Cults to Consciousness

Cults to Consciousness

Shelise Ann Sola

Cult survivor stories. Hi! I’m Shelise Ann Sola— former devout Mormon. On C2C, my husband Jonathan and I dive deep into the nuance of cultic organizations and coercive manipulators. We are not anti-religious, but anti-abuse, and shed light in dark places to bring compassion, understanding and accountability. Together we discover how our guests find independence and healing through awareness and true individual sovereignty.

Her Many Attempts to Escape INCEST Polygamy Cult Forcibly Led to In-Patient Facility

Her Many Attempts to Escape INCEST Polygamy Cult Forcibly Led to In-Patient Facility

CW: mentions of attempted suicide & infant abuse From a young age Priscilla was learning about how she would become a plural wife one day while simultaneously plotting her escape. She would have many failed attempts due to The Order’s desperate need to marry her off to one of her family members with the intention of making several children. They captured her and sent her to a facility to “break her” and when that didn’t work, they tried buying her with promises of fulfilled dreams and large home

Jan 9, • 1:13:24

Kept From His Father’s Death Bed For Leaving Polygamist Cult

Kept From His Father’s Death Bed For Leaving Polygamist Cult

Calvin Wayman was born and raised in an offshoot polygamist sect of FLDS called “The Work”. With 44 siblings, a “Wayman” was just about every person he knew in his life. Even more taxing than his childhood trauma, was the trauma he experienced as an adult when he escaped at 30 years old. His life turned upside down— with the threat of his eternal salvation in jeopardy, while fighting against everything he was taught to believe, and on top of that being shunned and accosted by his loved ones— thi

Jan 5, • 1:16:18

LIVE: Extreme Acts of Terrorism from Both Sides Over Holidays- New Orleans & Magdeburg ft @yasmohammedxx

LIVE: Extreme Acts of Terrorism from Both Sides Over Holidays- New Orleans & Magdeburg ft @yasmohammedxx

CW:  Fatal Terrorist Attack  Joined live today with Yasmine Mohammed, we discussed the most recent terrorist attacks in both New Orleans on Bourbon street on New Year’s Eve, and Magdeburg Germany on December 20th.  Yasmine was acquainted with the alleged attacker in Germany who could be considered Anti-Islam. We discuss how both sides of extremism are not the answer and bring awareness to the events that claimed many lives and injured over 200. Watch full video on @cultstoconsciousness YouTube

Jan 3, • 19:55

His Childhood Trapped in “Shiny Happy People" Cult

His Childhood Trapped in “Shiny Happy People" Cult

Chad Harris' family joined the Shiny Happy People cult when he was just 7 years old, after a doctor convinced his parents to attend a seminar with cult leader Bill Gothard. Chad spent the next almost 20 years being indoctrinated and brainwashed with extreme fundamental Christian teachings before he finally found the truth and ultimately shared his experience on Prime Video's #1 documentary series, "Shiny Happy People." ⁠Watch this episode on YouTube⁠ Follow Chad on social media: TikTok: @arc

Jan 2, • 1:22:15

Why Former AMISH Woman Demands Change From Congress for Children Isolated in Cults

Why Former AMISH Woman Demands Change From Congress for Children Isolated in Cults

Content Warning: SA, CA, CSA, mentions of rape Misty Griffin returns to the studio to further discuss her experience growing up at the hands of her tortuous mother and step father, who isolated her and her sister on a mountainside, then forced her into an Amish settlement at 18 years old. Unfortunately, claiming religious exemption means a parent can fly under the radar ab*sing their chiIdren. Misty now fights back, on a mission to help chiIdren in similar situations, stuck in ab*sive environme

Dec 22, 2024 • 58:37

Let Us Prey: IFB Church Turns On Child For Seeking Justice Against Bible Teacher For SA

Let Us Prey: IFB Church Turns On Child For Seeking Justice Against Bible Teacher For SA

CW: CSA… Featured in “Let Us Prey: A Ministry of Scandals” a new four-part docu-series exposing the pred*tory and insidious behavior within the Independent Fundamental Baptist (IFB) Churches – survivor, Ruthy Heiler, shares her account of ab*se as a chiId at the hands of her bible teacher, Aaron Willand. Insidious efforts to cover up pastors’ ab*se, silence survivors, manipulation and suspected cover-ups of other members, Ruthy explains the troubling culture within the IFB, and the stronghold th

Dec 21, 2024 • 1:06:35

Why Former “Healing Evangelical” Pastor Who Started 300 Person Church Now Has Regrets

Why Former “Healing Evangelical” Pastor Who Started 300 Person Church Now Has Regrets

Timmy Gibson is a former fundamental Evangelical Pentecostal Pastor who graduated bible college and spent a total of 30 years of his life teaching and preaching the stories in the Bible. 17 years of which were spent preaching in a church he started himself, which grew to 300 followers. Timmy and his congregation believed he was a conduit of God, as well as a “Healing Evangelist” who could save you from illness, as well as teach you how to speak in tongues, and interpret the meaning. Ironically,

Dec 20, 2024 • 1:33:23

How Her Upscale Islamic Life in Saudi Arabia & Dubai Took A Dark Turn ft. @HolyHumanist

How Her Upscale Islamic Life in Saudi Arabia & Dubai Took A Dark Turn ft. @HolyHumanist

When her well off British family moved to Saudi Arabia near Mecca, Nuriyah Khan ( @HolyHumanist ) lived in two worlds at once— a plush Muslim life inside a compound which protected her from a fundamentalist Islam. Hoping to continue to live a progressive Muslim lifestyle, she married and moved to Dubai. Once her relationship became unsafe, she asked for a separation and was confronted with Sharia law, Islamic religious law that guides the moral and religious lives of Muslims. He relentlessly sta

Dec 19, 2024 • 1:21:51

Why Devout Turkish Muslim Denounced Islam After Dissecting Quran (ft. @ApostateProphet)

Why Devout Turkish Muslim Denounced Islam After Dissecting Quran (ft. @ApostateProphet)

Sometimes becoming more devout can actually spark the biggest faith crisis. When  @ApostateProphet  fiercely read to understand the Quran in depth, there were things he could no longer ignore. Learn about his life growing up Muslim in Germany and Turkey and even at one time becoming a communist. AP’s video: The Scientific Mistakes of the Quran https://youtu.be/8yMD99gyr14?si=X7PHkuOxs8FWRGZa Find and connect with Apostate Prophet! YouTube:  @ApostateProphet  IG @Apostate_Prophet https://www.in

Dec 18, 2024 • 1:27:38

Escaping SAUDI ARABIA: How She Became FIRST Documented Ex-Muslim Woman to Flee Without Repercussion

Escaping SAUDI ARABIA: How She Became FIRST Documented Ex-Muslim Woman to Flee Without Repercussion

A product of the first generation of bi-ethnic children in Saudi Arabia, as an Italian-Arab, Jasmin Faulk-Dickerson faced new challenges. She lived a double life. One which was very Western, liberal and open and another which was Eastern, focused on Islamic law and extremely strict. Her heart yearned for a western life, but situation didn’t allow for it. Determined to flee to America with a man she fell in love with, she tricked her father into giving legal permission for her to travel on her ow

Nov 4, 2024 • 1:37:03

I Fell in Love with a Professional Predator

I Fell in Love with a Professional Predator

Blinded by what appeared to be special psychic gifts and years of professional accreditation, Lauren Geertsen fell hard for an energy worker who manipulated her emotionally, financially and spiritually. A predator who had many other victims simultaneously. This is the story of a whistleblower who risked it all and lost almost everything to expose him. Check out Lauren's book: The Scorpion and the Lion Find and support Lauren: YT: @LaurenGeertsen IG: @body_connection_coach Our Merch! Patreon:

Nov 2, 2024 • 1:24:24

Groomed to Practice Polygamy in Incestuous Cult as a Gay Man

Groomed to Practice Polygamy in Incestuous Cult as a Gay Man

One of the most sacred tenants of The Order, a fundamentalist polygamous break of sect of the mainstream mormon/LDS church, is living polygamy. Nephi knew he was gay, but hid it most of his life because living authentically was never an option for him. He was essentially assigned a wife at a young age and had 7 children before he realized he couldn’t pretend anymore. His father, who had 14 wives and over 160 children was pushing him to take another wife, so he came out to him. Nephi was told he

Nov 1, 2024 • 1:24:21

How Incestuous Polygamy Cult Led Her to Dangerous Toxic Relationships (ft. @TheAmandaRaeGrant )

How Incestuous Polygamy Cult Led Her to Dangerous Toxic Relationships (ft. @TheAmandaRaeGrant )

Amanda Rae ( @TheAmandaRaeGrant ) shares 3 of her most prominent and shocking post-cult relationships, full of betrayal and manipulation. High control groups, by design, eliminate intuition, manipulate people into doing things they don’t want to do, and make them believe they are freely choosing that lifestyle. This can also happen in relationships. It’s far too common for cult survivors to fall prey to people who can take advantage of their vulnerabilities. Check out Shelise’s horror stories on

Oct 31, 2024 • 1:37:17

Jealous Cult Leader Attempts to Sabotage Her Engagement

Jealous Cult Leader Attempts to Sabotage Her Engagement

Lindsey Williams of the hit Amazon Prime docu-series, “Shiny Happy People”, was an eager 18 year old when she was hand-picked by cult leader Bill Gothard to work at IBLP headquarters. After grooming her as one of his “Gothard Girls” Gothard would get too close in his one-on-one prayer sessions with her. After being kicked out for kissing a boy, forced to do free labor and write an apology letter to his parents, she finally reconnected with her love. Bill then tried to sabotage her engagement so

Oct 30, 2024 • 1:16:10

Preyed On at 18 by “Shiny Happy People” Cult Leader

Preyed On at 18 by “Shiny Happy People” Cult Leader

Today we are joined by Lindsey Williams of the hit Amazon Prime docu-series, “Shiny Happy People”, exposing the Duggars and Bill Gothard’s IBLP practices. Lindsey dives deep into the lack of education growing up with Gothard’s ATI religious home school program, how she wanted to leave her ab*sive household at 18 and join the famous Gothard (who was seen as a prophet) at head quarters, and how Gothard began to groom her as one of his “Gothard Girls” once he had her alone. IG: @thecultchronicles

Oct 30, 2024 • 1:39:10

Confronting the "Shiny Happy People" Compound He Was Imprisoned In at 16

Confronting the "Shiny Happy People" Compound He Was Imprisoned In at 16

Joined in the studio is friend, comedian, and ex-IBLP “cult kid” Davey Jackson. Having spent his childhood homeschooled by his mother, at 12, his parents decided to incorporate Bill Gothard’s practices into his education. As a form of punishment for having a girlfriend, at 16, Davey was sent to an intense IBLP training center. Instead of correcting his “bad” behavior, Davey further rebelled, which ultimately led him to spend 7 days in the Prayer Room, the center’s solitary confinement, which on

Sep 24, 2024 • 1:09:23

Son of FLDS “Prophet” Reveals Terrors of Living Through Texas Raid

Son of FLDS “Prophet” Reveals Terrors of Living Through Texas Raid

With immense pressure being one of the sons of the FLDS prophet Warren Jeffs, Ammon would do anything to earn the approval of his father. When he was finally “worthy enough” to be called to the holy land (YFZ Ranch in Texas), he was worked up to 22 hours per day doing hard labor for the church. Assuming Warren truly spoke for God, when he prophesied that the government wanted to come take away the chiIdren, the people were only further convinced he was a prophet considering the 300 police who di

Sep 23, 2024 • 1:32:07

Warren Jeffs Punishes from Prison (How 13th Wife of FLDS "Prophet" Escaped)

Warren Jeffs Punishes from Prison (How 13th Wife of FLDS "Prophet" Escaped)

As the 13th wife of FLDS leader Warren Jeffs, Ada Marie was extremely devout in her faith and belief in her prophet and husband. Even from prison, the entire church population was conditioned to believe he was innocent and persecuted by the government. However, as the years went on, Ada explains how his prophesies and commandments would get more and more odd and demanding. He would continue splitting up families, send people all over different states, disfellowship, then re-baptize and for some,

Sep 20, 2024 • 1:23:05

Cult Leader’s Ex-Polygamous Wife Reveals Secret Group Sex Ritual Requirements

Cult Leader’s Ex-Polygamous Wife Reveals Secret Group Sex Ritual Requirements

Warren Jeffs, currently in prison for CSA, is the leader of the Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, otherwise known as the FLDS. He claims that God commanded him to take dozens of wives, some of whom were as young as 12 years old. In his enormous temple/compound that his members built in Texas, he conducted what he called “heavenly sessions” which were essentially big orgies with his wives, which he taped. Ultimately, his disturbing records is what got him put into prison

Sep 19, 2024 • 1:35:59

His Mormon Father with Schizophrenia Claimed to Be New Messiah (Wrote 2242 Page Scripture)

His Mormon Father with Schizophrenia Claimed to Be New Messiah (Wrote 2242 Page Scripture)

An ex-Muslim man converts his entire family to Mormonism when missionaries knock on his door. His stroke of genius combined with schizophrenia and tendency towards extreme punishments and every type of ab*se, created a cult-like environment for his chiIdren. He created his own religion and wrote a 2422 page manuscript of his own holy text. We take a look at his mindset and life through the lens of his son Adrian. Adding further clarification and commentary on generational trauma, Sami, Adrian’s

Sep 18, 2024 • 1:35:50

The BRUTAL Truth About The Founder of Mormonism, Joseph Smith ft. Carah Burrell

The BRUTAL Truth About The Founder of Mormonism, Joseph Smith ft. Carah Burrell

Outsiders often criticize Mormonism for its wild beliefs and the scandalous actions of the founding prophet Joseph Smith, but the member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints are left in the dark about the truth of it history. Carah Burrell  @CarahBurrell  and Shelise, examine the life and actions of Joseph Smith from a non-faith promoting, historical view, different from their Mormon upbringing. From the ugly truth about polygamy, a Mormon Militia, and original secret temple ritual

Sep 17, 2024 • 1:44:53

Ex-Muslim Opens Up About Sex and Islam in Saudi Arabia | The Story of Apostate Aladdin

Ex-Muslim Opens Up About Sex and Islam in Saudi Arabia | The Story of Apostate Aladdin

*Content Warning: self harm, physical abuse* Anonymous YouTuber Apostate Aladdin shares his story of becoming a man in an environment that used fear to keep boys and girls and men and women separated. This intense fear that men need to be kept away so they don’t act on their uncontrollable desires, left him feeling scared, targeted, alone and shameful. Here we learn about purity culture through a different lens and how he was able to overcome his fear of interacting with women so he cou...

Jun 3, 2024 • 1:15:22

14 Yr Old Taken From U.S. to Iraq to Be Bride to Abusive Man

14 Yr Old Taken From U.S. to Iraq to Be Bride to Abusive Man

*Content Warning: Many mentions of physical abuse & sexual abuse* Tricked into moving to Iraq at age 14, Ellaf was separated from her mother and forced into a chiId marriage by her father who felt she was too much of a burden to raise. Ellaf’s husband was even more controlling than her father and knew that he could get away with hurting her in many ways, because she was alone in an unfamiliar country and didn’t know the culture or the language. Forbidden to use birth control, ...

Jun 2, 2024 • 1:12:12

Forced to Marry Al Qaeda:  Confessions of an “Ex-Muslim” ft. Yasmine Mohammed

Forced to Marry Al Qaeda: Confessions of an “Ex-Muslim” ft. Yasmine Mohammed

*Content Warning: Domestic Violence, SA, CA* Determined to fight for the human rights of the oppressed, Yasmine Mohammed speaks out and shares her experiences with Islam extremism. Her mother forced her to marry a terrorist and it wasn’t until she fell pregnant with a daughter that made her realize she had to escape in order to secure her a better life. In search of freedom, she also found her voice and now she platforms countless other people who share their experiences. Find and suppo...

May 31, 2024 • 1:50:42

How “A WELL TRAINED WIFE” Narrowly Escaped Extreme Christian Patriarchy with 4 Kids

How “A WELL TRAINED WIFE” Narrowly Escaped Extreme Christian Patriarchy with 4 Kids

**Content Warning: DV, rape, SA** Tia Levings discusses her dark reality in Christian fundamentalism, with evangelical patriarchy and religious trauma. Having appeared in the Amazon docu-series, Shiny Happy People, and written a harrowing memoir, A Well-Trained Wife she reveals how she had to save herself and her family and details the ways that extreme views can manifest in a marriage.Recruited into the fundamentalist Quiverfull movement as a young wife, Tia Levings learned that being ...

May 26, 2024 • 1:20:03

Is the Military A Cult?  Ex-Cult Members / Active Military & Veteran Discuss

Is the Military A Cult? Ex-Cult Members / Active Military & Veteran Discuss

Daniella grew up in the Children of God and Mike in Scientology. Together they discuss ways that the military, of which they were both in for many years, is cultic and their differing perspectives. Click here to watch on YouTubeFind Mike!YouTube: @mikebrown101Mike’s Interview: “How Scientology Almost Killed His Elderly Mother” Find Daniella!IG: @daniellamyoung_ TikTok: search #groupbehaviorgalWebsite: https://www.uncultureyourself.com/Amazon: "Uncultured: A Memoir" Previous episodes wit...

May 24, 2024 • 1:25:51

Groomed to be the Submissive Wife of Her Father’s Choosing

Groomed to be the Submissive Wife of Her Father’s Choosing

Cait West was completely under her father’s rule down to all her decisions. She was told he would even make the biggest decision of her life for her— who she was going to marry. She was gr**med to be a submissive wife under the patriarchy movement and stay-at-home daughters movement. Her homeschooling was completely unregulated and not much attention was paid to her education, because her sole purpose was to be a mother who eventually belonged to her husband. Terrified that anything less than...

May 23, 2024 • 1:06:15

Forced Into Submission:  Trapped in the Stay-at-Home Daughter’s Movement

Forced Into Submission: Trapped in the Stay-at-Home Daughter’s Movement

Isolated in a cult within a cult within a cult, Ashley was completely sheltered from the outside world. From infancy she was labeled as unruly and even demon-possessed. Determined to break her as a toddler, then later brag about it, her pastor grandfather took it too far. She would be forced into submission and gr**med to be a “stay-at-home daughter” until her father transferred authority to her betrothed husband. This is how she accidentally escaped the prison in her mind. Click here to watc...

May 18, 2024 • 1:20:01

Scientology Forced 12 yr Old to Audit Adults & Rehabilitate Pedophile

Scientology Forced 12 yr Old to Audit Adults & Rehabilitate Pedophile

Scientology doesn’t believe in the young. They teach that they are trillion year old beings in small bodies. Therefore, they are not treated developmentally correct. Neglected, exploited for work and severely mistreated, they suffer the most in this organization. Serge Del Mar tells his story of growing up in Scientology and his advocacy work to make people wake up and listen to the lost souls who are begging silently for help.Click here to watch on YouTubeFind Serge on Social!YouTube: @literall

May 17, 2024 • 1:21:07

The Bad Cadet:  Growing Up in the Church of Scientology's Sea Organization

The Bad Cadet: Growing Up in the Church of Scientology's Sea Organization

At age six, Katherine Spallino is separated from her parents and sent to train for her future in the Church of Scientology’s clergy—the Sea Organization. She rarely sees her parents and never goes to a normal school. Later, Katherine is sent to live at a secluded ranch with other young prospective Sea Org members, called cadets, where she studies Scientology and does manual labor—weeding fields, digging trenches, and works in the galley. The indoctrination escalates, and her family slips even fa

May 14, 2024 • 1:21:31

How Scientology Almost Killed His Elderly Mother

How Scientology Almost Killed His Elderly Mother

Raised by Scientology and forced into the Sea Org and labor intensive youth camps, Mike Brown didn’t have a choice but to be indoctrinated and used by the organization. After he managed to escape, leaving behind his mother and wife, years later he learned of the extreme elder ab*se that was happening. Determined to save his mother who was quickly being worked to death, he devised a plan to break her out and nurse her back to health before it was too late. Click here to watch on YouTubeFind Mike:

May 13, 2024 • 1:29:22

Sentenced to Torturous Christian Extremist Boarding School for 365 days

Sentenced to Torturous Christian Extremist Boarding School for 365 days

The troubled teen industry has been in the limelight lately for its more than questionable tactics to “reform” kids. Add in a heavy dose of religious extremism and you have the sometimes fatal Independent Fundamental Baptist all-girl’s school Ashley attended. The most common sentence was 1 year of brutal manual labor, peer-inflicted punishments and psychological warfare. Click here to watch on YouTubeFind Ashley on Social!IG @ashfilet Facebook https://www.facebook.com/ashley.kellam**FULLY BOOKED

May 12, 2024 • 1:13:24

Let Us Prey: Exposing the Circle of Hope Girls' Ranch & the Troubled Teen Industry

Let Us Prey: Exposing the Circle of Hope Girls' Ranch & the Troubled Teen Industry

Disguised as a wholesome Christian school for troubled youth, was a house of horrors for those unlucky enough to be placed there. Diabolical and dangerous punishm*nts, intense physical labor left these girls scarred in more ways than one.  The documentary “Let Us Prey”, finally started to expose the secrets behind the walls of the school and within the IFB (Independent Fundamental Baptist) churches as a whole. Amanda shares her story, as a young one of parents who ran one of these schools.Click

May 11, 2024 • 1:06:24

The Erasure of Gays in the AMISH & Mennonite Settlements

The Erasure of Gays in the AMISH & Mennonite Settlements

Joined for a second time by Mary (former Amish) and Hannah (former Holdeman Mennonite), we discuss the ways in which being gay/bi in their settlements harshly affected them and how queer plain people are generally erased from society. Bringing awareness and visibility to the LGBTQ community, they share their experiences openly and shed light on the disproportionate harm they faced.Watch Mary's original episodeWatch Hannah's original episodehttps://www.lgbtamish.com/The Trevor ProjectHannah's boo

Apr 8, 2024 • 59:23

Forced into AMISH Settlement, Narrowly Escaped Bishop Abuser

Forced into AMISH Settlement, Narrowly Escaped Bishop Abuser

*Content Warning : SA, CA, CSA, mentions of rape* After enduring an excruciating youth at the hands of her mother and step father, isolated on a mountainside, Misty was forced into an Amish settlement at 18 years old. Though in many ways this new lifestyle was far more liberating than what she was used to, it came with darker days than she could’ve ever imagined. Hurt and blamed by those most trusted she took a risk and tried to escape. Http://www.Change.org/childrightsact to sign Misty’s petiti

Apr 6, 2024 • 1:26:26

AMISH: How Growing Up in the Strictest Settlement Led to Drugs and Sex Work

AMISH: How Growing Up in the Strictest Settlement Led to Drugs and Sex Work

*Content Warning: sexual assault, rape, prostitution, attempted murder* Due to lack of education when she left the strict Swartzentruber settlement, Naomi slipped into exotic dancing, prostitution, drugs, and almost getting murdered.  In this episode, she opens up about her trials and tribulations with growing up Amish, her dark reality afterward, and eventually finding the light at the end of the tunnel.Naomi’s book:  The Amazing Adventures of an Amish StripperFind and support Naomi:IG & TT:  @

Apr 5, 2024 • 1:20:08

They tried to claim my sexuality, I fought back

They tried to claim my sexuality, I fought back

*Content Warning: eating disorders, mentions of homophobia* In this follow up episode we’re going to continue with Oceana’s story growing up under the strict Institute in Basic Life Principles run by Bill Gothard who was recently exposed for preying on young girls.  She opens up about coming home from the IBLP training camps, her parents’ reaction, how it led to further untreated eating d*sorders, how all of the programming and IBLP culture permeated into her adult life, and how it’s still affec

Apr 3, 2024 • 51:06

Surviving IBLP Training Center at 15 Years Old & 90 lbs

Surviving IBLP Training Center at 15 Years Old & 90 lbs

*Content Warning: eating disorders, self harm* Further shedding light on the Institute in Basic Life Principles run by Bill Gothard who was recently exposed for preying on young girls, is Oceana who grew up living by their rules. Extreme patriarchy, silencing and sexualization of women and blaming those who are being hurt, are just a few things that create compounded trauma. Oceana fought through untreated eating d*sorders, because therapists were considered sinful, as well as the mental health

Apr 2, 2024 • 1:03:14

“Let Us Prey” | Survivors Seek Justice Against IFB Youth Pastors

“Let Us Prey” | Survivors Seek Justice Against IFB Youth Pastors

The Independent Fundamental Baptist church is known for having extreme views on “worldly” things. Women are over-sexualized to the point where even the very young are blamed and punished for “temping” men into hurting them. Kathy was one of those young women. Her pastor purposely protected the perp and she was ostracized by family, friends and other church members. Our previous episode with her (linked below) illustrates the awful details of her childhood. In this episode, we speak more on the b

Mar 15, 2024 • 1:32:20

My IFB Youth Pastor Groomed Me.  I Was Blamed.

My IFB Youth Pastor Groomed Me. I Was Blamed.

*Content Warning: child sex abuse, child abuse, rape, mentions of attempted suicide* When purity culture is front and center in a strict religious organization, youth are blamed for being preyed on by adults. It creates an unsafe environment for those who don’t understand boundaries, consent, grooming, or have any s*x education at all to even have proper vocabulary for what might be happening to them. Kathy Durbin explains this harmful culture and how she was ultimately a survivor of it. She als

Mar 14, 2024 • 1:24:21

A Sinister Look into the Controlling IFB Church ft. Preacher Boys Podcast

A Sinister Look into the Controlling IFB Church ft. Preacher Boys Podcast

The cult doc “Let Us Prey” on HBO, highlights the issues within the high control religious group Independent Fundamental Baptist, of which Eric was a part of. From the covering up of predatory behavior of the leaders, to extreme patriarchal control which blames victims and breeds perpetrators, Eric walks us through what his life was like being isolated in this group until his adult years. Which eventually led him and his wife to belong to another cult like group!Watch this episode on YouTube her

Mar 6, 2024 • 1:24:32

Prosecuting Yoga “Guru” BIKRAM for Sexual Assault & Blacklisting

Prosecuting Yoga “Guru” BIKRAM for Sexual Assault & Blacklisting

*Content Warning: rape and sexual assault* Yoga instructor Larissa Anderson took yoga “guru” Bikram Choudhury to court for s*xual assault and blacklisting her yoga business after Larissa rejected a s*xual advance by Bikram (who had r*ped her before).  He refused to promote her studio and she was blacklisted from the Bikram Yoga community.At the time of the s*xual assault, Bikram had already personally approved her studio down to the floor plan and knew that Larissa had begun negotiating a lease,

Mar 5, 2024 • 47:10

Falling Prey to BIKRAM: Yoga Guru, Founder, Predator

Falling Prey to BIKRAM: Yoga Guru, Founder, Predator

“Guru” Bikram was responsible for bringing hot yoga to the states and popularizing it. Without realizing, Larissa Anderson was slowly groomed by her then boyfriend and yoga studio owner to seamlessly fall right into Bikram’s hands. He would eventually request massages from Larissa in front of hundreds of students and get more and more bold when they were alone together.Larissa underwent the intense 9 week bootcamp-style training to become an official  Bikram yoga teacher so that she could eventu

Mar 4, 2024 • 54:49

How Narcissistic Yoga Guru Jagat Exploited Her Followers

How Narcissistic Yoga Guru Jagat Exploited Her Followers

First, there was Guru Bhajan. A self proclaimed master of what he called Kundalini Yoga. Later known as an ab*ser on every level, he died and left a gaping hole in the Western market for the next “master” to step in as a celebrity Guru. Enter Guru Jagat. A charismatic female leader who started her own school, attracting young, enthusiastic millennials who wore all white with turbans to her classes. Filled with promises of enlightenment, abundance and more, one of her followers, Charlotte, became

Feb 24, 2024 • 1:02:17

Mormons Vs Ex Mormons:  Who REALLY Won This Cringey Debate? ft. Mormon Stories

Mormons Vs Ex Mormons: Who REALLY Won This Cringey Debate? ft. Mormon Stories

Is Mormonism a cult?  Jubilee’s “Middleground” had on a panel of current believing Mormons and ex-Mormons to debate this and other nuanced topics.  Join us, along with one of the ex-Mormon panelists, Dr. John Dehlin of  @mormonstories as we dive deeper into some of the more “cringeworthy” responses, and un-aired behind the scenes details, to decide who really won.Click here to watch this episode & see on screen photosCheck out Jublilee's "Can Mormons and Ex Mormons See Eye to Eye? | Middle Groun

Feb 23, 2024 • 1:11:58

I Married a Yoga Guru Con Man

I Married a Yoga Guru Con Man

Harvard graduate Joelle Tamraz, was young, enthusiastic and a perfect target for a fake yoga guru. Seeking enlightenment, purpose and peace, she came across a man who swept her off her feet and used spiritual manipulation to eventually exploit her and her family out of thousands of dollars. He told wild stories of channelling and inhabiting someone else’s body to justify cheating right in front of her face. Find out how after 18 years, despite having built a yoga studio together, she was able to

Feb 21, 2024 • 1:38:25

THE CULT of Grant Cardone:  Ex-Member Exposes Fake Guru

THE CULT of Grant Cardone: Ex-Member Exposes Fake Guru

Ben John:  "As a beginner entrepreneur/business owner in 2019, I was introduced to a book by Grant Cardone(The 10X Rule) that lured me into mentorship from him. After 3.5 years and $250k spent with Grant & his organization, I realized that I had ignored all the signs in that environment that encouraged me to idolize Grant as a God, seek him for success, disconnect with those who don’t align with him or me, chase money, deceive, & manipulate others to get what I want. I later found t

Feb 20, 2024 • 1:13:37

My Mom Discloses Secret Mormon Temple Rituals

My Mom Discloses Secret Mormon Temple Rituals

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (LDS or Mormon Church), has long been known for their secret temple rituals that only the worthy saints can participate in. Shelise grew up in this mainstream Mormon Church, learning that going to the temple was the ultimate goal, that if she could only be worthy enough, she might even get to see Jesus himself walking the halls. The picture that is painted to it’s members (because NOTHING is disclosed ahead of time) is vastly different than what ac

Feb 10, 2024 • 1:04:32

Daughters of the Cult Leader Reveal Un-Aired Details

Daughters of the Cult Leader Reveal Un-Aired Details

Celia was a daughter of the cult leader Ervil LeBaron, who practiced a fundamentalist Mormon teaching called Blood Atonement which meant taking lives in the name of God. Things got even more out of control when he was put in prison for his crimes and a hit list he created was beginning to be carried out by some of his younger followers. Thankfully, the practice of blood atonement, by way of the LeBarons has been disavowed today, but the effects of these tragic teachings still linger in the lives

Feb 9, 2024 • 1:27:18

Warren Jeffs’ Dangerous “Revelations” from Prison ft. Growing Up in Polygamy

Warren Jeffs’ Dangerous “Revelations” from Prison ft. Growing Up in Polygamy

Polygamist, Fundamentalist Mormon (FLDS) leader, Warren Jeffs, is currently serving a life sentence in prison for CSA which he claims was revelation from God. He currently still has a few thousand members of his church who believe he was wrongly convicted and completely innocent. A man God being”persecuted” because he’s a true prophet, they would say. Years and years have gone by and he continues to give dangerous "revelations" to his followers including telling his own daughters to stop eating.

Feb 8, 2024 • 1:13:50

What She Did with Her Cult Leader’s Mansion

What She Did with Her Cult Leader’s Mansion

Narrowly escaping out of her window where she was held prisoner, Briell, the 65th wife of FLDS cult leader Warren Jeffs, continued to be on the run from her family who wanted to k*ll her. Warren was in prison and he knew she would testify against him, so he ordered people to take her down. After years of seeking safety and peace of mind, she returned to the hometown of the cult and was able to claim Warren’s 45 bedroom mansion. This is what she decided to do with it…Watch pt 1 with Briel hereFin

Feb 7, 2024 • 58:16

I Married FLDS Cult Leader, Warren Jeffs

I Married FLDS Cult Leader, Warren Jeffs

**TW:  CSA, Suicide, threats of murder** Born into the Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (FLDS/Mormon), Briell was groomed at a very early age to one day become a plural wife to the prophet Warren Jeffs. Her parents wept when they found out the prophet’s plans, but had no choice but to give her, at 18, to the over 50 year old man as his 65th wife. When Briell saw what Warren was doing with his 12 year old wives in Texas, she was mortified and resisted Warren’s attention

Feb 7, 2024 • 1:23:36

Daughters of the Cult Leader, Ervil LeBaron, Tell All

Daughters of the Cult Leader, Ervil LeBaron, Tell All

As seen in the new and popular Hulu documentary “Daughters of the Cult”, Anna LeBaron shares with us stories the documentary missed as well as some additional details to her story as Ervil LeBaron’s daughter. We discuss blood atonement, her childhood being moved from place to place with little money for food, shelter or clothing among the plural wives and their kids, as well as conspiracy theories for how her father Ervil actually died in prison.Book: The Polygamist’s Daughter: A MemoirIG: @Anna

Jan 27, 2024 • 1:34:41

“Daughters of the Cult” Leader, Ervil LeBaron, Tell All

“Daughters of the Cult” Leader, Ervil LeBaron, Tell All

As seen in the new and popular Hulu documentary “Daughters of the Cult”, Anna LeBaron shares with us stories the documentary missed as well as some additional details to her story as Ervil LeBaron’s daughter. We discuss blood atonement, her childhood being moved from place to place with little money for food, shelter or clothing among the plural wives and their kids, as well as conspiracy theories for how her father Ervil actually died in prison. Book: The Polygamist’s Daughter: A Memoir IG: @An

Jan 27, 2024 • 1:34:41

Abandoned with 20+ Kids:  The Reality of a PLURAL WIFE in the FLDS

Abandoned with 20+ Kids: The Reality of a PLURAL WIFE in the FLDS

At only 17 years old, Ceci was assigned to become a plural wife and instant mother to 5 children before having her own child 5 months later. She then became 1 of 5 plural wives in this Fundamentalist Latter Day Saint (polygamous Mormon break off) community led by Warren Jeffs who is now in prison for CSA. Warren had a tendency to separate families for seemingly no reason and one night, she was told her husband and the other 4 wives were being sent away to “repent”, leaving the 20+ kids solely in

Jan 12, 2024 • 1:24:22

Children of God SEX CULT:  My Grandfather Was the Founding Prophet (ft. Faith Jones)

Children of God SEX CULT: My Grandfather Was the Founding Prophet (ft. Faith Jones)

Raised primarily in rural China, Faith Jones went a myriad of ab*ses before finally escaping The Children of God cult to pursue higher education. The cult is known for its far too liberal views on s*xuality which ended up being forced polyamory and free love, even extending to the young members of the communes. She grew up singing on the streets or performing in restaurants to make money for “the family” as none of the adults had jobs. Once she left, she was able to become a lawyer and now speak

Dec 26, 2023 • 1:20:02

The Horrific Childhood of a Boy in the CHILDREN OF GOD Sex Cult

The Horrific Childhood of a Boy in the CHILDREN OF GOD Sex Cult

Spending most of his young life in India, Philip endured unspeakable things at the hands of his own parents and other adults in the COG cult. These principles and disciplinary actions were taught directly by the leader David Berg, who twisted the Bible to hurt a lot of people, including the young. This is a graphic story of what he faced and how he managed to escape and create a new life. Find Philip on Social IG: @phil_seibel Website: https://www.philipseibel.com/https://www.my-print.ch/His Boo

Dec 24, 2023 • 1:15:22

Escaping CHILDREN OF GOD, the Aftermath (ft. Daniella Mestyanek Young)

Escaping CHILDREN OF GOD, the Aftermath (ft. Daniella Mestyanek Young)

Growing up abroad in the COG cult meant that Daniella Mestyanek Young was isolated from birth to be a subservient, s*x item for the men in the group. At 15, a few months before she was about to be "on the menu" she realized she needed to get out. We talk about how difficult it can be when leaving a cult and rediscovering one's identity along with learning how the world works. Daniella Mestyanek Young is an Author, a TEDx Speaker, a s*x-cult survivor, a US Army Combat Veteran, an extremely advanc

Dec 23, 2023 • 1:25:17

How Mormon Church Lawyers Protect Perpetrator: The Chelsea Goodrich Case

How Mormon Church Lawyers Protect Perpetrator: The Chelsea Goodrich Case

Chelsea Goodrich endured years of CSA from her Mormon Bishop father John Goodrich. Chelsea and her mother Lorraine went to the Mormon/LDS church for help in prosecuting him, but they let her down at every turn, despite making it seem they wouldn’t. What seemed like a good faith payment for Lorraine’s rapidly deteriorating health due to all the stress, ended up being disguised as a gag order given by the LDS church. This is a layered and complicated case that has been frequently misrepresented in

Dec 22, 2023 • 1:42:45

Mormon Bishop Exposed for Years of Sexually Abusing His Daughter, Chelsea Goodrich

Mormon Bishop Exposed for Years of Sexually Abusing His Daughter, Chelsea Goodrich

After years of committing CSA with his own daughter, Mormon bishop John Goodrich confessed his sins to a higher authority called the Stake President. However, the information was never passed to his wife, Chelsea’s mother, or the authorities, and the CSA continued. Years later, Chelsea confided in her mother about what had happened in her childhood which led to a series of more unfortunate events. We go into depth about her hardships and confusion after deconstructing these traumatizing events w

Dec 17, 2023 • 1:25:12

How Mormon Bishop’s Council Led to Repeated Child Sex Abuse Amongst Siblings

How Mormon Bishop’s Council Led to Repeated Child Sex Abuse Amongst Siblings

Born and raised in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, Katie's home life was less than perfect.  However, her parents remained very loyal to the teachings and the gospel of the LDS Church.  After years of SA from an older brother, Katie's sister reported it to the Bishop during a confession.  The Bishop advised to keep it a secret from everyone, including her parents, as the shame the perpetrator would have faced being forced to come home early from his LDS mission would have been,

Dec 16, 2023 • 1:21:58

Why a Mormon SA Survivor was Blamed and Punished for her “Sin”

Why a Mormon SA Survivor was Blamed and Punished for her “Sin”

**Content Warning: rape and self harm** It's well known that pre-marital s*x among members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is a huge sin. This is the shocking story of what happened to a member of 18 years old, who's "virtue" was stolen from her. Not only did she have to recount every detail of her traumatic experience alone to multiple men, she was eventually disfellowshipped for her "sins". Years later, after trying again as a faithful, devout, Mormon mom, Kris realized she

Nov 30, 2023 • 1:48:22

How This 18 year old JUST Escaped Her Family Cult in Ecuador

How This 18 year old JUST Escaped Her Family Cult in Ecuador

Her father, who got many ideas from his time in the Embassy of Heaven cult, claims to be a prophet. In his paranoia and attempts to escape the US government, he moved his family from state to state and then eventually to Ecuador. Determined it was the right thing to do as ordered by God, his family was completely isolated from proper education and mainstream society. At 18 years old, just 7 months ago, Ella realized she was in a cult and was able to escape.Click here to watch on YouTube Our C2C

Nov 28, 2023 • 1:13:54

Our Not So Mormon Wedding Film (1930s style)

Our Not So Mormon Wedding Film (1930s style)

**THIS EPISODE IS MEANT TO BE WATCHED- THIS IS TO INFORM YOU TO HEAD OVER TO YOUTUBE TO SEE THE WHOLE THING AFTER THE INTRO**CLICK HERE TO WATCHWe can't wait to share with you footage from our Old Hollywood Glamour themed wedding, set in the Historic 1930s Movie Palace! It was a dream lost in time. First, you'll see our actual 5 min wedding film created by the ever so talented couple at Amora Cinema. Next, you'll get to see the 1930s B&W silent short film rendition of our love story which we pro

Nov 27, 2023 • 3:36

The Extremely Isolated Life of Growing Up Jehovah's Witness (ft. OwenMorganTelltale)

The Extremely Isolated Life of Growing Up Jehovah's Witness (ft. OwenMorganTelltale)

Jehovah's Witnesses make it a point to separate themselves from "worldly" things which creates a social isolation within mainstream society. Unfortunately, this rule applies to members of all ages. Owen Morgan shares his experience growing up being completely cut off from having friends who were outsiders and explains how JWs now use animated propaganda to perpetuate these rules to young people. Find and Support Owen!YouTube: @OwenMorganTelltale @owensfiresidechat &n... --- Support this

Nov 27, 2023 • 1:24:22

Jehovah’s Witness: The Inhumane Practice of Familial Isolation

Jehovah’s Witness: The Inhumane Practice of Familial Isolation

Creative expression is part of our human nature. When belonging to a high control group, one of the first things that is sacrificed is individuality, freedom of self expression, and education about the world outside of the group. Scott was always craving creativity, especially when it came to music. After breaking through the chains of Jehovah’s Witness restrictions, he found continued solace in music. However, that came with the high cost of extreme shunning from his former friends and immed...

Nov 19, 2023 • 1:36:13

Inside the Mind of Warren Jeffs and His FLDS Polygamous Cult (Insider Speaks Out)

Inside the Mind of Warren Jeffs and His FLDS Polygamous Cult (Insider Speaks Out)

Two young teens fell into a forbidden love. After being shunned from their fundamentalist Mormon polygamous community, they had the option to be welcomed back, only if they got married immediately. Seven little ones later, Chris had been living in fear of losing his family since dozens of men were sent away to repent for unknown reasons. One day, the call came. He was being excommunicated. Click here to watch on YouTubeResources for those escaping polygamy:https://holdingouthelp.org/ https://www

Nov 13, 2023 • 1:32:30

Polygamous Mormon Cult “Lost Boys” (a former member takes them in)

Polygamous Mormon Cult “Lost Boys” (a former member takes them in)

Ben grew up in the FLDS (Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints) living with 2 moms and 28 siblings. He started working on a construction site around 8 years old and had his own crew by 16, despite only having a 3rd grade education from the private FLDS school. After realizing the outside world ISN’T all evil, he escaped the cult around age 18 and became the go-to person (along side his now-wife Wendy) for other “Lost Boys” to seek out for help. Ben and Wendy explain what it

Nov 11, 2023 • 1:26:16

The Harms of Undiagnosed Autism in a Strict Catholic School

The Harms of Undiagnosed Autism in a Strict Catholic School

Kelly recounts her difficult childhood growing up Catholic as an undiagnosed autistic girl. There were good times and traumatic times that completely shaped her life path and who she is today. She spent 3rd grade through high school in a private catholic school mostly run by nuns who weren’t happy about Vatican II and she explains how they often took out their frustrations on the children. Now, as a mother, after trying Catholic school for her own children, she recounts the things she wishes she

Nov 10, 2023 • 1:15:39

Catholic Priest Prescribes KNEELING ON FINGERS to Cast Out Sexual Demons

Catholic Priest Prescribes KNEELING ON FINGERS to Cast Out Sexual Demons

Homeschooled in a Traditional Catholic co-op, Anthony was given extreme guidance from a priest which has had negative long term ramifications. He explains the difference between traditional Catholicism and mainstream Catholicism and how one operates using common mind controls tactics. We also discuss themes of how purity culture can be damaging to men also, creating an unspoken dutiful contract between husband and wife. Click here to watch on YouTubeResource for SA statistics: https://www.rainn.

Nov 9, 2023 • 1:41:07

Her Dark Reality After “Escaping Polygamy” ft. Amanda Rae

Her Dark Reality After “Escaping Polygamy” ft. Amanda Rae

From the TV show “Escaping Polygamy”, Amanda Rae is known for calling out The Order, which is the incestuous polygamous cult she was born and raised in. She goes into depth on her channel about the stories of the men who have nearly 200 children with multiple women. However, everyone is dying to know how SHE has been coping since escaping the cult at 18 years old. We explore the all-too-common toxic relationship dynamics that can result from leaving a high-control group and how to find a healthy

Oct 30, 2023 • 1:10:11

FORCED BACK to “The Order” Incestuous Polygamous Cult at 16 After Escaping

FORCED BACK to “The Order” Incestuous Polygamous Cult at 16 After Escaping

After begging for a proper education at 14, Allison had to take things into her own hands. Knowing she was about to be forced into polygamy, she went around her parents at every turn to give herself a different future. One that didn’t involve reproducing with 1/2 siblings or cousins. A road block at every turn didn’t dissuade her from listening to the little girl inside of her who just wanted out. Resources for those escaping polygamy:https://holdingouthelp.org/https://www.hopeafterpolygamy.org/

Oct 29, 2023 • 1:35:10

“Escaping Polygamy TV Show Literally Saved My Life”

“Escaping Polygamy TV Show Literally Saved My Life”

Manipulated into saying yes to a betrothal to her cousin at 8 yrs old, Michelle knew there was no way she would raise her future family in this incestuous polygamous cult. Her father had 16 wives including half sisters and nieces (one of which was her mother). The horrible treatment in the group caused her to plot her escape and get emancipated at 17. Who knows what would’ve happened if her cousins from the TV show “Escaping Polygamy” didn’t come to help her when they did.Click here to watch par

Oct 26, 2023 • 48:20

The Reality of a Dangerous Incestuous Father of 200+

The Reality of a Dangerous Incestuous Father of 200+

**Content Warning: Multiple depictions of child abuse and infant death** This incestuous polygamous Mormon sect promotes and endorses extreme punishments. Michelle had a father who took pleasure in these punishments. Aside from that, her first job was at 4 yrs old which grew to 3 jobs by the time she was in Jr High. Against all odds, she graduated High School at 15 years old, then college a few days after her 18th birthday. Make sure to subscribe and hit the bell so you don’t miss when part 2 dr

Oct 21, 2023 • 1:13:20

Escaping “THE ORDER” Incestuous Polygamy Cult (Un-Aired Details) ft. Shanell Snow Derieux

Escaping “THE ORDER” Incestuous Polygamy Cult (Un-Aired Details) ft. Shanell Snow Derieux

*Content Warning:  Sexual Abuse, Domestic Violence, Attempted Suicide, Rape* Growing up in a cult known for its incestuous polygamy and grooming for marriage at 3, Shanell was set up for failure from the beginning. After being coerced into choosing a husband at 18, she married her first cousin and everything quickly went downhill. Her relationship was so dangerous, her husband went to jail and she fled her home to safety, eventually deciding to leave The Order as well. Three years later, Shanell

Oct 18, 2023 • 1:18:49

INCESTUOUS Polygamy Mandatory for Salvation:  Growing Up In “The Order”

INCESTUOUS Polygamy Mandatory for Salvation: Growing Up In “The Order”

**Content warning: multiple depictions of child abuse** Growing up with 14 moms and nearly 200 siblings in an insulated community with very strict rules, proves to be extremely challenging and confusing. Shanell wasn’t even supposed to know who her biological father was, but was smart enough to figure it out. Not allowed to go to High School, she had what they considered the “privilege” of getting a job instead, to earn money that she needed permission to access. A second mother to her 11 siblin

Oct 13, 2023 • 1:28:46

AMISH Mother Shunned for Protecting Her Daughters from Their Father

AMISH Mother Shunned for Protecting Her Daughters from Their Father

Forced into the Amish lifestyle, Audrey had no choice but to conform to the strict Amish standards. She married young, and later found out her husband had been hurting their daughters in unimaginable ways. Most Amish mothers side with their husbands in this situation, but not Audrey. After taking her soon to be ex husband to court, the entire community shunned and stalked her and her family. Resources for those in need:Generations Unleashed Facebook: https://m.facebook.com/Generations.Unleashed.

Oct 12, 2023 • 1:04:41

Swartzentruber AMISH: The Unknown SINISTER Side of the Strictist Settlement

Swartzentruber AMISH: The Unknown SINISTER Side of the Strictist Settlement

An expert witness for Amish and Mennonite court cases, Lizzie explains the rules of her intense settlement before taking us through her unbelievable story of disaster, lethal betrayal, tragedy, abandonment and perseverance. She even gives us a glimpse of the strange dating practice which takes place in the woman’s bedroom. Resources: https://www.theplainpeoplespodcast.com/resourcesWebsite: https://www.lizziehershberger.com/Her book: “Behind Blue Curtains: A True Crime Memoir of an Amish Woman’s

Oct 11, 2023 • 1:25:24

AMISH: Her Unlicensed Midwives Used Veterinary Tools

AMISH: Her Unlicensed Midwives Used Veterinary Tools

*Content warning: SA, beastiality, DV, infant death, miscarriage** Having been blissfully unaware of the methods of control and "ownership" of women growing up in the Amish, Elizabeth was not prepared for the dark and brutal marriage that followed. Her husband forbid her to going to the hospital for her 8 births which left her in questionable and dangerous hands. After she finally got the courage to get police involved, her community put her in shunning for 4 years straight, before she realized

Oct 6, 2023 • 1:24:50

Her ISOLATION in a Strict Mennonite Cult Led to Madness

Her ISOLATION in a Strict Mennonite Cult Led to Madness

From an atheist household to strict Mennonite, Jasper had an incredible amount of adjusting to do as a teenager. Her love for riding horses and asking questions branded her with “unruly” and “rebellious”. Anyone who got close to her was shipped away and eventually, due to lack of socialization and acceptance, her mental health quickly deteriorated. She now hosts “The Plain People’s Podcast” where she platforms former Mennonite and Amish so they may tell their stories.Click here to watch on YouTu

Oct 5, 2023 • 1:22:52

Growing Up in an Incestuous Mormon Cult

Growing Up in an Incestuous Mormon Cult

The reality of having multiple mothers can be a dark one.  The little ones are the ones who suffer the most.  Within this clear imbalance of power lies an eldest son, laden with far too many responsibilities.  Eventually, Val is kicked out of his own community, partly due to his sexual preferences.  Although, he was well on his way out to freedom and happiness within the "normal world".Click here to watch on YouTubeResource for those escaping polygamy:https://holdingouthelp.org/Val's youtube Cha

Sep 25, 2023 • 57:11

Mormon Polygamist Cult EXPLOITS Minors at 25 Cents per Hour

Mormon Polygamist Cult EXPLOITS Minors at 25 Cents per Hour

Apostolic United Brethren prophesied this now comedian would restore the true LDS (Mormon) church to the earth.  In Ben's case, 2 moms prove to be far more difficult than convenient, as he was dealing with working long hours for little to know money at 8.  Click here to watch on YouTubeFollow Ben on Social:Instagram @thefreshkingbenjaminhttps://www.instagram.com/thefreshkingbenjaminwww.thefreshkingbenjamin.comSupport ShelisePatreon: Patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannAny donations

Sep 24, 2023 • 1:36:58

Narcissistic Parents Did the Unspeakable to Their Young Daughter (ft. Isami Daehn)

Narcissistic Parents Did the Unspeakable to Their Young Daughter (ft. Isami Daehn)

**Content warning: CHILD SA, ANOREXIA, CA, TRAFF*CKING** At 7 Years Old, Isami Daehn was traded by her narcissistic mother, in exchange for piano lessons for her and her siblings.  Isami now speaks out about the horrors of growing up in a narcissistic, high demand family, while being raised an Independent Fundamentalist Baptist in Japan. Not all high control groups are major churches or large corporations. Sometimes, certain personality disorders, when combined with strict religiosity, can cause

Sep 12, 2023 • 1:05:47

The Expert Witness Who TOOK DOWN Danny Masterson

The Expert Witness Who TOOK DOWN Danny Masterson

Once a top ranking Scientologist, now a former, Claire Headley was called to testify in the 2nd, most recent trial of Danny Masterson on his SA convictions of 3 women.  As an Expert Witness, her testimony helped the jury understand why Scientology itself played a crucial role in the suppression of evidence.  He has just been found guilty, and sentenced to life in prison.  Claire now speaks out on the details of her time on the stand.Click here to watch on YouTubeFind and Support Claire!The After

Sep 11, 2023 • 50:55

The Reality of Growing Up with PURITY CULTURE in a Sex-Obsessed World

The Reality of Growing Up with PURITY CULTURE in a Sex-Obsessed World

**Content warning: Open dialogue around sex & mentions of SA & Rape** Purity culture seems innocent and shiny on the outside, but when you look closer, understanding there are two sides to every coin, it gets dark and dangerous. Kendra and I take an honest look at the intentions of purity culture and how it often backfires and creates more issues including abuse and self hatred. Click here to watch on YouTubeEpisodes with the Ex- Mormon Sex Therapist:LDS Sex Therapist Ousted for Views on Masturb

Sep 3, 2023 • 1:10:26

SCIENTOLOGY: When A Coerced Child Joins A Cult to Survive (ft. Marc Headley)

SCIENTOLOGY: When A Coerced Child Joins A Cult to Survive (ft. Marc Headley)

His mother converted to Scientology when he was 6 years old and his life changed forever. When he rejected the teachings, she kicked him out of the house and he was forced to find friends to live with which was never permanent. At 15 years old with no place to live, no money, no job and no real world experience having only an education at a Scientology school, he caved and joined the Sea Org. His audio/visual skills were immediately put to work at Golden Era Productions at headquarters in Southe

Sep 1, 2023 • 57:59

The DANGEROUS Lengths Scientology Went to Destroy Marc Headley

The DANGEROUS Lengths Scientology Went to Destroy Marc Headley

Scientology Sea Org employees who work at the headquarters in Southern California, are treated like prisoners. After Marc was falsely accused of embezzling money, they threatened to take hime away from his wife to put him in a rehabilitation center. His only other option was a dangerous escape off of the property. Learn how a civilian saved his life, and how Scientology began to stalk and harass Marc and his family for speaking out about the abuses within the organization. Click here to watch on

Sep 1, 2023 • 47:17

Top SCIENTOLOGY Commercial & Film Director Reveals UNEXPECTED Insider Secrets

Top SCIENTOLOGY Commercial & Film Director Reveals UNEXPECTED Insider Secrets

Commercial director Mitch Brisker was scouted by Scientology to put them on the map and he did! His Dianetics commercials were a huge hit and mostly responsible for selling millions of copies of the books. They convinced him to go work at Golden Era Productions where he turned around the entire film department and started making good quality work for training and marketing purposes. Shelise shares how she was on set around the same time as an actor in a few Scientology films. Most surprisingly h

Aug 27, 2023 • 1:16:23

Her BRUTAL Escape From Scientology:  The UNREAL Story of Top Ranking Sea Org Member, Claire Headley

Her BRUTAL Escape From Scientology: The UNREAL Story of Top Ranking Sea Org Member, Claire Headley

Claire was raised as product of Scientology. Her early childhood years spent in Scientology boarding schools away from her parents. As a teenager, she doubled down and rose up to one of the highest ranks possible where she was working directly for David Miscavige. Witnessing David's abusive ways and after she was forced to do horrific things, she knew she had to escape. Her story will leave you on the edge of your seat as she describes her master plan to escape the headquarters of Scientology. C

Aug 25, 2023 • 1:36:19

Scientology’s Abandoned and Neglected Children (ft. Claire Headley)

Scientology’s Abandoned and Neglected Children (ft. Claire Headley)

Claire Headley, President of The Aftermath Foundation, recounts her difficult childhood in the primary hands of Scientology in the UK. Coerced to sign a billion year contract by 7 years old, her life was dedicated to learning how to be the best Sea Org member she could possibly be. Longing to be a “normal” kid like those in her public school, she had plans to escape. Until, a major life event shook her which cemented her beliefs in Scientology. She had no idea the horrors that awaited her when s

Aug 22, 2023 • 1:03:58

Horrific Teachings Mormon Church Doesn't Want You to Know About (ft.@nuancehoe)

Horrific Teachings Mormon Church Doesn't Want You to Know About (ft.@nuancehoe)

Back again for our 1 year channel anniversary is  @nuancehoe ! Peek behind the curtain with us to discover the dark and dirty past of Mormon (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints) history and even what current LDS apologists are up to in the name of fundamentalism. We both believe that true change, does not come from gaslighting or pretending things weren't harmful, but by full acknowledgement, apology and tangible steps to undo the hurt caused by dangerous doctrine and leaders.Click

Aug 20, 2023 • 1:23:07

Former Missionary Dissects Mormon Manipulation Tactics (ft. Irene's Entropy)

Former Missionary Dissects Mormon Manipulation Tactics (ft. Irene's Entropy)

**Content Warning: self harm, brief mention of child SA** From forced Molly Mormon into rockstar, Irene discusses what her life was like being raised in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (Mormonism) and the extreme manipulation tactics that were used to keep members active. She attended the Mormon university BYU and served a mission in Honduras, before meeting someone who completely changed her life and helped open her eyes to the cult mentality she was in. Click here to watch on Y

Aug 15, 2023 • 1:35:55

How Being Pentecostal Primed Her for Korean JMS Cult

How Being Pentecostal Primed Her for Korean JMS Cult

Liz was brainwashed and sucked into a dangerous Korean cult, groomed to be one of the cult leader's spiritual brides. They preyed on her love for Christianity and longing to belong. This episode explores her upbringing as a Pentecostal Christian which adds layers of context to help us understand how she was primed to fall into the JMS cult.Click here to watch on YouTube Find her previous episode here "How the Korean JMS Cult Brainwashed and Hospitalized Her"Find Liz on Social!TikTok @liztheforme

Aug 15, 2023 • 1:08:18

“Sins of the Amish” Doc: Darker Details than They Were Willing to Release on TV

“Sins of the Amish” Doc: Darker Details than They Were Willing to Release on TV

Featured in “The Sins of the Amish”, Meg endured a life of t*rture at the hands of her father and other family members. First in an Old Order Amish settlement, then a black bumper Mennonite Settlement, the ab*se was condoned and accepted by the community. Using books like “To Train Up A Child”, it was normal for fathers to break the will of their children as early as 18 months old. Against her wishes, she was forced into an arranged marriage which had many of the same characteristics of her fami

Aug 9, 2023 • 1:23:07

HOLDEMAN MENNONITES: Ab*sive Father Joins To Slip Under the Radar

HOLDEMAN MENNONITES: Ab*sive Father Joins To Slip Under the Radar

**Content Warning: Child SA, abuse, r*pe, suic*de ideation** We have learned about people who grow up in abusive environments who don’t have a good chance of breaking that cycle while they are still in the cult bubble. But what about the people who understand abuse not only goes unnoticed in these cults, but is even celebrated, and they join for this reason? Hannah’s story illustrates how when the outside world can clearly see a group where abuse thrives, and they don’t want to get caught, they

Aug 6, 2023 • 1:05:58

AMISH Woman "Sinned" by Taking Her Brothers to Court for SA

AMISH Woman "Sinned" by Taking Her Brothers to Court for SA

**Content Warning: Frequent mentions of child SA & r*pe among other forms of abuse & suic*de ideation**Mary Byler’s story is horrific and shocking, yet one of the reasons she is being so brave in sharing her story, is because it’s not uncommon. The Amish are often romanticized for their “plain” lifestyle, yet people don’t understand or know about the sheer terror facing the women and children of these communities. Extreme forms of purity culture combined with a no-questions-asked “always forgive

Aug 5, 2023 • 1:11:12

Old Order AMISH: Devastating Effects of ZERO S*x Ed Before Marriage (ft. Eli Yoder)

Old Order AMISH: Devastating Effects of ZERO S*x Ed Before Marriage (ft. Eli Yoder)

**Content Warning: Child SA, Incest, Rape** Along with extreme sexual distortions and a severe lack of sexual education, the Old Order Amish are taught that pregnancy means women have “The Sickness”, and that any talk of sex is forbidden until marriage.Having left the Old Order Amish 25 years ago, Eli Yoder, has helped 200+ people flee the Amish community.  In today's episode, we discuss the dark corners of the seemingly bright and simple groups that exist today, along with the shocking lengths

Jul 31, 2023 • 1:04:38

When Depression is Considered SIN in the Old Order AMISH (ft. Eli Yoder)

When Depression is Considered SIN in the Old Order AMISH (ft. Eli Yoder)

People in the "modern world" tend to romanticize the Amish. They seem to live simple lives and keep to themselves with their big families and old traditional ways of doing things. This may be true AND it's possible that a world of secrets, abuse and lack of care for those suffering mental illness are also extremely common. Joined by ex Old Order Amish, Eli Yoder, we discuss the dark corners of the seemingly bright and groups that exist today.Click here to watch on YouTubeFind and Support Eli!You

Jul 30, 2023 • 1:19:08

Korean JMS Cult Hospitalized and Almost Killed Her

Korean JMS Cult Hospitalized and Almost Killed Her

An unsuspecting Aussie girl was intentionally recruited and manipulated to eventually become one of cult leader's Jung Myung Seok thousands of spiritual brides. The the self proclaimed reincarnated Messiah and convicted r*pist was in jail when she met him through the plexi-glass in Korea. Forced to restrict her food intake to please Jung, she lost so much weight her health deteriorated and she was hospitalized. Learn how her near death experience saved her life, by helping her escape the dangero

Jul 26, 2023 • 1:33:25

The Biggest Takeaways From Ex Cult Members (after 1 Year on YouTube)

The Biggest Takeaways From Ex Cult Members (after 1 Year on YouTube)

After 1 year of horrific cult stories, we thought it would be nice to celebrate these brave souls with all of their best advice and funny statements through their “Linda, listen” moment. An empowering statement, be it sassy, inspirational, funny or all of the above. This video can also serve as a recap of what we have been up to all year and give you a peek into each episode which you may have missed. Watch on YouTubeepisode 02 - Nuancehoe episode 04 - Ashleyepisode 05 - True Mormon Quotes episo

Jul 25, 2023 • 51:09

Deceptive Swinger's Club Masquerades as Buddhist Temple

Deceptive Swinger's Club Masquerades as Buddhist Temple

Fresh out of the sheltered sexuality of Mormonism, Kirsten had just gotten a divorce and badly needed a job. Convincing herself that she just didn't know what "normal" body positivity and sexuality looked like, she got a job at a nudist, sex club that lured people in by pretending to be a zen, meditative, buddhist retreat. For the first time ever, someone is speaking out against the One Love Temple, otherwise known as the Sea Mountain Resort in Las Vegas, NV.Click here to watch on YouTubeTo watc

Jul 22, 2023 • 1:06:43

Exposing BYU’s Homophobic Policies & Youth Indoctrination Camps

Exposing BYU’s Homophobic Policies & Youth Indoctrination Camps

Brigham Young was the second prophet of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and who Brigham Young University was named after. Brigham is known for a LOT of heinous actions against the saints, so it shouldn't come as a surprise when learning about the abhorrent policies of the school. Since Kirsten went there, it's only gotten slightly better. Find out what these students have to go through just to get an education. We also go into what EFY/FSY is, and why it was/is problematic for th

Jul 19, 2023 • 1:30:10

“The Little Mermaid” is Super CULTY

“The Little Mermaid” is Super CULTY

BONUS EPISODE! Disney, don't come after us!  In making the new Little Mermaid movie, we get you were tied to the 1989 classic, which was tied to the 1845 fairy tale, but we couldn't help but notice all of the CULTY parallels.  From an oppressive polygamist father with an "us vs them" mentality,  to a banished sea witch with her own agenda of ownership and rule, literally taking Ariel's voice and leaving her voiceless, we breakdown all the ways the Little Mermaid is super culty.  Click here to wa

Jul 16, 2023 • 31:45

“To Train Up a Child” the Horrific Book that Tormented Her Childhood

“To Train Up a Child” the Horrific Book that Tormented Her Childhood

**Content Warning: Child Abuse/Suicide Attempt** The book that is linked to 3 deaths of children, completely warped Kendra's life. Her parents took the abusive techniques to "train" their 7 children to the extreme. Fighting for her life everyday, trying to understand what she did to deserve this pain, when she turned 18 she ran. Little did she know, she ran right into the arms of another predator who married her 2 weeks later and got her pregnant 6 months after that. When the abuse continued, de

Jul 10, 2023 • 1:33:02

“Shiny Happy People” Cult:  EXPOSING Forced Child Labor at IBLP Training Centers

“Shiny Happy People” Cult: EXPOSING Forced Child Labor at IBLP Training Centers

Blamed and shamed for sexual sin she never committed, Jess was forced into multiple IBLP training centers for “bad girls” where she was put on a no-speak order for weeks at a time. Punished for asking for basic needs during extreme manual labor in the intense heat, she constantly felt to blame for not measuring up to impossible standards. Her story is one of perseverance and strength as she finally finds her way out of the cult and begins to acclimate to the completely foreign outside world. Cli

Jul 9, 2023 • 1:27:30

Trapped in IBLP Training Center’s Solitary Confinement at 16

Trapped in IBLP Training Center’s Solitary Confinement at 16

When a young boy's family joins the Institute in Basic Life Principles cult (as seen on the "Shiny Happy People" doc), his life gets a lot more complicated. Shamed for having a girlfriend at 16, his family moves him out of state then sends him away to an IBLP training/rehabilitation center for "bad kids".  The goal, to break his mind, body, and soul into submission. After leaving the cult at 18, he found himself unable to connect with society and he turned to extreme drug and alcohol abuse. This

Jul 6, 2023 • 1:45:52

My Not So Mormon Wedding (& HUGE channel updates!)

My Not So Mormon Wedding (& HUGE channel updates!)

Finally! The details about our extra, over the top, Old Hollywood wedding at the Historic Los Angeles Movie Palace built in 1931! It was incredible and I couldn't have asked for a better experience. We both were able to showcase our talents in unique ways and offer a production and wild experience for our guests! Make sure to keep your eyes on the screen for this one. There are a LOT of photos and videos to share with you. Also, stick around to the end for some MAJOR channel updates! Thank you f

Jul 5, 2023 • 1:46:23

Why He Helped Grow, then Destroy the NXIVM Sex Cult (ft. Mark Vicente)

Why He Helped Grow, then Destroy the NXIVM Sex Cult (ft. Mark Vicente)

Sentenced to 120 years in prison for racketeering, sex trafficking, and many more nefarious sexual offense counts, Keith Raniere once led the MLM cult, NXIVM, which at its height had 700 active members.  Along with Sarah Edmondson, Mark Vicente helped recruit members, and then ultimately helped bring it down. Their departure from the cult is documented in the HBO documentary series, The Vow.  In today's episode, Mark dives deeper into the disturbing details of his personal experience with Ranier

Jun 28, 2023 • 1:24:04

Top 10 MUST SEE Cult Docs ft. Mormon Stories

Top 10 MUST SEE Cult Docs ft. Mormon Stories

With the explosion of cult documentaries in the last 10 years, and the subsequent exposure and awareness it's brought, viewers are rushing to watch as many possible.  But there may be some shocking ones you may have missed!  In this episode, Dr. John Dehlin (Mormon Stories podcast), and I, break down our top 10 must watch cult docs of the past decade. Click here to watch on YouTube(Clickable Chapter Markers available on YouTube)Parallels between John Dehlin's Mormon past and cult docs#1 Shiny Ha

Jun 26, 2023 • 55:30

"Shiny Happy People" Doc Guest:  Bill Gothard Groomed Me From the Age of 13

"Shiny Happy People" Doc Guest: Bill Gothard Groomed Me From the Age of 13

**Content Warning: mentions of child SA** Emily Elizabeth Anderson—a featured survivor on the cult documentary “Shiny Happy People” exposing the IBLP— is an example of how abuse thrives within these extreme fundamentalist Christian teachings. She endured trauma after trauma which caused her body to shut down with Crohn’s disease. Once she recognized the abuse at the hands of her father and Bill Gothard himself, she joined a lawsuit against IBLP and Bill and deconstructed the toxic teachings from

Jun 19, 2023 • 1:25:33

“Shiny Happy People” Cult VS the FLDS (STRIKING Similarities) ft.  @GrowingUpinPolygamy

“Shiny Happy People” Cult VS the FLDS (STRIKING Similarities) ft. @GrowingUpinPolygamy

**Content Warning: various mentions of CA** Upon watching the Shiny Happy People documentary, I realized they essentially had all the same rules as the Fundamentalist Latter Day Saints group (FLDS) aside from practicing polygamy. Joined by Sam and Melissa from  @GrowingUpinPolygamy , we dissect all the ways the IBLP (Institute in Basic Life Principles) mirror the FLDS.Click here to watch on YouTube(clickable chapter markers on YouTube)FLDS, explainedPurity Culture: saving first kiss for wedding

Jun 15, 2023 • 1:24:24

“Shiny Happy People” Cult was WAY WORSE than Doc Shows (Insider speaks out)

“Shiny Happy People” Cult was WAY WORSE than Doc Shows (Insider speaks out)

**Content Warning: Brief mentions of child ab*se, domestic ab*se, suic*de ideation** The Institute in Basic Life Principles is an extreme Christian fundamentalist set of beliefs that took hold on society when The Duggars (from TLC’s “19 kids and Counting”) made it popular. These beliefs look “Happy and Shiny” from the surface, but deep inside rots the truth about the misogynistic, abusive and oppressive practices that force children and wives to obey at all costs. Jen joins us and tells (for the

Jun 13, 2023 • 1:06:28

Why “The Order” INCEST Polygamy Cult Sees Women as Possessions ft. Amanda Rae

Why “The Order” INCEST Polygamy Cult Sees Women as Possessions ft. Amanda Rae

The Kingston Clan is known for their incestuous polygamy in an effort to keep their "bloodline" pure. From deformities and infertility, to racism and coercion, take a peek inside "The Order"—an extremist off shoot of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (aka Mormonism) with Amanda Rae from the TV show "Escaping Polygamy".Click here to watch on YouTube(clickable chapter markers available on YouTube)Her incestuous family bushThe leader, Paul, has 27 wivesThe deformities with inbreedingM

Jun 10, 2023 • 1:33:02

THE ORDER Polygamy Cult: “My Dad’s 3rd Wife Is His Half Sister” ft. Amanda Rae

THE ORDER Polygamy Cult: “My Dad’s 3rd Wife Is His Half Sister” ft. Amanda Rae

"The Order" or the "Kingston Clan" is known for their incestuous practices of polygamy in an effort to keep their "bloodline pure". They are a fundamentalist branch of Mormonism in Salt Lake City where marrying 1st cousins and even half siblings is seen as perfectly fine. Amanda Rae, who was raised in this group, escaped at 17 and was seen on the TV show "Escaping Polygamy" helping others to do the same. Learn the ins and outs of this cult and why she so badly wanted out. Click here to watch the

Jun 8, 2023 • 59:08

Doomsday Mormonism: 8 Siblings Surviving on $10k a Year

Doomsday Mormonism: 8 Siblings Surviving on $10k a Year

**Content Warning: brief mentions of suicide ideation 1 hr 34 mins in** Within mainstream Mormonism is a fundamentalist group that takes the "Latter Days" incredibly serious. They are loosely known as the Doomsday or Prepper Mormons. Rachel lived in extreme poverty, rarely received any medical attention, had no power or running water and had no idea she was in a cult until years and years later. Not only did she deconstruct end times Mormonism, but found herself deconstructing mainstream Mormoni

Jun 5, 2023 • 2:19:42

Her Childhood in Scientology:  Punished For Being Assaulted

Her Childhood in Scientology: Punished For Being Assaulted

**Content Warning: Mentions of SA**  Raised in Scientology, at 12 years old, the church accused her of “Instigating” her own S.A., then sent her away to a Scientology boarding school, where the abuse continued. For the first time,  Daisy opens up about her horrific childhood growing up in Scientology. Learn why scientologist perpetrators are often unpunished, while the victims suffer in silence. Listen with care. Click here to watch on YouTube(clickable chapter markers available on YouTube)Conte

Jun 2, 2023 • 53:22

The Aftermath of Marrying an Excommunicated Jehovah’s Witness

The Aftermath of Marrying an Excommunicated Jehovah’s Witness

Once excommunicated from the Jehovah's Witness faith, Rome's life completely changed. Shunned from his mother and other family members, he meets India, who slowly helps him deconstruct and acclimates him to a world full of Holidays and birthday celebrations. A beautiful love story of patience, understanding and acceptance. Click here to watch the episode on YouTube(clickable chapter markers available on YouTube) Growing up Jehovah's Witness in VirginiaWho are the Jehovah's Witnesses?Not being ab

May 30, 2023 • 1:05:38

From the Children of God Sex Cult to the US Military ft. Daniella Mestyanek Young

From the Children of God Sex Cult to the US Military ft. Daniella Mestyanek Young

**Content Warning: Brief mentions of Suic*de Ideation and R*pe**Daniella Mestyanek Young finally escaped the Children of God sex cult at age 15 desperately trying to acclimate to life in the US and starting school for the first time. Her accolades and honors would land her in the US military which not only compounded upon her growing mound of trauma, but eventually leading her to an impossible breaking point. Click here to watch on YouTubeClick here to watch the previous video with Daniella(clic

May 25, 2023 • 1:21:44

Her Horrific Childhood in the Children of God Sex Cult ft. Daniella Mestyanek Young

Her Horrific Childhood in the Children of God Sex Cult ft. Daniella Mestyanek Young

***CONTENT WARNING: Mentions of child sexual assault/physical abuse, child trafficking and sex***Please listen with care. This episode is very heavy and potentially triggering. This is, however, an important story to tell. Daniella Mestyanek Young was born and raised in the Children of God sex cult, who's goal was to raise sexually liberated children with little to no secular education. This is the story of her childhood behind the walls of the compounds all over the world. The next episode, we

May 24, 2023 • 1:12:28

From Forced ULTRA ORTHODOXY to Non-Binary Secularism

From Forced ULTRA ORTHODOXY to Non-Binary Secularism

You met Chavie in a previous episode. A determined mother who took a long hard road out of Hasidic Judaism so her children could have more choices that she did growing up. Now you get to hear from one of her children! Ruby recounts what it was like being forced to live a judge ordered Hasidic lifestyle, until they stood up and said no. From learning what they had been missing in school, to unearthing social media for the first time at 17, they are now living the life THEY chose for themselves!Cl

May 22, 2023 • 1:02:54

Will Danny Masterson Be Found Guilty? COMPLETE TRIAL RECAP ft @growingupinscientology

Will Danny Masterson Be Found Guilty? COMPLETE TRIAL RECAP ft @growingupinscientology

Any day, the verdict will be in! Will Danny Masterson be charged for the violent r*pe of 3 different women? Joined by Aaron with  @GrowingUpInScientology , we discuss his full live coverage of the May 2023 trial  in Los Angeles and all the characters who are playing a role behind the scenes. From scientology lawyers, propaganda bloggers and even a reverend, to Leah Remini in the court room, there is a lot to discuss! Click here to watch on YouTube(clickable chapter markers available on YouTube)

May 19, 2023 • 40:19

Why He Left Mormon Polygamy Behind

Why He Left Mormon Polygamy Behind

For someone who planned to name their children using every letter of the alphabet, everyone was shocked when he left the fundamentalist Mormon church called The Work. He was dedicated, invested, had his first kiss at the alter of his arranged marriage, and ultimately his curiosity and empathy led him out. Calvin Wayman's journey is inspiring! Make sure to check out the first episode we did, explaining more of his childhood and the backstory of the FLDS.Click here to watch the episode on YouTube(

May 17, 2023 • 1:25:03

44 Siblings, 4 Mothers: Deconstructing the FLDS Polygamy Cult

44 Siblings, 4 Mothers: Deconstructing the FLDS Polygamy Cult

Calvin and I dissect the world of Mormon Fundamentalism, from mind control, decision coercion, EXTREME racist teachings from the early prophets and the secret sauce to creating the most controlling cults. Learn the good and bad of growing up with 4 mothers and 44 siblings in the same home, and how they redefined the meaning of monogamy in unexpected ways.Click here to watch the episode on YouTube(clickable chapter markers available on YouTube)The run down of FLDS doctrine when they split from ma

May 14, 2023 • 1:22:57

Escaping the Warren Jeffs FLDS Polygamy Cult

Escaping the Warren Jeffs FLDS Polygamy Cult

At 17 she realized she was in a religious prison. She had just been "arranged" to be married to a stranger and had been plotting her escape for 2 years. Determined not to become a plural wife for the sole purpose of having as many children as possible, she did whatever it took to leave and pursue higher education at a large cost. See how she transformed her life and navigated the hard lessons of the "real world".Click here to watch the episode on YouTube(clickable chapter markers available on Yo

May 11, 2023 • 1:03:57

Her Childhood as a Prisoner in the FLDS Polygamy Cult

Her Childhood as a Prisoner in the FLDS Polygamy Cult

Isolated from the outside world while imprisoned in the FLDS compound, Judith Bateman breaks down her childhood in the Warren Jeffs polygamy cult.  In a reality where “the more wives a husband has the more Righteous he is” Jude talks what it was like growing up with 17 siblings and 2 mothers, “demonstrating readiness" at 12 years old, being turned in to Warren Jeffs himself, how everyone’s pets were sentenced to death, how fear kept the members controlled, and how she ultimately devised her esca

May 8, 2023 • 1:14:11

Ex-Hasidic Man Sues Quebec Gov for Failing to Ensure Proper Education

Ex-Hasidic Man Sues Quebec Gov for Failing to Ensure Proper Education

A father fights the Quebec government after realizing the secular education both he and his children had gotten in their Hasidic Yeshivas, were intentionally not up to the legal state requirements. Struggling with ostracization, dishonor and a battle to keep their own children after leaving the sect, Yohanan Lowen continues to fight for the children who don’t know any better.Click here to watch the episode on YouTube(clickable chapter markers available on YouTube)No functional education for its

May 6, 2023 • 49:38

ULTRA ORTHODOX: Hasidic Jewish Sect Forced Her to Marry & Consummate with a Stranger

ULTRA ORTHODOX: Hasidic Jewish Sect Forced Her to Marry & Consummate with a Stranger

**Content warning: Sexual Abuse/Sexual Discussions** A brave and fierce mother, Chavie Weisberger, divulges the deepest, darkest corners of her life from growing up in a very strict ultra-orthodox sect of Judaism ran by her grandfather. She shares her heart-wrenching custody battle and how the courts forced her to conform to the religion years after she had left it behind. Listen with caution, this episode is as heavy as it is inspirational and incredible. Click here to watch it on YouTube(click

May 1, 2023 • 1:02:02

He Went From Speaking in Tongues to Exposing Biblical Mythology ft. Mythvision Podcast

He Went From Speaking in Tongues to Exposing Biblical Mythology ft. Mythvision Podcast

Speaking the language of Angels, literal demons attached to people who were sinning, exorcisms of alcoholics and more. This church shaped Derek's early teen years until he tried many other denominations of Christianity in search of the right one. As a pastor in training, during his intense studies of the Bible, he ended up going an unexpected direction. Derek runs the Mythvision YouTube channel where he discusses mythology, history and more! Check it out!Click here to watch this episode...

Apr 27, 2023 • 1:24:50

Declared An Enemy of Scientology at 6 Years Old (how she escaped) ft. @KelliCopter

Declared An Enemy of Scientology at 6 Years Old (how she escaped) ft. @KelliCopter

*Content Warning: Child abuse* No child should have to endure what Kelli went through. These abusive, Scientology practices were encouraged by the doctrine and the church throughout her entire childhood. I'm amazed at how she has risen above it all and truly embodies compassion and empathy for others who are or have gone through similar abusive situations. Click here to watch on YouTube(clickable chapter markers available on YouTube)How her parents got involved in ScientologyHer earliest memory

Apr 20, 2023 • 1:08:36

Why Scientologists Don’t Believe in “Children” ft. Growing Up In Scientology

Why Scientologists Don’t Believe in “Children” ft. Growing Up In Scientology

Is it ethical to raise children in a high demand group/religion? What if you think it is what is best for them? Aaron and I discuss the unintended consequences of raising your children with steadfast beliefs that could ultimately harm them in the future. As someone who was raised a Scientologist and now has a channel totally dedicated to the topic @GrowingUpInScientology , Aaron shares his thoughts and opinions and personal stories. Click here to watch on YouTubeClick here to watch him interview

Apr 10, 2023 • 1:10:35

Are ALL Religions CULTS? ft. Andrew Gold

Are ALL Religions CULTS? ft. Andrew Gold

After over 350 interviews with ex-cult members, psychopaths, experts and more, Andrew Gold has a diversified and educated perspective on Cults. The frequently asked question, "Are all religions cults?" is answered and contemplated in this thought-provoking interview detailing his experiences and opinions. Check out his channel at  @AndrewGold1  We will be releasing a second episode on his channel very soon!Click here to watch on YouTube!(clickable chapter markers available on YouTube)Cults vs Re

Apr 4, 2023 • 1:01:28

How Mormonism Harms Its Disabled Members

How Mormonism Harms Its Disabled Members

An often overlooked demographic in the discussion of high-demand groups are people with various disabilities, who are treated differently and even told some outlandish doctrine about their bodies. René comes on to openly discuss what it was like converting to mormonism and then recognizing the harm it was causing her differently abled son & grandchildren. Click here to watch on YouTube(clickable chapter markers on YouTube)René's first introduction to religiosity Her friends' opinions of her when

Mar 29, 2023 • 58:58

Manipulation Secrets of a UK Scientology Staff Member ft. Apostate Alex

Manipulation Secrets of a UK Scientology Staff Member ft. Apostate Alex

He signed a 1 billion year contract of service to Scientology and then they kicked him out when he expressed that the "tech" wasn't working for him. Stories of manipulation with an honest heart, secrets about the alien god Xenu and more, in this awesome interview with  @apostatealex Click here to watch on YouTube How Apostate Alex became Apostate Alex on YouTubeDifferences in Scientology between the US & UKThe documentary that made Alex interested in ScientologyThe story of Xenu It's not secret

Mar 22, 2023 • 1:19:21

Her Childhood in Scientology:  The Dark Unspoken Truth

Her Childhood in Scientology: The Dark Unspoken Truth

**Trigger Warning: brief mention of SA towards the end of the interview** It's time we talk about the little humans who are raised in cults. Parents do the best they can with the information they have, so the blame is not on them. It is on these high-demand organizations who first con the parents, and then indoctrinate the kids. A vicious cycle until someone is able to break free. Let's take a look into the childhood of Dani, a former Scientologist who was raised in the church, and the repercuss

Mar 13, 2023 • 1:05:39

Ex-Mormon and Ex-Jehovah's Witness Compare CULTures (ft. Altworldly)

Ex-Mormon and Ex-Jehovah's Witness Compare CULTures (ft. Altworldly)

***Content Warning: Brief mention of sexual assault in regards to repentance***Public shaming, excommunication, proselytizing, information control and more are just a few of the similarities between Mormons and Jehovah's Witnesses. Joined again by Altworldly for a sometimes funny, sometimes heartbreaking episode, we unpack what it's like to be in the CULTure of the two religions. Click here to watch the episode on YouTube!(clickable chapter markers available on YT)ProselytizingPurity Culture Rul

Mar 10, 2023 • 1:13:01

Ex-Mormon and Ex-Jehovah's Witness Compare Doctrine (ft. Altworldly)

Ex-Mormon and Ex-Jehovah's Witness Compare Doctrine (ft. Altworldly)

Secret societies, the second coming, Armageddon and specially translated bibles, Jake and I are back again for a deep dive into the similarities between Mormonism and Jehovah's witnesses! After an hour of only doctrinal and theological comparisons, we realized we needed to record an entirely separate episode on just the cultural similarities! Subscribe and hit the bell so you don't miss it!Click here to watch the episode on YouTube!(clickable chapter markers available on YT)Deconstructing one cu

Mar 6, 2023 • 53:12

Raising a Child as a Former Jehovah's Witness

Raising a Child as a Former Jehovah's Witness

Modern day struggles of a millennial mom who was raised a Jehovah's Witness, but wants a different life for her child. We discuss the moral compass absent of God or punishment, embracing and celebrating self, and letting go of shame that stifles one's voice. Enjoy this vulnerable account of Brooke Chanel's story!Click here to watch on YouTubeAs mentioned: For FREE daily intuitive text messages from Ashley Easter:Text the word Intuition to 917-809-7311 (USA only)Watch Ashley's episode HERE(clicka

Feb 28, 2023 • 1:00:10

Mormonism On Trial:  Ex-Mormon Lawyer Challenges Truth Claims

Mormonism On Trial: Ex-Mormon Lawyer Challenges Truth Claims

Can Mormonism stand up to legal criticism when it comes to their truth claims? In this short bonus episode, Kolby—an ex-Mormon lawyer— explains why certain things can't just be explained away by Mormon apologists and how definitions of words are bent when it suits them. Let's see how they might hold up if Mormonism was on trial! Click here to watch on YouTube!Make sure to check out the rest of Kolby's story here(clickable chapter markers available on YouTube)Why Apply Legal Principals to God? Se

Feb 22, 2023 • 31:22

How a Mormon Lawyer Lost His Faith

How a Mormon Lawyer Lost His Faith

When disturbing events disrupt the comfortable flow of Kolby's life, he starts to see the cracks in his faith and uses his abilities as a lawyer to take a real critical look at its truth claims. After further examination, he recounts how his shelf had been slowly getting heavier and heavier starting from a very young age. Click here to watch on YouTubeMake sure to check out part 2! (clickable chapter markers on YouTube)Mormon Stories Interview Update5-7 years old, testing his faith by walking on

Feb 20, 2023 • 55:26

The Tragic Side of a Mormon Mission

The Tragic Side of a Mormon Mission

She came home early from her Mormon mission due to medical negligence, all while dealing with the news that her parents no longer believed in the church. Hear from both mom and missionary, Collette and Keylee, in this heartfelt episode of ups downs and lemons on asses. You’ll see. Click here to watch on YouTube(clickable chapter markers available on YouTube)Why Keylee wanted to go on a missionCollette's Mormon background The Argentina training center & language barrierBaptizing vulnerable groups

Feb 14, 2023 • 1:10:41

How I Got My Ex-Mormon Mom to Try Psychedelics in Peru (alone)

How I Got My Ex-Mormon Mom to Try Psychedelics in Peru (alone)

Experiencing pure love, purging in technicolor, and releasing years of pent up guilt over Shelise’s childhood trauma, Mom takes us on a wild ride through Ayahuasca, Mushrooms, San Pedro, and Sapo (the God Molecule), to reveal exactly what it was like to travel solo to the jungles of Peru, to try all of these medicines for the first time.  Click here to watch on YouTube!(clickable chapter markers available on YouTube)Mom's Thoughts on Shelise trying Ayahuasca in Peru Mom finds out she's going to

Feb 9, 2023 • 55:47

Should You Try Psychedelic Therapy? Expert Advice from Brittany Bannerman

Should You Try Psychedelic Therapy? Expert Advice from Brittany Bannerman

Can psychedelics really change who you are? Is it possible to release years worth of trauma in only a single session? What are the things people DON'T tell you when it comes to psychedelics? Brittany Bannerman pops the lid off of all of it. If you have ever considered going into the the depths of your consciousness to heal and find peace, this episode is for you! Check out her list of credentials below.Click here to watch on YouTube(Clickable chapter markers on YouTube) Why is Brittany passionat

Feb 6, 2023 • 1:03:47

LDS Faith Crisis & Sexual Awakening While Married to Men

LDS Faith Crisis & Sexual Awakening While Married to Men

Two, married-with-children Latter Day Saint women experience a faith crisis, then realize they had been repressing their sexuality after being overcome with strong feelings for each other. A 2-in-1 crisis sent Lena and Sal on a journey of divorce, self-discovery and a queer marriage merger. Find out insider details that the Hulu Original "Mormon No More" left out & see how they are doing today! Make sure to check out their podcast "Peace Out" where they help those coming out of the closet and co

Jan 30, 2023 • 57:16

NXIVM: Self-Help to Sex Cult ft. Whistleblower Sarah Edmondson

NXIVM: Self-Help to Sex Cult ft. Whistleblower Sarah Edmondson

**Content Warning: Child Sex Abuse** Self-help goes dark when a now-convicted and imprisoned sex trafficker and pedophile was at the helm of the ship. Unbeknownst to most of the members of NXIVM, curriculum was created to groom the inner circle to do whatever he wanted in a sex slave/master context. I speak with Sarah Edmondson, a key whistleblower and top recruiter, who went public with her story after being literally branded into a women's secret society within NXIVM. She tells the story of wh

Jan 24, 2023 • 57:25

Finding Identity After Mormonism ft Zelph On the Shelf

Finding Identity After Mormonism ft Zelph On the Shelf

Born into a box, or molded and shaped into a box? Tanner and Sam had different experiences having to conform to Mormon standards, ways of thinking and outward presentation even when those perspectives were negative towards themselves. Having left the church, they have blossomed into a brighter and more colorful version of themselves that feels authentic to who they really are or were all along. Let's talk about cringy things we did as Mormons, faith crisis spirals and psychedelic awakenings!Clic

Jan 16, 2023 • 43:18

Mormon Missionary Vs Convert: Disturbing Confessions ft. Zelph On the Shelf

Mormon Missionary Vs Convert: Disturbing Confessions ft. Zelph On the Shelf

Joined by the awesome duo from Zelph On the Shelf, we take a peek behind the curtain of an LDS convert and a missionary to compare notes! What was it like converting to Mormonism in England & what was it like being the converter with a quota to reach? Two incredibly interesting perspectives! Click here to watch the episode!Chapter Markers Clickable on YouTubeIntroWhat does Zelph On the Shelf mean?Sam's conversion to MormonismBeing Mormon in England Easier to convert certain groups of people?Why

Jan 10, 2023 • 1:09:09

Everything I've Always Wanted to Ask John Dehlin, Answered

Everything I've Always Wanted to Ask John Dehlin, Answered

John Dehlin is usually the one asking the tough questions in his Mormon Stories interviews. This time, I turn the tables and find out some of the most shocking things he's heard in his 25+ years of experience podcasting, how he handles the spotlight, public smearing, how it impacts his family life, his current beliefs and more! Click here to watch the episode on YouTube (Clickable timestamps available on YouTube)The most shocking things you've heard in an Interview?What inspires you to keep goin

Jan 3, 2023 • 1:11:34

I Asked John Dehlin What HE Would Do as The Mormon Prophet

I Asked John Dehlin What HE Would Do as The Mormon Prophet

Every issue with the Mormon church in 90 minutes. John Dehlin has countlessly affected real change in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints by using his platform to amplify problems and demand accountability. From inspiring the CES letter, getting "The Miracle of Forgiveness" removed from the shelves of Deseret Book and bishop's interviews being modified after his coverage on Sam Young's story (to name a few), some would say John has inspired more "revelations" than the church itself.

Dec 28, 2022 • 1:35:06

Mormon Sex Therapist's Reaction to Daily P*rn Use Ft. Natasha Helfer

Mormon Sex Therapist's Reaction to Daily P*rn Use Ft. Natasha Helfer

Sex. If the word makes you uncomfortable, then you'll definitely want to watch this episode. It's time we get comfy talking about a healthy sex life and expose the common misconceptions based on scientific research, around sex media. When did sex media originate? What caused the "p*rn panic"? Can we use sexual media for education and what is normal when it comes to viewing it? Natasha, a Mormon certified sex therapist answers all my (and your) questions in this spicy episode!Click here to watch

Dec 22, 2022 • 50:14

LDS Sex Therapist Excommunicated for Views on Masturbation ft. Natasha Helfer

LDS Sex Therapist Excommunicated for Views on Masturbation ft. Natasha Helfer

Natasha couldn't stay silent. She put ethics and her license above her religion in the name of helping people who were struggling due to clinically incorrect information given by the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. The church's response was to excommunicate her. From the mythology of masturbation & the details of Natasha's story, to how purity culture is harmful, we ask for change in the religious institutions who are actively hurting their own members.Click here to watch the episod

Dec 19, 2022 • 52:45

Thriving in the OneTaste "Orgasm Cult" (Insider Secrets Revealed)

Thriving in the OneTaste "Orgasm Cult" (Insider Secrets Revealed)

**Content warning- Sexual Assault**From sexual wellness to SEXploitation, this is what happens when cult leader Nicole Daedone convinces people to worship the female orgasm as God. This multi-million dollar cult gained national attention and recognition from celebrities like Gwenyth Paltrow & Tony Robbins with it's Orgasmic Meditation practices, but was hiding a dark side with priest initiations, underpaid and overworked employees, and a breeding ground for blurred sexual boundaries. Ruwan Meepa

Dec 13, 2022 • 1:08:28

Does My Mom Regret Leaving Mormonism?

Does My Mom Regret Leaving Mormonism?

I brought Mama back for an un-censored Part 2 where we discuss everything from self worth, boobs, uneasy temple practices and if she has regrets about leaving the church she was born and raised in. I also uncovered my very own Patriarchal blessing in an old memorabilia bin with a letter my religous-at-the-time mom wrote to me. Buckle up! It's a bumpy one!Click here to watch this episode on YouTube! Find Mama on Social Media!Instagram @spiritofottertail Our Merch! Patreon: Patreon.com/cultstocons

Dec 5, 2022 • 1:03:44

High Demand Religions Can Cause C-PTSD (the fix) ft. Therapist Logan Cohen

High Demand Religions Can Cause C-PTSD (the fix) ft. Therapist Logan Cohen

Listen to find out: what constitutes religious abuse, how to spot and heal small t trauma which can be cPTSD, how to break destructive programmed behavior and redefine your trauma responses. This episode is FULL of tips and tricks from licensed therapist Logan Cohen, so make sure to listen to the end and let us know if it was helpful.Click here to watch the episode on YouTube! About Logan:Practicing Marriage & Family Therapist (LMFT), an Approved Supervisor with American Association of Marriage

Nov 28, 2022 • 58:33

Fear of End Times: Ex-Jehovah's Witness Confessions ft. @AltWorldly

Fear of End Times: Ex-Jehovah's Witness Confessions ft. @AltWorldly

How to survive the Armageddon. Jake,  @AltWorldly a 4th generation (ex) Jehovah's Witness talks about his childhood, growing up with the fear of annihilation, disfellowship, and what he's doing now to help and advise the community of those who have left the JW church. Click here to watch this episode on YouTube!Make sure to go to his channel to watch another video collaboration we did on How Jehovah's Witnesses are similar to members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Find Jake

Nov 21, 2022 • 1:07:50

How Psychedelics Changed My Life

How Psychedelics Changed My Life

**Content Warning: Child Sexual Abuse** 0 to 100! Straight-Edge to AYAHUASCA (7 Ceremonies/10 Days). From deep into the Amazon jungle,  to high into space for some alien encounters, these are the tales of how I (an ex-Mormon) tried psychedelics for the first time, to heal childhood wounds and reclaim my power. Learn more about my story and why I believe psychedelics are a powerful healing tool just as our ancestors did. Click here to watch this episode on YouTube!Our Merch! Patreon: Patreon.com/

Nov 7, 2022 • 1:00:33

How Pyramid Schemes Use MIND CONTROL for Profit ft. Erin Bies

How Pyramid Schemes Use MIND CONTROL for Profit ft. Erin Bies

Ever considered that MLMs are culty? Duplication, social media love bombing, transactional relationships and loss of individuality and identity... Erin Bies spent 13 years as a top seller in multiple different  pyramid schemes and now, to make amends, her goal is to spread awareness about MLMs to help others avoid the culty mind control that is inevitable when joining.She's a wife, a mom a military vet and she brings all the sugar and spice to this interesting topic! Enjoy!To watch the episode,

Oct 31, 2022 • 1:10:02

​ Lloyd Evans: 11 Simple Ways Jehovah's Witnesses Are Controlled

​ Lloyd Evans: 11 Simple Ways Jehovah's Witnesses Are Controlled

Lloyd Evans, Ex-Jehovah's Witness, advocate, author and more, joins us to discuss a brief history about the JW faith, from Elder to apostate, indoctrinating Armageddon drills, apostasy trials and how he became the expert go-to-guy on JW. We then discuss the simple yet effective ways the JW members are controlled including infantilization, us vs them and my favorite, the evil Satan Ventriloquist!Lloyd has helped thousands of people deconstruct through his YouTube channel, novels (links below) and

Oct 27, 2022 • 1:08:20

Ex-Mormon Sex Confessions with @ExmoLex ​

Ex-Mormon Sex Confessions with @ExmoLex ​

NSFW Vulnerable girl talk! Losing my virginity, shame, guilt, reasons for creating ridiculous sexual loopholes, and the harmful distortions that result. Exmo Lex, who is a very popular Ex-Mormon content creator, gets spicy with me to say all the things others may be too shy to say.  I might regret my oversharing later, but we both thought it was important to touch on all the ways sexual repression can harm an individual. (TW:sexual assault)To watch the episode, go to Cults to Consciousness on Yo

Oct 24, 2022 • 1:09:35

My Fiancé's Issues with My Mormon Past

My Fiancé's Issues with My Mormon Past

My fiancé tells all! Serious, silly & sexy, we discuss the realities of dating an ex-mormon, perspectives of a never-mo, family drama & with what belief systems we want to raise our own kids. NSFW lol Tell us if you can relate!To watch the episode, go to Cults to Consciousness on YouTube.Find Jonathan on Social Media!YouTube @MethodBoxInstagram @jonathan.rosales_Our Merch! Patreon: Patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannAny donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of

Oct 18, 2022 • 54:59

How I Got My Mom to Leave Mormonism

How I Got My Mom to Leave Mormonism

Toxic perfectionism, family vs faith, shocking garment stories, and multigenerational perspectives on being a good Mormon mom. Even I learned some things about my childhood, including secret feelings about the demands of church. I can't wait to share my mom's story with you!To watch the episode, go to Cults to Consciousness on YouTube.Find Lisa on Social Media!Instagram @SpiritofOttertailOur Merch! Patreon: Patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannAny donations are welcome and appreciate

Oct 10, 2022 • 1:13:03

Hillsong Megachurch: Harmful Practices EXPOSED

Hillsong Megachurch: Harmful Practices EXPOSED

Noemi is an incredible example of transformation of mind, body and soul after enduring extreme religious practices first in Mexico, then emotional abuse at Hillsong Megachurch. Now she is a powerful voice and advocate in the LGBTQ affirming space. You can watch her on Discovery + docuseries "Hillsong: A Megachurch Exposed" and find her on social media listed below. (TW: Suicidal thoughts) To watch the episode, go to Cults to Consciousness on YouTube.Find Noemi UribeInstagram @noemimi.uLGBTQ Affi

Oct 3, 2022 • 1:14:31

Why Millions Deconstruct Their Faith Every Year ft. Phil Drysdale

Why Millions Deconstruct Their Faith Every Year ft. Phil Drysdale

Former devout pastor Phil Drysdale, shares his eye opening story of questioning Christians coming to him for support, and how his constant curiosity led him to deconstruct his faith as well. We discuss his research into who leaves their faith and why, as well as the 6 stages of morality which may shock you. Jam packed with information, you are sure to learn a few things from this episode!To watch the episode, go to Cults to Consciousness on YouTube.Find Phil DrysdaleYouTube  The Phil Drysdale Sh

Sep 19, 2022 • 1:31:06

John Larsen: What Comes After Atheism?

John Larsen: What Comes After Atheism?

Mormon Expressions creator John Larsen, joins me to talk about theism, atheism and what comes after. How religions can co-opt social structures, yet force us to create community which is essentially what humans need as evolved animals. Pros and cons with pragmatism and curiosity.To watch the episode, go to Cults to Consciousness on YouTube. Find John LarsenYouTube  John Larsen  Email: John@johnlarsen.org Website www.johnlarsen.orgOur Merch! Patreon: Patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @shelise

Sep 12, 2022 • 1:23:20

How to Heal Your Inner Child ft. Kimber Tiernan

How to Heal Your Inner Child ft. Kimber Tiernan

Kimber is a master teacher, healer, Akashic reader and just overall magical being! Join us, as we talk about astral projecting, dark nights of the soul, divine feminine hijacking, distorted masculine, how to heal our inner child and how to rewire our brains to manifest our dream reality. To watch the episode, go to Cults to Consciousness on YouTube. Find Kimber!Instagram @KimberTiernanWebsite DivineAlchemyAcademy.coOur Merch! Patreon: Patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannAny donatio

Sep 6, 2022 • 1:07:32

Almost a Plural Wife... Why She Disavowed LDS Fundamentalism

Almost a Plural Wife... Why She Disavowed LDS Fundamentalism

Angela tells her wild stories about what it was like growing up in a fundamentalist Mormon sect, how it affected her life choices and psychology, and how she was able to deprogram a decade later. (TW: Racism) To watch the episode, go to Cults to Consciousness on YouTubeOur Merch! Patreon: Patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannAny donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcastWebsite CultsToConsciousness.comFind Shelise on Social media!Instagram @cultstocon

Aug 22, 2022 • 53:47

Exposing Traumatic Cult Propaganda ft. "True Mormon Quotes"

Exposing Traumatic Cult Propaganda ft. "True Mormon Quotes"

When someone claims to speak directly to God and relay God's message to His followers, there needs to be a high level of scrutiny. This is exactly what the creator of Instagram page @True_Mormon_Quotes strives to do.  Hold the leaders of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints accountable for their doctrine.We reveal this instagram hero's identity for the first time before diving into his backstory. Next we talk about the cognitive dissonance people face when their beliefs are threatened

Aug 15, 2022 • 1:18:09

Her Unexpected Escape From Quiverfull Cults (ft. Ashley Easter)

Her Unexpected Escape From Quiverfull Cults (ft. Ashley Easter)

Not only was Ashley Easter (Intuitive Master, Coach, Advocate) in a Cult. She was in FIVE! A Russian nesting doll of cults. Find out how she finally listened to her intuition to get out and become a BOSS! To watch the episode, go to Cults to Consciousness on YouTube.As mentioned:Cults Hidden In Plain Sight- FREE EbookButterfly Photoshoot (shown in YT video)Get intuitive texts from Ashley! Text “Intuition” to 917-809-7311 Courage 365: A non-profit for abuse survivorsConnect with Ashley:Website: w

Aug 8, 2022 • 1:04:03

Why I Left "Mormons on Mushrooms" Podcast (the WHOLE story)

Why I Left "Mormons on Mushrooms" Podcast (the WHOLE story)

This is not a normal episode. For 2 years, I was a co-host of the Mormons on Mushrooms podcast and I loved it. I enjoyed interviewing our guests and the episodes with just Mike, Doug and I. Sadly, this has come to and end and ultimately birthed Cults to Consciousness. While I am hurt by the choices that were made, I'm excited to dive deep into my own podcast! This is the full story of what happened and how we got here; joined by my partner in love, my fiancé, Jonathan. To watch this episode, go

Aug 2, 2022 • 44:18

From Oppressive Cult to ExMormon Powerhouse ft. NuanceHoe

From Oppressive Cult to ExMormon Powerhouse ft. NuanceHoe

Episode 2: The fabulous and funny Carah,  @nuancehoe , joins us and walks us through her Mormon story. From a chaotic home life, to classic patriarchy, she realized the traumas that some people were facing due to the Mormon church. Listen to her recount never-before-told-stories of reclaiming her power spiritually, emotionally, physically and mentally!To watch the episode, go to Cults to Consciousness on YouTube.Find Carah on social media!Youtube:  @nuancehoe Instagram @NuanceHoeTikTok @NuanceHo

Jul 25, 2022 • 1:03:12

Why I Left Mormonism (Mind Control Tactics)

Why I Left Mormonism (Mind Control Tactics)

Here's my Mormon story! From pioneer stock, to spiritualist, I talk about what it was like growing up Mormon, why I left and what I aim to do with this new channel. I give an explanation of the BITE model which describes attributes of a Cult, so you can clearly discern if you too might be unknowingly be in one. Find your independence, find your peace, find your sovereignty and come into true awareness which is what I define as consciousness.To watch the episode, go to Cults to Consciousness on Y

Jul 16, 2022 • 46:01

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