In this episode, you reflect on the collapse of your plan to work a second job in photography after both of your vans broke down. What seemed like an opportunity to earn extra money — and help fund your 100-book drop goal — quickly turned into exhaustion, unreliability, and financial strain. You wrestle openly with questions of provision, overwork, and God’s will: Was the second job a blessing you squandered, or a door you weren’t supposed to walk through in the first place? You push back against the cultural assumption that “more money is always good,” emphasizing instead the need to discern God’s provision and timing. The episode closes with you inviting listeners to share how they would handle a similar collapse of plans, highlighting the tension between hustling harder and trusting God.Timestamps00:00 – 00:33 — Intro: Update on podcast return, mention of starting a second job.00:33 – 01:38 — Story of both vans breaking down right as the second job begins.01:38 – 02:42 — Dilemma: able to keep day job but can’t make it to Branson for photography work.02:42 – 03:36 — Reflection: frustration at losing an opportunity for extra income and book drops.03:36 – 04:28 — Trust in God: remembering pastor’s advice, “If you lose your job, God will provide.”04:28 – 05:16 — Questioning: Was this outside of God’s will, or just resistance?05:16 – 05:56 — Critique: culture treats money as inherently good, even without moral weight.05:56 – 06:34 — Honest self-doubt: Was the hustle pride or obedience? Feeling confused.06:34 – 07:18 — Book drop plan: 100 books in 2025 now in jeopardy due to car expenses.07:18 – 07:38 — Closing: invites listener feedback on handling setbacks, signs off with “Stay holy.” This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit xeroforhire.substack.com/subscribe