reality TV shows knowing there are heroes and villains and you could become either one. Liv is the villain and this is what happens; the country hates you, there's a pile on, death threats, you lose your career, your partner etc. But underneath this is a human being. We've all made mistakes so if you have a preconce

Nov 21, 2022 • 1:03:05

From Civilian to Celebrity with Dom from MAFS

You may have heard of the TV show MAFS (Married At First Sight). Last season we got to see the toxicity and the craziness of the show unravel. Two people in the middle of the drama were Dom and Olivia. I was so invested in their relationship and their dynamic and also with Dom being slut shamed on TV. I wanted to explore why you would go on a show like this, what it's like becoming an overnight celeb and how you deal with it all.Note this is not a normal Deep episode. It's more of a conversation

Nov 14, 2022 • 51:47

The Man With Endometriosis

Endometriosis is painful, it's debilitating, it's also thought of as a women's disease. But Cori is a man who suffers with endo. It's affected his identity and the ability to get the medical care he needs.Content warning: This episode discusses sexual assault and medical procedures. 1800RESPECT is the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling serviceFind all of Coris links at Linktr.ee/cori5mith and donate at gofundme.com/justiceforCorisStoryJoin the community and go 'dee

Oct 31, 2022 • 43:29

The Ex Amish

Emma grew up in an Amish community. We discuss what her childhood was like, allegations of abuse, escaping, and how on earth she managed to adapt to modern life as an adult.Get Emma's book Runaway Amish Girl: The Great Escape. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-

Oct 31, 2022 • 46:36

The Baby Born with CMV

Jayne was well into her much wanted pregnancy when she discovered there was something very wrong. Something so severe that the doctors said she should have terminated. But it was now too late. This is Jayne's one of a kind experience with cytomegalovirus (CMV).Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Hel

Oct 17, 2022 • 43:58

Exploring BDSM

Today we discuss all things BDSM. Everything you wanted to know about the kinky stuff others get up to in their bedrooms and how beginners can dabble in BDSM to spice up your life.Content warning: This episode is very sexually explicit.Follow Cindra on Instagram @cindrabanksJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne

Oct 17, 2022 • 41:40

The Home Invasion

A home invasion is one of the most terrifying experiences a human can endure. Someone breaking in, attempted rape, and multiple stabbings. This is Leigh’s story.Content warning: This episode discusses sexual assault, drug and alcohol abuse and disordered eating. Resources are linked below. 1800RESPECT is the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling serviceFor free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800

Oct 10, 2022 • 1:22:20

BONUS: Chatting Climate Change with Sarah Wilson

Sarah Wilson was a huge media personality she created "I Quit Sugar book” which became a movement. She gave it all up to be a part of a greater movement. The climate crisis. This is a conversation we need to have around taking responsibility for ourselves, climate change, how scary the world really is right now and that there is something we can actually do about it. It's a bit of a departure from our usual episodes but an important one.Follow Sarah on Instagram @_sarahwilson_ and her website ww

Sep 27, 2022 • 39:08

The Male Sex Abuse Survivor

Nathan was an 8 year old boy when he was sexually assaulted by a grown man. His story is one of abuse and betrayal. He shares it with courage and in detail. It's not suitable for little ears.Nathan's story is extremely confronting. For this reason we have chosen to censor parts of it. The full unedited interview is available to subscribers on Apple Podcasts or Acast +.Content warning: This episode contains graphic descriptions of child sexual assault, drug abuse and depression. Resources are lis

Sep 19, 2022 • 47:23

The Cheater

Today we delve into the mind of a cheater, an adulterer. Danielle betrayed her husband by having an affair for 12 months. This is a surprising tale about relationships, polyamory, and perceptions. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digita

Sep 12, 2022 • 35:18

Conversion Therapy

Assigned male at birth, Clare's family felt the need to 'fix' her. So they sent her to conversion therapy with an unqualified religious fanatic. It was torture. You can still hear the pain in her voice. Content warning: This episode mentions suicide. For support please contact Lifeline 13 11 14Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content fro

Sep 5, 2022 • 51:47

The Death Row Survivor

It sounds like something straight out of a movie. Ron was enjoying a road trip when out of the blue he was arrested for a murder he did not commit. And with no evidence and no trial he was put on death row. Ron never accepted his fate and eventually uncovered the truth, that this wasn't just a simple mistake.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra ju

Aug 22, 2022 • 49:57

The Truth About Psychedelics

Psychedelics. You're probably thinking about party drugs right now, but when used medicinally with proper supervision and alongside the correct therapies, drugs like psilocybin can be hugely successful at treating depression, PTSD and other mental health conditions.Tania DeJong went to the Netherlands to experience this treatment first hand, and she says it changed her life. She is now an advocate for legalising this type of treatment in Australia.Please note: This episode is discussing legal tr

Aug 22, 2022 • 35:46

The Comatose

Last year Brie had a life threatening accident and survived but was left in a coma. Today we hear about that moment in her life, the bizarre things that happened afterwards and what it's like living with a traumatic brain injury. Content warning: This episode contains discussion of drug and alcohol abuse, domestic violence and suicide. Support resources are listed below.For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250

Aug 8, 2022 • 36:20

Sophie Cachia Left Him For Her

What happens if you've got it all - husband, children, career, and then just after your second baby you meet someone of the same sex and everything you know to be true about yourself is turned on its head? This is Sophie's story and it changed the trajectory of her life.Follow Sophie on Instagram @sophiecachia_ Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra

Aug 1, 2022 • 54:07

The Son Of A Murderer - Part 2

This is part 2 of my interview with Collier - who lost everything when his father murdered his mother. Today we discuss what it's like to grow up with everyone knowing your sad story and what happens when he confronts his father in prison.Content warning: This episode discusses domestic violence including murder. For assistance please contact 1800RESPECT the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling service.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at app

Jul 25, 2022 • 35:19

The Son Of A Murderer - Part 1

Collier was just an 11 year old boy when his father killed his mother. And Collier was not going to let him get away with it. This is part 1 of the incredible story of a newly orphaned child's relentless pursuit of justice and growing up being famous for all the wrong reasons. Content warning: This episode discusses domestic violence including murder. For assistance please contact 1800RESPECT the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling service.Join the community an

Jul 18, 2022 • 38:18

The Ukrainian

Julia is a Ukrainian woman who is living through war. She's lost everything, her home, her business, even her husband, who has decided to stay and fight. She's got an 8 year old daughter and this is her story.Please note we interviewed Julia with the assistance of an interpreter named Sasha. Content warning: This episode contains graphic descriptions of war and violence including loss of life. Support resources are linked below. Lifeline 13 11 14Support line for ADF members and their f

Jul 18, 2022 • 38:35

Coming up on The Deeper

New episodes of The Deeper will drop every fortnight - even during the holidays. Here's a little update from Zoe and a tease for the next few episodes coming up on The Deeper.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning

Jun 29, 2022 • 1:59

Zoe Reflects on Season 8 and The Deeper

Season 8 has been our biggest season of The Deep yet! Zoe reflects on one of the most controversial episodes - The Paedophile Hunter, the launch of The Deeper, and how it felt to share her own story of domestic violence. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms

Jun 27, 2022 • 31:54

The Crunchy Cult

You may have heard of crunchy mums before. A group of people who are passionate about health but it turned into something way more sinister. Laura was indoctrinated into this lifestyle and still carries the scars. This episode may trigger your beliefs about medical intervention, birth and beyond.Follow Laura on TikTok @iamlevelingupJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regul

Jun 20, 2022 • 46:05

The Sex Addict's Partner

Today's episode is one of the most disturbing I've ever recorded. Darcy was in a relationship with a sex addict. But it's more than that. His fantasies became wildly depraved and non-consensual. Some of Darcy's story was just too horrific to put on the deep. There is an uncut version. For those who want to hear it, the full unedited story is available now on The Deeper subscription at apple.co/thedeep.Content warning: This episode describes rape and sexual violence in graphic detail, as well as

Jun 13, 2022 • 45:22

The Leukaemia Baby

Just before Bobby's 2nd birthday he came down with what his parent's thought was a cold. But within an hour a blood test revealed the worst possible news. He had leukaemia. Bobby's mum Ness is a warrior and one of the strongest women I know. This is her story.Follow Bobby's journey on Instagram @charlie_eddie_bobby online www.bobbyray.com.au and donate through www.gofundme.com.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episode

Jun 6, 2022 • 48:32

The Brothel Babe

Alice is a vibe. A young woman so in touch with her self, body and sexuality it’s inspiring. She's a sex worker. And she loves her job. In fact she’s proud of it! Today we get the nitty gritty of working in a brothel, the men she meets, the fetishes, and also the frightening encounter that left her traumatized.Content warning: This episode contains sexually explicit content, drug use, rape/sexual assault. Support resources are listed below.1800RESPECT is the national sexual assault, domestic and

May 30, 2022 • 58:39

The Mother Who Lost It All - Part 2

This is part 2 of Nix's story.After losing her son, Nix life took a turn. Within a week she had a meth addiction and was headed towards a life of crime including being a pimp. The story gets even wilder as she finds herself in jail, and then as an unlikely social media star.Content warning: This episode discusses miscarriage and infant loss, sex work, drug and alcohol abuse, domestic violence, medical/autopsy details, suicide and extremely coarse language. Support resources are linked below.Misc

May 23, 2022 • 47:51

The Mother Who Lost It All - Part 1

Nix woke up one morning to find her baby boy had passed away in his sleep. A moment that changed everything for everyone. The sadness and pure mayhem that ensued is so unbelievable, we had to do two parts.This is part 1 of Nix's story. Stay tuned next week for part 2.Content warning: This episode discusses infant loss, sex work, drug and alcohol abuse, domestic violence, medical/autopsy details, suicide and extremely coarse language. Support resources are linked below.Miscarriage and stillbirth

May 16, 2022 • 46:04

They/Them and Us

Deni identifies as a non-binary queer person. They are also a stylist, content creator and LGBTQIA activist. Today we explore identity, what it means to use different pronouns, and learn to embrace a world very different to the one our parents grew up in. Content warning: This episode discusses bullying and suicide. Resources linked below.Lifeline 13 11 14Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800Follow Deni on Instagram @stylebydeni.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by visiting zoemarshall.com/dee

May 9, 2022 • 59:24

The Male Gigolo

William is a gigolo, a high class male escort. Women pay thousands to see him. Why? He knows what women want. This is the untold world of a male sex worker.Content warning: This episode is very sexually explicit.Follow William on Instagram @william_taylor_aust and Twitter @Will_maleescort and check out his website www.williamtaylor.com.auJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by visiting zoemarshall.com/deeper.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPleas

May 2, 2022 • 41:03

The Paedophile Hunter - Keeping Our Kids Safe

Adam Whittington travels the world to save children from sex trafficking. But these crimes can happen right under our noses. This is a special bonus episode where we learn the covert ways predators are finding and grooming our kids. And most importantly, how to protect them.Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse. Resources listed below.Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800.1800RESPECT is the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling serviceAct For Kids to prev

Apr 27, 2022 • 32:42

The Paedophile Hunter

Adam Whittington rescues children from sex trafficking. He's seen the absolute worst this world has to offer. He doesn't work for any government- he created his own company and does things his own way to help desperate families. It only takes a quick Google search to find out Adam is a fascinating man who attracts a lot of attention for his work. Listen to the story in his own words and decide for yourself.Content warning: This episode contains extreme and graphic descriptions of child trafficki

Apr 25, 2022 • 1:00:21

The Critical Thinker - Flex Mami

A special bonus episode with multimedia star and critical thinker Flex Mami. It’s a candid conversation between two women that will stretch the way you think about life, vulnerabilities, success and suppressed emotions.Follow Flex on Instagram @flex.mami.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by visiting zoemarshall.com/deeper.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.c

Apr 18, 2022 • 54:47

Going deeper with Zoe - a reflection and a reveal

You had some strong feelings about this season's guests. Zoe reflects on her headspace during 'that' interview with Spanian as well as Molly and your reactions to them both.It's finally time to reveal what we've been working on behind the scenes. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by visiting zoemarshall.com/deeper.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thede

Apr 4, 2022 • 27:07

The Meth Addict's Wife

Behind closed doors, Sally's husband was the perfect man, she had the perfect family. But things started changing. Sally noticed her perfect life falling apart. Sally’s husband was becoming addicted to meth. This is a heart wrenching story about watching the one you love, your forever person, become something else. How long would you stick it out through hellish episodes of paranoia and psychosis? When would you walk away? This is Sally's story.Content warning: This episode deals with drug addic

Mar 28, 2022 • 57:29

The Pussy Whisperer

Rosie Rees is a pussy whisperer, crystal sex toy entrepreneur, and nude yoga founder. She's all about connection to the vulva. Pop in some headphones 'cause this one is going to get juicy and isn’t for little ears.Content warning: this episode is sexually explicit.Follow Rosie on Instagram @rosie.rees and visit www.yonipleasurepalace.com to get 15% off with code: ZOE15.This episode is proudly supported by Modibodi. Visit www.modibodi.com and use code: ZOE2022 for 15% off excluding sale items, bu

Mar 21, 2022 • 48:44

The Spanian - Bonus Content

One episode with Spanian was not enough. He also has this incredible book out- Spanian: The unfiltered hood life. And that's what this little bonus episode is about. It's an in depth look at his private life, the man behind the tough exterior. Make sure you listen to part one of this chat first because now, we're going straight to where it all started - with his mum.Content warning: this episode discusses extreme violence, drug abuse and child sexual abuse. Resources are linked below.For free an

Mar 16, 2022 • 47:06

The Spanian

Spanian is an ex-career criminal, a clinically diagnosed psychopath. A drug dealing, ram raiding and stabbing kinda dude. Well he was. Now rapper and social media icon. Come with us while we explore this fascinating man.Content warning: this episode discusses extreme violence and drug abuse. For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015.This episode is proudly sponsored by Her Black Book the app, for women who love t

Mar 14, 2022 • 53:27

The Opioid Addict

Addiction. It's a slippery subject, one we've covered a few times here on The Deep. Today's episode is about a woman, Jess who got addicted to prescribed pills. Medication from a doctor. This is more common than we think. It's happening and it's happening to young people. Jess's story is scary, traumatic and fascinating.Content warning: This episode deals with drug addiction and rape. Resources are listed below.For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alc

Mar 7, 2022 • 44:41

The Good Witch

Today I speak to Allira Potter who is a real life witch. A good witch. We talk about what it means to be a modern day witch, from potions to how she has created spells and how to freeze people out of your life.Content warning. This episode mentions alcohol & drug abuse, and mental health concerns. For assistance please check the links below.Lifeline 13 11 14 or www.lifeline.org.auNational Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015Follow Allira on Instagram @allira.potter and check out her book

Feb 28, 2022 • 38:33

The Carer

Today's episode is about a beautiful mother by the name of Kathie who has been a carer to her child, Miranda, for the past 15 years. Miranda suffered what seemed to be a little injury at school but was in fact a major brain injury that has changed her life and her family's life forever. This is a heavy conversation, it is also heartbreaking. Listen to this with a big open heart and be ready to cry. Because life is so unfair sometimes.Content warning: this episode mentions suicide. For help pleas

Feb 21, 2022 • 54:10

The Alien Encounter

Today I speak with Luna who has direct contact with aliens. At first I was pretty unsure, and I'm sure many of you are listening to this about to roll your eyes. I get it. This episode will push you to the edge but keep your mind open. It is wild and so funny at times whilst also quite beautiful and profound whether you end up believing or not.Content warning: this episode briefly mentions suicide. For help please contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.Names and images have been changed for privacy reason

Feb 14, 2022 • 43:39

A Parent's Worst Nightmare - Follow Up

Today we get to speak to the beautiful Molly who we've heard from before. She is a Mum of two young girls who were sexually assaulted by her long term partner. We had a tremendous response from her episode with so many listeners asking about the court case, about how the girls were and showing so much love and support. Some even wanted to give money to her and the girls who at the time were displaced and not living in a permanent home. Before listening to this I encourage you to go back and list

Feb 7, 2022 • 57:16

The Bodzilla

Today I speak to The Bodzilla also known as April. She is a trailblazer. A woman that has created a space for body acceptance and fat positivity. We are talking about Fat.. the shame, the stigma, the attitudes towards it and how we need to banish Fat being bad. This is a really honest conversation between two very different women, our relationships with our bodies and how we need to change the narrative around the word FAT.Content warning: This episode discusses child abuse, restrictive eating,

Jan 31, 2022 • 1:04:02

Invasion Day 2022

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.Aj is a proud indigenous woman and educator.You would have heard our invasion day conversation this time last year.Seeing as we are here again and the date still hasn't changed - we still have much more to discuss and educate ourselves. I have asked Aj what she feels has progressed since

Jan 24, 2022 • 30:39

Mr Iconic the Porno Star

Today I speak to Mr Iconic, aka Chris, who is Australia's most popular male pornstar. We've had a lot of sex workers on The Deep, but never a male sex worker. We cover what it's like to have children whilst being in the sex industry, the impact his career has had on his parents and what it is like when there is real passion away from the scenes he is shooting.Content warning: This episode contains sexually explicit content.You can follow Mr Iconic on Instagram @mriconic.officialx.og and find the

Dec 13, 2021 • 1:02:35

No Ordinary Girl

Today I speak to Grace Hyland - A trans woman who you may have seen go viral on Instagram and Tik Tok. Grace is articulate, smart and so glamorous. Today we talk about it all! From knowing she was transgender as young as four. Her reassignment surgery, dating and how it is to be a trans woman in 2021.Content warning: This episode discusses medical procedures and suicide. For help, children can contact Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800. Adults can contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.Follow Grace on Instagra

Dec 6, 2021 • 59:26

The Gossip Guy

Today I speak to Jonathon Moran also known as JMo and... Australia's biggest gossip columnist. Over the years I have had my time with JMo - sometimes happy, sometimes disgruntled at the angle the stories he has written about me have taken. Today I ask him all the questions about one of the world's most controversial jobs. Who hates him, how awkward it is, does he sleep at night after writing something horrible about someone. This episode has so many levels - just like JMo. The most surprising pa

Nov 29, 2021 • 54:59

The Open Relationship

Do you think you could watch your lover get dolled up for an evening, putting on perfume and their sexiest undies... knowing they were about to sleep with someone else? So many of us couldn't even imagine, but many people can - and do. Being in an open relationship or living in "the lifestyle" for some is liberating and is the most loving way they know to honour their partner.Content warning: This episode contains sexually explicit content.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ D

Nov 22, 2021 • 55:14

The Open Relationship

Do you think you could watch your lover get dolled up for an evening, putting on perfume and their sexiest undies... knowing they were about to sleep with someone else? So many of us couldn't even imagine, but many people can - and do. Being in an open relationship or living in "the lifestyle" for some is liberating and is the most loving way they know to honour their partner.Content warning: This episode contains sexually explicit content.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ D

Nov 22, 2021 • 55:14

Zoe and Danae Candidly Debrief

This week’s episode is very different, we’ve never really done anything like this on The Deep before. Danae, my birth doula who you heard from last week, came to see me about four months after Ever’s birth. We hadn’t seen each other since and we wanted to debrief together. The conversation was so good that I just had to stop her, grab a microphone and put it between us to start recording before we continued the chat. You may notice that the audio is a bit different because we only used the one m

Nov 15, 2021 • 45:28

The Doula

Finally three and a half months later I got to record my birth story.I wanted to do this in the first 6 weeks, but the Universe had other plans.This is a three-part story so if you haven't listened already, go back to last week's episode and hear my husband Benji's perspective. Next week you'll hear from my doula Danae about what went down on June 15th.And today you get to hear the story of Ever's arrival from my doula Danae's perspective.I asked my friend Alison to interview us - I am so gratef

Nov 8, 2021 • 49:30

The Mother - Zoe

Finally three and a half months later I got to record my birth story.I wanted to do this in the first 6 weeks, but the Universe had other plans.This is a three-part story so if you haven't listened already, go back to last week's episode and hear my husband Benji's perspective. Next week you'll hear from my doula Danae about what went down on June 15th.And today you get to hear the story of Ever's arrival from my perspective.I asked my friend Alison to interview us - I am so grateful for her, sh

Nov 1, 2021 • 1:00:37

The Mother - Zoe

Finally three and a half months later I got to record my birth story.I wanted to do this in the first 6 weeks, but the Universe had other plans.This is a three-part story so if you haven't listened already, go back to last week's episode and hear my husband Benji's perspective. Next week you'll hear from my doula Danae about what went down on June 15th.And today you get to hear the story of Ever's arrival from my perspective.I asked my friend Alison to interview us - I am so grateful for her, sh

Nov 1, 2021 • 1:00:37

The Father - Benji

Finally three and a half months later I got to record my birth story.I wanted to do this in the first 6 weeks, but the Universe had other plans.This is a three-part story - you are going to hear this story from my perspective, as well as my husband Benji and my doula Danae's point of view of what went down on June 15th.I asked my friend Alison to interview us - I am so grateful for her, she has a beautiful mind and asked such beautiful questions.Today you'll hear the story of Ever's arrival from

Oct 25, 2021 • 36:27

A Little Update

Today's mini episode is a little update from Zoe on what's been happening for her in the last few months, where she's at now and what the future plans are for The Deep. We also have a very important question we'd like your input on for the next season. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe. Join our holiday event at thedeep.com.au/pages/events https://plus.aca

Sep 6, 2021 • 16:27

The Answers To Your Questions - Part 2

Today’s episode is part 2 of Zoe answering your questions… and there were some great ones! She talks about what it takes to be a guest on The Deep, why we stopped recording earlier than planned and the episodes that got pulled for legal reasons. Zoe also spills on who her dream interview would be, how she copes with the uncomfortable moments with guests and shares her thoughts on whether or not she crosses a line into playing therapist. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe to gain access

Aug 16, 2021 • 30:59

The Answers To Your Questions - Part 1

In today’s episode Zoe answers your questions, including why she doesn’t want to share more of her own story, which episode was surprisingly the hardest for her to record, why some episodes can’t go to air, one of the hardest heart-breaking things about doing The Deep, the very popular question of how we find & select guests and so much more.Zoe also talks a little about early guest Sandra Pankhurst who was a major inspiration for The Deep. Since this episode was recorded, Sandra sadly passed aw

Aug 9, 2021 • 26:49

The Ally We Need

Tarang is a wise and fierce feminist. And yes he is also a man. A man who has endured one of the most painful things a brother ever can... his sister Nikita was murdered by her partner in the most brutal way. Her life stolen from her. Tarang's family robbed. This is a story of a man's fight for women's rights. This is where we would love all men to meet us women and Tarang is leading the way, through his grief and rage, he continues to make real impact.Content warning: This episode contains grap

Aug 2, 2021 • 53:29

The Madam

Stacey is a madam, she manages everything when it comes to brothels and sex workers, including clients. After 16 years she wants out, but not before she tells us everything she has experienced.Content warning: This episode contains sexually explicit & graphic content.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subs

Jul 26, 2021 • 38:45

Post Natal Depletion with Oscar Serrallach

The fourth trimester? What is it? What does that even mean? We've done the hard yards with the pregnancy and the birth, can't we just focus on the baby now?! In this series we share conversations with leading experts that cover every angle of the fourth trimester and why taking care of the mother is so vital during this season of motherhood.Today's expert is Doctor Oscar Serralach, a leading expert in post-natal wellbeing. He treated me at my lowest point and is regarded as the one to go to when

Jul 21, 2021 • 1:04:13

The Grieving Mother

What happens when you get the worst call of your life? The worst call imaginable for any parent? What do you do? How do you cope?Today Jay shares her story of losing her precious son Jaike to suicide.You will hear how brave she is, how much she loves talking about her boy and you will also hear the whole way through, how cathartic but also how hard it is for her to speak about these moments. How her life is forever fractured and will never be the same without him.Content warning: this episode di

Jul 19, 2021 • 46:11

Midwifery and Beyond with Renata Lardelli

The fourth trimester? What is it? What does that even mean? We've done the hard yards with the pregnancy and the birth, can't we just focus on the baby now?! In this series we share conversations with leading experts that cover every angle of the fourth trimester and why taking care of the mother is so vital during this season of motherhood.Today's expert is Renata Lardelli, a Registered Nurse and Midwife and her mission is to help new mums find their footing as they transition from woman to mot

Jul 14, 2021 • 44:24

The Haunted

Hailey is a self described Sensitive, this means she can see, hear and communicate with spirits. Sometimes it's nice and can help those grieving connect. And sometimes it's terrifying! Either way, Hailey loves it and wouldn't change a thing.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating

Jul 12, 2021 • 31:16

She Births and Beyond with Nadine Richardson

The fourth trimester? What is it? What does that even mean? We've done the hard yards with the pregnancy and the birth, can't we just focus on the baby now?! In this series we share conversations with leading experts that cover every angle of the fourth trimester and why taking care of the mother is so vital during this season of motherhood.Today's expert is Nadine Richardson, a mother, doula, childbirth educator and yoga teacher with over 20 years experience in the birthing space. She’s also th

Jul 7, 2021 • 1:07:08

The Loved Up Pornstars

Kate and Chris are a beautiful couple. And I mean that in a totally superficial way. They are hot. They have beautiful bodies and beautiful faces... They also have beautiful sex! How do I know? Because for a while now, they have been filming their most intimate moments together... for millions of people to see. They like to call it conscious and ethical porn. I bet you won't be able to resist checking them out!Content warning: This episode contains graphic sexual content.Follow Kate and Chris on

Jul 5, 2021 • 53:20

Post-Partum Nutrition with Jessica Sepel

The fourth trimester? What is it? What does that even mean? We've done the hard yards with the pregnancy and the birth, can't we just focus on the baby now?! In this series we share conversations with leading experts that cover every angle of the fourth trimester and why taking care of the mother is so vital during this season of motherhood.Today's expert is Jess Sepel, a nutritionist who is passionate about women's wellbeing. Jess has always had a major focus on food being medicine and has now

Jun 30, 2021 • 35:04

The Impact of Suicide

Kirsten and her brother Shaun were inseparable - they grew up together in a close knit family. They were best friends. Shaun was successful, married, happy. Then one day without warning... he took his life. This is a powerful episode that will challenge the way you look at suicide.Content warning: This episode discusses suicide. If you are triggered or need assistance please call Lifeline on 13 11 14.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your th

Jun 28, 2021 • 40:55

Post-Partum and Psychology with Tania Trapolini

The fourth trimester? What is it? What does that even mean? We've done the hard yards with the pregnancy and the birth, can't we just focus on the baby now?! In this series we share conversations with leading experts that cover every angle of the fourth trimester and why taking care of the mother is so vital during this season of motherhood.Today's expert is Dr Tania Trapolini, a Peri-Natal Clinical Psychologist who is passionate about supporting individuals and their families navigating their u

Jun 23, 2021 • 48:44

The Post-Partum Doula with Naomi Chrisoulakis

The fourth trimester? What is it? What does that even mean? We've done the hard yards with the pregnancy and the birth, can't we just focus on the baby now?! In this series we share conversations with leading experts that cover every angle of the fourth trimester and why taking care of the mother is so vital during this season of motherhood.Today's expert is Naomi Chrisoulakis. Naomi and I went to high school together, many moons ago - so it was so nice to reconnect in what feels like another li

Jun 16, 2021 • 0:00

The Betrayer

Last week we spoke to Jaclyn, today we get to speak to Craig. He is Jaclyn’s husband, the one who cheated. The one who left his family for another woman. Very rarely do we get to hear from the adulterer. Why did they do what they did? What were they thinking?It’s a conversation that is full of shame, regret, lessons learned and so much love. It's his first time speaking about this publicly.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and

Jun 7, 2021 • 1:14:11

The Betrayed

What would you do if you were pregnant, had a 2 year old son and found out the love of your life was leaving you for someone they met at the gym?How would you deal with the betrayal? Would it make you crazy?Would you do things you regret? Would you take them back?This is a wild story of infidelity, forgiveness and redemption.Follow Jaclyn on Instagram @forthewildfemme.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @

May 31, 2021 • 1:06:52

Men's Medicine - Second Dose

Today we have a special episode- a friend of the family shares his story of mental illness, rock bottom and suicide. I met Fatz when I started dating my husband. He was a fellow footy player who had just returned to Sydney after an incident had occurred in the UK. I didn’t know exactly what happened back then but I knew his close circle was really worried. It was serious. Today Fatz talks about where his mental illness started, how he spiralled and at what cost.Content warning: this episode disc

May 24, 2021 • 29:52

Men's Medicine

So, today is a bit different, were going to hear from two men, Nass and Lino. Both familiar with the struggle of mental health issues, rock bottoms and suicide.First we hear from Nass, a young father from the Gold Coast. Nass is Maori, works as a labourer, he’s big, burly, tattooed and handsome. He doesn’t fit the stereotype of someone that is fighting mental illness. And that’s the point. There is no one type of man that fits a stereotype. Nass bravely shares his story with us today.Then we hea

May 17, 2021 • 1:05:59

The End of Life Doula

Kim used to work as a palliative care nurse, now she is a death doula. A woman who supports the dying and their loved ones, during their end of life experience. In today's episode, she shares about her unique rituals and work with people who are dying, to make the transition a gentle and beautiful one.Content warning. This episode contains mentions of suicide. For assistance please contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM

May 10, 2021 • 45:17

The Specialised Sex Worker

Rachel Wotton has been a sex worker for 20 years. She has done it all and then some! But there's a unique element of Rachel's work, because a lot of her clientele are people living with disability. This is at times an awkward conversation. I always want to ask the questions that you're all going to be thinking, and sometimes with a smart, strong, opinionated woman like Rachel... that does not fly!Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your though

May 3, 2021 • 47:01

The 14 Year Old's Daughter

Isla is Frankie's daughter. I wanted to speak to someone who's parent survived deep trauma. I wanted to hear what it was like to witness your mother become an addict, what impact this has on a child and who they become because of it.Content warning: this episode discusses drug abuse. If you are suffering or are triggered by the content, please contact the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline on 1800 250 015.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM

Apr 26, 2021 • 36:42

The 14 Year Old

As a 14 year old girl Frankie was kidnapped and gang raped for hours and hours. This is her incredible story of survival. It's a story of abuse, addiction, domestic violence, a mother's love and forgiveness.Content warning: this episode discusses rape, abuse, domestic violence, addiction and disordered eating. If you are suffering or are triggered by the content, help services are listed below.Domestic violence assistance 1800 RespectAct For Kids to prevent and treat child abuse and neglect www.

Apr 19, 2021 • 48:58

A Parent's Worst Nightmare

Today we hear from Molly. It’s an intense heart wrenching interview- Molly has her two little girls to her ex partner. She met a man, fell in love and felt like her family was complete. Then one night she was blind sided by the worst thing that could ever happen to your childrenContent warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse. For support please check out the following resources.Act For Kids to prevent and treat child abuse and neglect www.actforkids.com.auBlue Knot Foundation for fema

Mar 29, 2021 • 56:18

The Swingers

We’ve all heard of swingers right? What do they actually do? Who are they? My immediate thought is of the cliché - keys in the bowl middle-aged couples now empty nesters, looking for something to enhance the next stage of life. But is this cliché true? What are the rules, what are the boundaries and what’s the reality of being a swinger?Follow Jess and Lawrence on Instagram @oursecretspot and visit their website oursecretspot.com.au.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis -

Mar 22, 2021 • 51:11

The Endo Warrior

Endometriosis affects more than 11% of Australian women. I am one of them. Told I could never have children.Today we speak to another endo warrior. You might know her as reality star Erin from Love Island and I'm a Celebrity Get me Out of Here. But what you don't know is that her body is riddled with the disease. She's had her 16th surgery and lives with chronic pain.Follow Erin on Instagram @erin.alysha.For endometriosis support visit:www.endometriosisaustralia.orgwww.qendo.org.auCredits:Joanne

Mar 15, 2021 • 40:31

The Toxic Love Triangle

Today we are going to hear a complex story of a really toxic love triangle that is fuelled by violence and fear. It's a story that belongs in a Hollywood film, a story of manipulation and at its core is brutal domestic violence.Content warning: This episode contains explicit depictions of domestic violence. For assistance please call 1800 Respect.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head t

Mar 8, 2021 • 56:36

The Intersex Parent

The birth of your first child is miraculous, its a moment in time that you will never forget.But what happens if you find out 4 weeks before birth that your child is intersex. You may be thinking right now what does that even mean?In hospital and society we are put in to boxes. When we are born the doctors tick girl or boy- but for many people this isn't the case.This is one mothers story of her experience. It will differ to others in the intersex community or other intersex parents. I ask you t

Mar 1, 2021 • 44:10

Infertility, Pregnancy Loss & Miracles

Infertility is one of the most challenging things a woman can go through. I’ve been there. My friend Keira and I have been friends for some time and when I became pregnant recently I was incredibly nervous to tell her. Would it change our friendship? Would she be triggered? I knew how jealous I was as friends fell pregnant around me when I was trying so hard to conceive.Keira has a tremendous story of her own, she is brutally honest about her experiences and I thought it could be helpful for oth

Feb 22, 2021 • 46:33

The Slut

Are you a slut? Do you know any? What do you think when I say that word? Dirty, sexy, degrading? Can men be sluts? Would you see them the same way?Nadia Bokody - is ready to reclaim the word. To reframe what slut means to us all. Today we look at female empowerment through our sexuality and Nadia is passionate we change the way we see ourselves, our bodies and our sex. This is the realest sex talk you will hear in a long time.Follow Nadia on Instagram: @NadiaBokodyCredits:Joanne Helder - Produce

Feb 15, 2021 • 46:33

Extreme Post Natal Depression

Post natal depression - we hear this term a lot. 1 in 5 women will experience it post birth.But what if it was extreme, on the very other end of the spectrum? What if your mental health deteriorated so quickly and dangerously your life and your newborn was at risk of harm or worse? What if you needed to be institutionalized for years, given ECT treatments and every drug imaginable to try and help?This wasn't a "what if" for Taryn, this is her story.Content warning: This episode contains descript

Feb 8, 2021 • 51:06

The Child Sex Abuse Survivor

Cathy is the epitome of an Aussie battler. She has overcome very difficult odds. She is a survivor. Cathy reached out to me to share her story and how it had been partially covered in a documentary called “Ghost Hunter”. She said there was a lot more to the story and today she shares that with us.Cathy endured sexual trauma as a child, she survived things no one should ever experience.Note: some names have been edited for privacy reasons.Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse

Feb 1, 2021 • 1:01:41

Invasion Day aka Australia Day

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.I grew up being taught to sing the Australian anthem with pride. To celebrate Australia Day with a bbq and drinks! But only in the past few years have I understood what Australia Day aka Invasion Day really means for our First Nations people. I’m confused how we can ignore how painful thi

Jan 24, 2021 • 40:12

Zoe Reflects on Season 2

Zoe shares what's really been going on for her the past few months as well as the episodes that left a lasting impact.Content warning: This episode depicts infant loss and grief. For support please contact Bears of Hope on 1300 11 4673 or Lifeline on 13 11 14.Genetic carrier screening is as easy as an at-home saliva test and results can be back within 3-4 weeks. So, if you want to understand your reproductive risks, head to Eugene’s website www.eugenelabs.com. The first 50 requests from The Deep

Dec 21, 2020 • 31:17

The OF Star

Have you heard of Only Fans?Of course you have! And if you haven’t - It’s a platform for sex workers to create their own content on their own terms, it’s kind of like an adult version of Instagram.Anyone can do it. And people will pay. A lot. I found out that some people are making millions and millions a year.I needed to speak to one of the top earners. Who is also a newbie. What it’s like to leave a straight laced job to do this work? Are there regrets, do they feel safe, what’s the weirdest t

Dec 14, 2020 • 42:18

The Wrongfully Accused

Could you imagine being imprisoned for 12 years for a crime you didn't commit? How would you survive that, how would you survive solitary confinement, survive the other prisoners, survive the injustice? Today I get to speak to Raphael Rowe who did survive. In fact he has gone on to be a great journalist and the host of "Inside the worlds toughest prisons" on Netflix.Content warning: this episode references violence and suicide. If you feel triggered or need someone to talk to contact Lifeline on

Dec 7, 2020 • 1:02:57

The Mother's Mission

Rachael Casella is a mother, a wife, and a friend. She’s also a pioneer for parents when it comes to genetic testing for their unborn children. Rachael has lived through every parents worst nightmare. Somehow through her grief she’s managed to find purpose and fight, and has created incredible opportunity for Australians through Mackenzie's mission.Learn more about MacKenzie's Mission and follow Rachael's journey at mylifeoflove.com.Content warning: This episode depicts infant loss and grief. Fo

Nov 30, 2020 • 53:32

The (middle of the) Human Centipede

Everyone has heard of the 2010 cult horror film "The Human Centipede" and if you haven't, I’m sure you are googling it now.I remember hearing how it had been banned in some countries and that people were passing out in the cinemas watching it!I was fascinated, over the years I had watched the trailer, too scared to watch the film. It’s plotline- three tourists are sewn together mouth to… end, by a mad surgeon to form one gastric system. And the tagline for the film is… "100% medically accurate!!

Nov 23, 2020 • 49:55

The Overnight Parent

Jess named her episode when she reached out to me in an email - that was the subject line. The Overnight Parent.And its true. After Jess found out her mother had suicided she is left to raise her two step siblings. At 23, grieving her mother, Jess was living in another city, in a share house and decides she must take on an overwhelming responsibility and become a parent. How does she do it? And who does she become in the process?Content warning: this episode contains a description of suicide. If

Nov 16, 2020 • 46:41

The Intersectional Feminist

Are you a feminist? What about an intersectional feminist? Do you know what it really means? It’s not just hairy armpits and burning bras. Fighting for equal pay. In fact currently we are seeing more and more “white feminism” you may be one of them And not even know it. Today we dive into a deep topic, “intersectional feminism”. Don’t let the big words turn you off. This is a passionate conversation, insightful and one full of shame- especially from me. Be wide awake for this one, it’s going to

Nov 9, 2020 • 52:51

The Porn Star

Siri Dahl has been in porn since before it was super easy to access online. She has done it all, worked everywhere from Gonzo sets to full blown production. She even left the industry for a while, but her love for sex and making content couldn’t be denied. Her family all know and her boyfriend is sometimes also a co-star. This is an explicit episode, which may get your heart racing.Content warning: The episode is extremely explicit. It contains graphic descriptions of sexual acts.Credits:Joanne

Nov 2, 2020 • 54:06

The Functioning Heroin Addict

Heroin as we know is one of the most addictive substances- it generally chews up and spits out its users taking away any chance of living a purposeful life. Kelly reached out to me, she is ready to share her story. She is a high functioning addict, with children, a big corporate job and a house. Kelly's addiction has dominated her life for over 20 years. The secrets, the betrayals, the loneliness- why does she do it? And will she ever stop? Please note her name has been changed for privacy reaso

Oct 26, 2020 • 1:01:07

The Bulimic

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.Mikele is young, beautiful and smart. She is also a bulimic and has been since her early teens. In today's episode, Mikele shares her experience as a First Nations and Maltese woman and the impact her disease has on every area of her life. How it's seen as privileged and a choice, often m

Oct 19, 2020 • 42:29

The Child of the Stolen Generation

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.Cleonie Quayle is a survivor of “the stolen generation”. She was taken as a 4 year old but the government took her away from her family and community and placed in a group home with other children that had been stolen. This is a part of our culture as Australians and it happened not that

Oct 12, 2020 • 48:53

The Doll Banger

If I told you there was a man, who said since having his "real dolls" aka sex robots- his life has never been more fulfilled would you believe me?Brick Dollbanger has been living with real dolls for 12 years. He in fact is so deeply immersed in the community that the creators of real doll have asked him to be the sex robot test driver. This episode is mind blowing but you may want to listen to it with earphones in.Content warning. This episode is extremely sexually explicit.Check out Brick's web

Oct 5, 2020 • 50:27

A Deep Moment

There have been many questions from you all about my own story/traumas and if I will ever share it. At this point I won’t. The deep isn’t about me. But today I will share a glimpse and that’s because it was a huge gift that The Deep gave me. I am forever changed by this podcast and by this moment you will hear right now.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.T

Sep 28, 2020 • 19:12

The Widow

Imagine falling in love with your soul mate, having a child together and living blissfully ever after. Then in one moment life as you know it is decimated. Over. What happens the moments after you live through the worst moment of your life? How do you recover? How do you go on? How do you grieve?For help processing grief, Jo has published Grief - a guided journal.You can also follow Jo on Instagram @jo.betz and at her website jobetz.com.au.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ D

Sep 14, 2020 • 1:24:49

The Foster Kid

Charlie has survived extreme neglect, abuse and cruelty at the hands of his mother. At the age of 12 she dropped him off at a care home and never returned.Charlie was thrown into the foster system like 1000's of other children. Moved 10 times in 8 years. This is his story.Content warning: This episode deals with child abuse and neglect. For help, children can contact Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800. Adults can contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.If you feel moved to donate to children in foster care, ple

Sep 7, 2020 • 1:01:59

The Parents Transition

Parenthood is hard. Of course there are great parts, rewarding, exciting, loving parts. But a lot of it is terrifying and confronting. What if you knew your child was heavily depressed and was giving suicidal hints? What if you found out the reason for that was because they were incredibly unhappy with the gender they were assigned at birth?What if on the edge of puberty you found out it was no longer possible for them to pretend any longer. They wanted to be the opposite sex. They wanted to tra

Aug 31, 2020 • 57:36

The Stillbirth

Sarah Kearns is a cop -you can imagine she’s seen some bad stuff, lots that would shake you to the core. But she took it all in her stride, she loved her job and had been privileged not to have had to deal with anything like she’d seen at work.Until one day whilst 28 weeks pregnant she was faced with the worst news possible. The baby inside her had died. Sarah’s world stopped.This is a story of love, grief and courage and what happens after you find out the worst news ever.Content warning: This

Aug 24, 2020 • 59:54

The Sceptical Psychic

When I think of the stereotypical psychic I think of a middle aged woman with a crystal ball and flowing clothes, lots of candles and crystals. But David is the opposite, youthful, super intellectual, his last job was working in criminal prosecution. He wears designer labels and hangs out with the cool kids. It's almost jolting to see his gifts in action. Before he worked as a medium psychic he was a sceptic.You can follow David and his predictions on Instagram @davidthemedium or Facebook.Credit

Aug 17, 2020 • 56:22

The Mistress

What do you know about BDSM? Is it what you have seen in Bollywood films, read about in 50 shades of grey or have you experienced it first hand? Mistress Eva takes us deep inside her dungeon and shares the intimate world of being a mistress. We talk about who these people are that seek her services, how much it costs to worship her and how far she is willing to go to take someone to the edge of their desires. The most shocking part - this isn't "just" Eva's work, she doesn't clock off after a sh

Aug 10, 2020 • 57:42

The Extreme Activist

Do you recycle? Turn off the tap when you brush your teeth? Maybe you even stopped eating meat to save the planet. What if I said someone is dumpster diving, eating road kill and only has 44 possessions to help save the world? Would it inspire you or freak you out. Rob Greenfield was just like us, but now he is the environmental guru. Rob has dedicated his life to extreme activism and to teach humans how to be better.Find out more about Rob on his website robgreenfield.org.Follow Rob on Youtube,

Aug 3, 2020 • 37:43

The Prison Birth

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.Chloe Quayle is a proud Malyangapa, Barkindji woman, a talented artist and rapper and a respected member in her community. But 3 years ago things were wildly different. Chloe had been in and out of the system since she was 14 but this time Chloe turned herself in. She was pregnant and she

Jul 27, 2020 • 1:00:32

The Troll Hunter

Ginger Gorman is a journalist and author. After being horrifically trolled she decided to look into who, what and where are these trolls? She didn't realise it would consume 5 years of her life, that she would suffer PTSD and be actively seeking to change the law or that she would end up with a troll husband.Read more from Ginger by purchasing her book Troll Hunting.This episode deals with cyber bullying. Resources can be found at www.esafety.gov.au. Children can also contact Kids helpline on 18

Jul 21, 2020 • 34:30

The Ice Addict

Ice, Crank, Tina- Whatever you want to call it "Crystal Meth" is one of the most addictive and life destroying substances.Ed opens up to us about his innocent introduction to this deadly drug and how it took hold over every part of his life. His love affair with Ice was deep and he had no intentions of getting clean until something happened. Something so shocking and traumatic it saved his life.Please note Ed's name has been changed for privacy reasons.Trigger warning: This episode deals with dr

Jul 13, 2020 • 40:20

The Concious Sex Worker

I have always been fascinated with sex workers. I just hadn't been exposed to many like Indie. Indie isn't your stereotype. She is natural, freckled, curvy with no shame in showing her body hair, self harm scars, cellulite and stretch marks.She is in the industry as a business woman. Indie takes her work seriously and even further, she really wants to impact her clients for the better- she meets them without judgement and holds space for them to explore whatever tickles their fancy.Indie is wise

Jul 6, 2020 • 44:38

The Trauma Cleaner Part 2

We continue talking to Sandra Pankhurst but now we move into her current work as a trauma cleaner.What is that?Its the work no one wants to do, 3 week old decaying body- call the trauma cleaner, double suicide- call the trauma cleaner, meth lab explosion- call the trauma cleaner, 45 years worth of hoarding you call Sandra.Sandra works within the worst conditions but brings the most dignity to her clients. She takes us through some of her toughest jobs and shares what its like doing the job no on

Jun 22, 2020 • 20:10

The Trauma Cleaner Part 1

Sandra is like a cat that has nine lives. There are so many chapters of this story we had to share it over two episodes.Sandra grew up as Peter and through his life he was many things: He became a father, a husband, a woman, a drag artist, a prostitute, a drug addict, a law abiding citizen, a married woman, one of Melbourne's high society, a business owner, a widow and a trauma cleaner.As you can imagine this is a hell of a ride. It is a story that has a lot of explicit and adult content.It is a

Jun 15, 2020 • 30:46

The Terminal Parent

What would you do if you found out your life partner was doing meth, what if the lies didn't stop? What if after all that trauma and becoming a solo parent you get a terminal cancer diagnosis? No family around to help. No options. What would you do?Kate is heroic, some may even say a little mad, because Kate thinks she can beat this death sentence and she even put a timeline on it. 365 days. Is this possible?What does it entail?This is a conversation that covers trauma, how to deal with betrayal

Jun 8, 2020 • 45:07

Welcome to The Deep

From terminal parents to sex workers, extremists and drug addicts, The Deep is a place for thought-provoking conversations that help us explore who we are, when no one is looking. Cracked wide open by her past trauma, grief and abuse host Zoe Marshall holds the space for others to share their fascinating stories and perspectives through these deep conversations. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular e

May 25, 2020 • 2:26